{"id":672,"date":"2020-02-01T23:14:36","date_gmt":"2020-02-01T23:14:36","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=672"},"modified":"2020-02-01T23:14:37","modified_gmt":"2020-02-01T23:14:37","slug":"benim-bayramim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=672","title":{"rendered":"BEN\u0130M BAYRAMIM"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><b>Sad\u0131k-\u0131 Meva<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/b><\/p>\n<p>\u201cVedala\u015f\u0131yor herkes! Bense babama s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131l\u0131yorum. Kula\u011f\u0131ma e\u011filip \u201cbu evin dire\u011fi sensin k\u0131z\u0131m!\u201d diyor. \u00d6nce Allah\u2019a sonra birbirimize emanet ediyor bizi.\u201c<\/p>\n<p>Karanl\u0131k bir sokakta y\u00fcr\u00fcyorum, ad\u0131m\u0131m\u0131 nereye att\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6remeden. Pis bir koku geliyor burnuma ve<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>etraf\u0131ma bak\u0131yorum kimseler yok. Ad\u0131mlar\u0131m\u0131 h\u0131zland\u0131rmaya ba\u015fl\u0131yorum \u015fayet durdu\u011fum yerde kalm\u0131\u015f olsam belki korkum iki kat\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kacak. Ko\u015farken pe\u015fimden birilerinin geldi\u011fini hissediyorum. H\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 iyice artt\u0131r\u0131yorum arkamdaki insandan kurtulmak i\u00e7in ama nafile! \u015eu an so\u011fuk nefesini ensemde<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>hissediyorum. Birisi omzumdan tutup yakalay\u0131veriyor beni ve elindeki b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 ac\u0131mas\u0131zca s\u0131rt\u0131ma sapl\u0131yor. Bu dayan\u0131lmaz ac\u0131 ile soka\u011f\u0131n ortas\u0131na seriliveriyorum!<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Alarm\u0131n sesi ile uyand\u0131m bu kabus dolu uykudan. Bu nas\u0131l bir r\u00fcyayd\u0131 b\u00f6yle! S\u0131rt\u0131ma saplanan b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n ac\u0131s\u0131 hala s\u0131rt\u0131mda sanki. Felaket bir ac\u0131! Do\u011frulmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum; yok yok bu ac\u0131 beni yata\u011fa kilitlemi\u015f durumda, kalkam\u0131yorum. Bedenim nas\u0131l kas\u0131ld\u0131ysa sanki ger\u00e7ekten s\u0131rt\u0131mdan b\u0131\u00e7aklanm\u0131\u015f gibiyim. Odam\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 annem aral\u0131yor, \u201chaz\u0131rlan!\u201d diyecek muhtemelen. Bug\u00fcn bayram da\u2026 Burada gelenek midir nedir bayram\u0131n ilk g\u00fcn\u00fc herkes k\u00f6y\u00fcne gider. Birbirlerinin hal ve ahvallerinden haberi olmayan pek k\u0131ymetli akrabalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n bulu\u015ftu\u011fu g\u00fcnd\u00fcr bayram\u0131n ilk g\u00fcn\u00fc. K\u00f6ye gidece\u011fiz anlayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131z! Sabah\u0131n nurunda hem de&#8230;<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Bayram demi\u015ftim de\u011fil mi? Bu seferki bayram kendisini pek bayram gibi hissettirmiyor bana. Hani evlerde bayram sabah\u0131 herkes erkenden uyan\u0131r, ailenin b\u00fct\u00fcn fertleri bayram\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131lamak i\u00e7in haz\u0131rl\u0131k i\u00e7indedir ya! Anneler kahvalt\u0131 haz\u0131rlar, k\u0131zlar\u0131 sofran\u0131n kurulmas\u0131na yard\u0131mc\u0131 olur ve saire\u2026 \u0130\u015fte bu bayram sabah\u0131 bu anlatt\u0131klar\u0131mdan eser yok! Biliyorum bu bayram pek de istedi\u011fim gibi ge\u00e7meyecek. Benim ger\u00e7ek bayram\u0131m ne zaman ba\u015fl\u0131yor biliyor musunuz? Bayram\u0131n ikinci g\u00fcn\u00fc yani babama sar\u0131labilece\u011fim \u201ca\u00e7\u0131k g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u201d g\u00fcn\u00fc! K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n babalar\u0131na kavu\u015ftu\u011fu g\u00fcn. Annelerin evlatlar\u0131na hasretle sar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u015fte o g\u00fcn benim bayram g\u00fcn\u00fcm. Aile fertlerinin birbirlerine kavu\u015ftu\u011fu bu g\u00fcnde herkes pek mesut. Eminim ki o g\u00fczel insanlar\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki mutluluk g\u00fcne\u015fini siz de g\u00f6rmek isterdiniz.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Ne ac\u0131lar ya\u015fan\u0131yor biliyor musunuz? Ben babama ayda bir sar\u0131labiliyorken ba\u015fka \u00e7ocuklar be\u015f alt\u0131 ayd\u0131r sesini bile duyam\u0131yor babalar\u0131n\u0131n -g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m hemen de ak\u0131veriyor!- Bayram\u0131n ikinci g\u00fcn\u00fc geldi\u011finde herkes ama<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span>herkes ancak sevdikleriyle beraber olabilecek. \u015eimdi size oturup da pek k\u0131ymetli akrabalar\u0131mdan bahsetmek istemiyorum, hele hele bayram\u0131n ilk g\u00fcn\u00fcnden asla! Direkt bayram\u0131n ikinci g\u00fcn\u00fcnden mevzuya gireyim. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ben size ger\u00e7ek bayram\u0131mdan bahsetme istiyorum. Benim gibi olan insanlar\u0131n bayram\u0131ndan\u2026<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fc sabah\u0131 erkenden kalk\u0131yor bir g\u00fczel haz\u0131rlan\u0131yorsunuz. Sonra da zalim gardiyanlar sizi ararken her \u015feyiniz alt \u00fcst oluveriyor. Ka\u00e7 tane kontrol noktas\u0131 ve aramadan ge\u00e7iyoruz biliyor musunuz? Neyse be\u015f dakika sonra babam\u0131 g\u00f6rece\u011fim ya az daha \u201csab\u0131r!\u201d diyerek kendimi teskin<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>ediyorum. Babam\u0131n o huzur dolu g\u00f6zlerini bir g\u00f6rseniz; \u201cbiz burada \u00e7ok iyiyiz, sa\u011f olsun arkada\u015flar her t\u00fcrl\u00fc yard\u0131mc\u0131 oluyor bize!\u201d deyi\u015fini&#8230; Bizi teskin ediyor kendince ve g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fczde yanan ate\u015fleri g\u00f6r\u00fcrcesine yang\u0131n\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcrmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor bu naif kelimeleri ile\u2026 Babam ve babam gibileri hep b\u00f6yledir zaten! Onlar i\u00e7eride hep iyidir, sadece hasret a\u011f\u0131r gelir y\u00fcreklere, g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 sa\u011fanak olmu\u015f ya\u011f\u0131yordur kalplere&#8230;<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Annem ve iki karde\u015fim ile hemen bir masa se\u00e7iyor ve oturdu\u011fumuz yerden kap\u0131n\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131 bekliyoruz. \u00c7ok pardon ya oturdu\u011fumuz yerden olur mu? Ayakta bekliyoruz her birimiz gelecek olanlar\u0131&#8230; O g\u00fcn\u00fc hi\u00e7 unutamam. \u00c7o\u011fu insan ayakta! Kimisi evlad\u0131n\u0131 kimisi e\u015fini kimisi abisini kimisi de babas\u0131n\u0131 bekliyor&#8230; Ayaktay\u0131z ve p\u00fcr dikkat kap\u0131n\u0131n ard\u0131ndaki ayak seslerini dinliyor kulaklar\u0131m\u0131z. Az sonra kap\u0131n\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ve o m\u00fctebessim \u00e7ehreleriyle i\u00e7eriye giren g\u00fczel insanlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyor g\u00f6zlerimiz. Kap\u0131n\u0131n ard\u0131ndan gelen insanlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce kalabal\u0131k birden mutluluk \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131 at\u0131veriyor. Allah\u2019\u0131m bu nas\u0131l bir mutluluktur b\u00f6yle! Annelerin g\u00f6zleri doluveriyor, \u00e7ocuklar babalar\u0131na do\u011fru ko\u015fup s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 bacaklar\u0131na sar\u0131l\u0131yor. O \u201csaliha\u201dlar ayr\u0131 bir heyecanla e\u015flerinin masaya geli\u015fini izliyorlar. O g\u00f6zler, o g\u00fcn muhatab\u0131na ne \u00e7ok \u015fey anlat\u0131yor bir g\u00f6rseniz\u2026 G\u00f6zler konu\u015fuyor adeta! Diller l\u00e2l olmu\u015f sanki. Bak\u0131\u015flar, komutay\u0131 eline alm\u0131\u015f anlat\u0131yor g\u00f6nl\u00fcn hasret namelerini&#8230; \u00d6yle mutlu ki herkes san\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z hapishanede de\u011filiz, gardiyanlar bile mutlu! Ger\u00e7ek mutluluk neymi\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcn bakal\u0131m\u2026<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Ve zaman h\u0131zla ak\u0131yor. Mutlulu\u011fumuz gardiyan\u0131n sevimsiz uyar\u0131s\u0131 ile son buluyor. Toplam g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f saati 45 dakika. Zaman, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f an\u0131nda sanki su gibi ak\u0131p gidiyor. Son dakikalara do\u011fru aile foto\u011fraf\u0131 \u00e7ekiniyoruz. Mutluyuz mutlu, g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyoruz kameraya. Niye mutlu olmayal\u0131m? Benim babam su\u00e7lu de\u011fil ki! Ni\u00e7in \u00fcz\u00fclelim, Allah a\u015fk\u0131na! Ard\u0131ndan \u201cg\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f bitti!\u201d sesi t\u0131rmal\u0131yor kulaklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131. Bir be\u015f dakika daha kalsalard\u0131 diyemiyorsunuz.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Vedala\u015f\u0131yor herkes! Bense babama s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131l\u0131yorum. Kula\u011f\u0131ma e\u011filip \u201cbu evin dire\u011fi sensin k\u0131z\u0131m!\u201d diyor. \u00d6nce Allah\u2019a sonra birbirimize emanet ediyor bizi. Omuzlar\u0131ma y\u00fcklenen bu a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck\u00fc Rabbime havale ediyorum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Gidiyor g\u00fczel insanlar, sevdiklerini arkada b\u0131rak\u0131p \u00e7ilenin d\u00f6rt duvar\u0131na geri d\u00f6n\u00fcyorlar. G\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc ferah tutun a dostlar! G\u00fcn gelecek bu masum insanlar al\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131n ak\u0131yla \u00e7\u0131kacaklar! Ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131 bu olaylar\u0131 hat\u0131rlad\u0131klar\u0131nda ise \u201cHey gidi g\u00fcnler!\u201d diyecekler. Elemi gidecek lezzeti kalacak\u2026<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Selametle kal\u0131n\u0131z!<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Sad\u0131k-\u0131 Meva\u00a0 \u201cVedala\u015f\u0131yor herkes! Bense babama s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131l\u0131yorum. Kula\u011f\u0131ma e\u011filip \u201cbu evin dire\u011fi sensin k\u0131z\u0131m!\u201d diyor. \u00d6nce Allah\u2019a<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":624,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[4],"tags":[100,17,71,102],"yoast_head":"<!-- This site is optimized with the Yoast SEO plugin v15.5 - https:\/\/yoast.com\/wordpress\/plugins\/seo\/ -->\n<title>BEN\u0130M BAYRAMIM - SES MAGAZINE<\/title>\n<meta name=\"robots\" content=\"index, follow, max-snippet:-1, max-image-preview:large, max-video-preview:-1\" \/>\n<link rel=\"canonical\" href=\"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=672\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:locale\" content=\"en_US\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:type\" content=\"article\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:title\" content=\"BEN\u0130M BAYRAMIM - SES MAGAZINE\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:description\" content=\"Sad\u0131k-\u0131 Meva\u00a0 \u201cVedala\u015f\u0131yor herkes! 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