{"id":852,"date":"2020-03-09T18:12:47","date_gmt":"2020-03-09T18:12:47","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=852"},"modified":"2020-03-09T18:12:48","modified_gmt":"2020-03-09T18:12:48","slug":"hu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=852","title":{"rendered":"H\u00db"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p><b>S\u0130NE EL\u0130F<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/b><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Derenin kenar\u0131na oturup dertlerini y\u0131k\u0131yorum d\u00fcnyan\u0131n. Bitmiyor, y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131yor \u00f6n\u00fcme da\u011f gibi. \u201cHa gayret!\u201d diyorum bir ba\u015fkas\u0131 ili\u015ftirmi\u015f yine bir \u015feyler, \u00f6b\u00fcr\u00fc g\u00f6z\u00fcme sokarcas\u0131na koyuyor. Elime, y\u0131llard\u0131r g\u00f6rmedi\u011fim, dokunmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m ko\u015farken pe\u015fimden, ev halk\u0131na \u201cyadigar\u201d desinler diye b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m ney&#8217;i ald\u0131m. Hayat soluklarcas\u0131na \u00fcfledim. Bir yang\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcrcesine. \u00c7imenleri ye\u015fillendirircesine. Suda \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan b\u00f6ce\u011fe \u00e7\u00f6p\u00fc uzat\u0131rcas\u0131na, ta\u015f\u0131 insano\u011fluna basamak yaparcas\u0131na \u201cH<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00fb!..<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201d dedim.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Titreyen parmaklar\u0131m acemilikten sarho\u015f, yalpal\u0131yor&#8230; Notalar savruluyor; davul olmu\u015f ney, vuruyor kalbime g\u00fcm g\u00fcm inletiyor benli\u011fimi. Heyhaaat!.. Ac\u0131s\u0131 yok tenimin, ya ruhumun b\u00f6yle k\u0131vranmas\u0131na ne demeli? Nas\u0131l \u00f6lm\u00fcyor ruhum ac\u0131dan, kederden?.. Nas\u0131l nefes al\u0131p veriyorum? Kalbim \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor san\u0131yorum yerinden, sa\u011f elimin i\u00e7iyle bast\u0131r\u0131yorum. \u015eifa niyetiyle \u201cH<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00fb!..<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201d.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Minik bir kedi beliriyor g\u00f6z\u00fcmde. Donmu\u015f, so\u011fuktan buz tutmu\u015f k\u0131ldan ince b\u0131y\u0131klar\u0131. \u015eimdi ge\u00e7ebilir mi insanl\u0131k k\u0131l\u0131\u00e7tan keskin k\u00f6pr\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fczerinden? \u00d6ylece kaskat\u0131 kalakalm\u0131\u015f kald\u0131r\u0131m kenar\u0131nda. Ruhu ac\u0131mayanlar\u0131n ayak izleri minik y\u00fcz\u00fcnde. Bela okuyor ney&#8217;im insanl\u0131\u011fa bu sefer. S\u00f6v\u00fcp say\u0131yor. Yak\u0131p y\u0131k\u0131yor d\u00fcnyay\u0131 bu elem. G\u00f6recek g\u00f6z laz\u0131m.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Battaniyeye sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir k\u00f6pek \u00f6tede. Kula\u011f\u0131na \u00fcfl\u00fcyorum nefesimi, \u201cH<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00fb!&#8230;<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201d. \u015eaha kalkm\u0131\u015f evvelkiler selam veriyorlar sabah\u0131na el uzatana. \u201cUmut\u201d diyor ney mavi mavi, kar\u0131\u015f\u0131yor dereye g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Aya\u011f\u0131nda terlikle okula gideni; g\u00f6rmeyen g\u00f6z\u00fc, tutmayan eliyle hayata tutunmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan insanlar\u0131; ayakkab\u0131 boyayan ya\u015fl\u0131s\u0131&#8230; Anas\u0131 gurbette, yavrusu s\u0131lada, sevdice\u011fi kuyuda&#8230; Kah\u0131r sarm\u0131\u015f evlerin duvarlar\u0131n\u0131. Perde perde a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131p g\u00f6steriyorlar kendilerini. Merhametin esamesi okunmayan AVM halk\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcp \u201cH<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00fb!..<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201d diyor ney. Susmuyor&#8230; A\u011fl\u0131yor&#8230; Dinmiyor g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131. Tuzu yak\u0131yor ellerimi. Bu ruh ta\u015f\u0131yamaz bu bedeni. S\u00fcr\u00fcklenmekten korkuyor.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cH<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00fb!..<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201d deyip dirilemeyen ruhlar\u0131 y\u0131k\u0131yor derede. Ate\u015fle temizliyor. \u201cUyan\u0131n ahali! \u0130nsanl\u0131k \u00f6l\u00fcyor.\u201d derken y\u0131rt\u0131yor da\u011flar\u0131 nefesi. Susuyor herkesler. K\u0131yameti kopmu\u015f ruhlar\u0131n, ancak bedenler oyalanmakta. \u201cH<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00fb!..<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201d diyorum Mevla&#8217;m. Bu da ge\u00e7er Y\u00e2 H<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00fb<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">!!!<\/span><\/p>\n<p><br \/><br \/><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>S\u0130NE EL\u0130F\u00a0 Derenin kenar\u0131na oturup dertlerini y\u0131k\u0131yorum d\u00fcnyan\u0131n. Bitmiyor, y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131yor \u00f6n\u00fcme da\u011f gibi. \u201cHa gayret!\u201d diyorum bir ba\u015fkas\u0131<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":629,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[2],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"<!-- This site is optimized with the Yoast SEO plugin v15.5 - https:\/\/yoast.com\/wordpress\/plugins\/seo\/ -->\n<title>H\u00db - SES MAGAZINE<\/title>\n<meta name=\"robots\" content=\"index, follow, max-snippet:-1, max-image-preview:large, max-video-preview:-1\" \/>\n<link rel=\"canonical\" href=\"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=852\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:locale\" content=\"en_US\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:type\" content=\"article\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:title\" content=\"H\u00db - SES MAGAZINE\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:description\" content=\"S\u0130NE EL\u0130F\u00a0 Derenin kenar\u0131na oturup dertlerini y\u0131k\u0131yorum d\u00fcnyan\u0131n. 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