Sene 2004, Aral\u0131k ay\u0131…\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Bursa\u2019day\u0131z…\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Bebeler k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck. Evde \u00e7ok \u015feker bi bak\u0131c\u0131 teyzemiz var. K\u0131z\u0131 evlendi, Kayseri Sar\u0131z\u2019a gitti.\u00a0 <\/span>Orada g\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fc \u00f6\u011fretmenlik yap\u0131yor. Bi g\u00fcn bi haber yollad\u0131 \u201cBurada kar k\u0131\u015f \u00e7ok fena, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n \u00e7o\u011fu terlikle geliyor. Kabanlar\u0131 yok, \u00e7oraplar\u0131 yok… Yard\u0131m… imdaattt!…\u201d diye.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Bana nas\u0131l dokunduysa \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m evden al\u0131\u015fveri\u015fe. \u00dc\u00e7 ya\u015ftan on sekiz ya\u015fa kadar her boya\u00a0 <\/span>en az 80 – 100 ki\u015filik k\u0131yafet, polar e\u015fofman tak\u0131mlar\u0131, kabanlar, atk\u0131lar, bereler, y\u00fcn \u00e7oraplar, k\u0131zlar i\u00e7in sa\u00e7 tokalar\u0131 ve her boy (toplamda 150 \u00e7ift olmu\u015ftur) kar botlar\u0131… Bunlar\u0131n baz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n paras\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6dedim. Baz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n paras\u0131n\u0131 e\u015f dost verdi. Ama \u00e7o\u011funun paras\u0131n\u0131, \u00fcr\u00fcnleri almaya gitti\u011fim fabrikalar\u0131n, toptanc\u0131lar\u0131n sahipleri kar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131. Hatta adresi verdim, bi de kargolad\u0131lar.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Tokac\u0131 \u00e7ok tatl\u0131yd\u0131. \u201cB\u00f6yle y\u00fcz tane falan laz\u0131m\u201d dedim.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cNiye?\u201d dedi, anlatt\u0131m.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u00c7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131na seslendi,\u00a0 <\/span>bi\u015feyler s\u00f6yledi. \u00c7ocuk siyah battal boy bi \u00e7\u00f6p po\u015fetiyle geldi ve avu\u00e7 avu\u00e7 tokalar\u0131 boca etti. Ben diyeyim 100, siz deyin 200 toka! Saymad\u0131k ki!\u00a0 <\/span>\u201cBorcum?\u201d dedim… \u201cBenim sevap kazanmama mani olamazs\u0131n…\u201d dedi. Ald\u0131m torbay\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m…\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n G\u00fcl\u00fcyor muydum, a\u011fl\u0131yor muydum hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n Ayakkab\u0131c\u0131lar \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131s\u0131 vard\u0131r Bursa\u2019da. Toptan sat\u0131\u015f yaparlar. Kar botlar\u0131 almam laz\u0131m, dald\u0131m i\u00e7eri. G\u00f6z\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>alabildi\u011fine \u00fcretim yapan d\u00fckkanlar ve bir s\u00fcr\u00fc ma\u011faza sahibi koca koca adamlar al\u0131\u015fveri\u015f yap\u0131yor. Kendimi \u00e7ok e\u011freti hissettim orada ama i\u015fim var, u\u011fra\u015famam \u015fimdi bu duyguyla… 36-43 numaralar aras\u0131 neredeyse 100 \u00e7ift botu paras\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6deyerek hallettim ve \u00fcreticiden adrese kargo s\u00f6z\u00fc al\u0131p \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m. Ama k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckler i\u00e7in yoktu bot orada. Hani 30-36 aras\u0131 gibi numaralar… Dolan\u0131yorum \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131da… Bi vitrinde minik bi bot g\u00f6rd\u00fcm (ama sadece o botu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm vitrinde, di\u011fer hi\u00e7 bir \u015feyi farketmedim). Direkt dald\u0131m d\u00fckkana sevin\u00e7le!… Ama i\u00e7eri girip de raflardaki \u00fcr\u00fcnleri g\u00f6r\u00fcnce \u201cHaaa pardon, yanl\u0131\u015f girdim ben galiba…\u201d deyip kap\u0131ya y\u00f6neldim (i\u00e7eride ve vitrinde ancak sahne sanat\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n giyebilece\u011fi frapanl\u0131kta\u00a0 <\/span>all\u0131 pullu, i\u015fli ta\u015fl\u0131 \u00e7izmeler var zira) Hayal miydi o minicik bot b\u00f6yle bir d\u00fckkan\u0131n vitrininde?… Neydi ki onu bana g\u00f6steren?<\/p>\n Hayal k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcme nas\u0131l yans\u0131d\u0131ysa i\u00e7eride b\u00fcro k\u0131sm\u0131nda oturan bey f\u0131rlad\u0131 geldi ve sordu\u00a0 <\/span>\u201cSiz nas\u0131l bi\u015fey bakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131n\u0131z?\u201d \u00c7ok yorgundum… Galiba y\u0131\u011f\u0131ld\u0131m sandalyeye, anlatt\u0131m i\u015fte olan\u0131 biteni. Adam eleman\u0131na s\u00f6yleyip arkadan bi y\u0131\u011f\u0131n kutu getirtti. Dedi ki \u201cBen bunlar\u0131 satm\u0131yorum, bunlar\u0131 hay\u0131r yapmak i\u00e7in alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, 36 numaradan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ocuk botlar\u0131 var burada, 45 \u00e7ift. \u0130\u015finize yarar m\u0131?.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Ahhh!… K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131kla kar\u0131\u015f\u0131k, dedim \u201cYaramaz m\u0131?!.\u201d<\/p>\n Ald\u0131 adresi kargolad\u0131 adam.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n O sene, bir hafta i\u00e7inde onlarca koli ve hur\u00e7 dolusu malzeme y\u0131\u011f\u0131ld\u0131 o k\u00f6y\u00fcn okuluna. G\u00fczel k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z, hepsini elleriyle da\u011f\u0131tt\u0131, giydirdi \u00f6\u011frencilerine. Hatta \u00f6\u011frencilerin evdeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck karde\u015flerine, bebeklere, hamile annelere bile bi s\u00fcr\u00fc \u015fey ula\u015ft\u0131. K\u0131zlar eskimi\u015f \u00e7oraplar\u0131n bilek lastiklerinden sa\u00e7 tokas\u0131 yaparlarm\u0131\u015f. Bi d\u00fcnya cicili bicili tokay\u0131 \u00f6m\u00fcrlerinde ilk defa g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fler. Delirmi\u015f hepsi!… O kadar mutlu olmu\u015ftum ki, anlatamam!… Kendim i\u00e7in al\u0131\u015fveri\u015f yaparken assslaa pazarl\u0131k yapamayan ben, o \u00e7ocuklar i\u00e7in (bedava ald\u0131klar\u0131m ve ba\u011f\u0131\u015flananlar\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda) para \u00f6dediklerimi de hem maliyetine alm\u0131\u015f hem de kargolatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Pek \u00e7ok ki\u015fiye yay\u0131lan bir iyilik hareketine d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Ama ba\u015f kahraman\u0131 bak\u0131c\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n k\u0131z\u0131\u2026 Mutluluktan havalardayd\u0131. K\u00f6yde bir kahramana d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Derken, birka\u00e7 hafta sonra \u201cAileni ziyaret et\u201d diye okul tatilinde e\u015fi (askerdi) onu Bursa\u2019ya yollad\u0131. Hafta sonu kal\u0131p d\u00f6necekti… Ama bir gece bak\u0131c\u0131 teyzemiz feryat figan bizi arad\u0131. Evin i\u00e7ine buz gibi bir bomba d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc gelen haberle!\u00a0 <\/span>Kayseri\u2019de kalan damat silah\u0131yla beynini patlatm\u0131\u015f, intihar etmi\u015f! K\u0131zca\u011f\u0131z\u0131 da o nedenle yollam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 belli ki…! Madde ba\u011f\u0131ml\u0131s\u0131 oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcren kitaplar \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f e\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan. K\u0131zca\u011f\u0131z bilmiyormu\u015f durumu. Ne trajediydi ya\u015fanan!\u00a0 <\/span>K\u0131zca\u011f\u0131z aldat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, terkedilmi\u015f, y\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, darmada\u011f\u0131n olmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n Dedim ki \u201c\u0130yiliklerin seni korudu. Ya sana da k\u0131ysayd\u0131?! Ya hamile olsayd\u0131n?!… Hi\u00e7 de \u015firin bir durum de\u011fil tamam ama bu a\u011f\u0131r trajediyle belki Allah, seni beterinden \u00e7ekip kurtard\u0131\u201d.<\/p>\n Tabii atlatmas\u0131 y\u0131llar ald\u0131. \u015eimdi evli, mutlu… Kendi gibi yaral\u0131 birini se\u00e7ti evlenmek i\u00e7in. Sard\u0131lar birlikte yaralar\u0131n\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Demem o ki; iyilikler asla kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ks\u0131z kalm\u0131yor; k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fckler de…\u00a0 <\/span>Bilmedi\u011finizi san\u0131p, arkan\u0131zdan i\u015f \u00e7evirenleri Allah size bile hissettirmeden \u00f6yle g\u00fczel terbiye ediyor ki… Hi\u00e7 bir \u015fey bo\u015f de\u011fil!. Allah\u2019\u0131 tam yan\u0131ba\u015f\u0131mda hissettiren, sessizce ta\u015flar\u0131 nas\u0131l da yerlerine koydu\u011funu g\u00f6steren, say\u0131s\u0131z ibretlerden biri\u2026\u00a0 <\/span>Bize bel\u00e2 gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnen \u015feyler, belki daha beterlerinden bizi koruyan engellerdir.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u00d6yle i\u015fte…<\/p>\n Allah\u2019a emanet olun…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u00dcLK\u00dc \u00c7ET\u0130NKANAT Sene 2004, Aral\u0131k ay\u0131…\u00a0 Bursa\u2019day\u0131z…\u00a0 Bebeler k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck. Evde \u00e7ok \u015feker bi bak\u0131c\u0131 teyzemiz var. K\u0131z\u0131 evlendi,<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":934,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[4],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n