Arif O. Ye\u015filyurt<\/p>\n
\u201cAl\u0131\u015fmakta \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcr, bize bu keder fazla.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Geceleri n\u00f6bet tutard\u0131 babam,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Sabah\u0131n ilk \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131yla gelirdi elinde ekmek, gazete.\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Ekme\u011fi b\u00f6lerdi annem, g\u00f6z\u00fcm gazetede,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n \u201cEn ge\u00e7 98 de Avrupa Birli\u011fine tam \u00fcyeyiz\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Diye at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir man\u015fet\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Ne Avrupa Birli\u011fi ne Birle\u015fmi\u015f Milletler \u00fcyeli\u011fi,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Camlar\u0131 k\u0131z\u0131la \u00e7alan bir evde, Mardin\u2019de,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Ya da havas\u0131 puslu co\u011frafyam\u0131n ,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n K\u00f6m\u00fcr g\u00f6zl\u00fc insanlar\u0131nda kal\u0131rd\u0131 akl\u0131m.\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n –<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n \u201cHeybem d\u00fc\u015f k\u0131r\u0131klar\u0131yla dolu,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n G\u00fcnahlar\u0131m\u0131 s\u0131rt\u0131mda ta\u015f\u0131yorum.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Kadim \u015fehirlerin ulu mabedinde,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Karanfil kokulu ellerin g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcs kafesime dokunu\u015fudur bu.\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n \u0130nand\u0131\u011f\u0131m yanl\u0131\u015flardan do\u011frular\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karmakta h\u00fcnersiz olu\u015fum,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n A\u011fz\u0131mda \u00e7alkalanan k\u00fcfr\u00fc yutkunu\u015fumdand\u0131r.\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Bileklerimde ta\u015f\u0131r\u0131m \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn ve k\u00f6rl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcn izlerini,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Ki ben biraz da sana benziyorum.\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n –<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n \u00c7\u0131plak ayakl\u0131, itelenmi\u015f, susuyorum\u2026\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Yitirdi\u011fim her ne varsa kullu\u011fa yak\u0131\u015f\u0131r \u015fekilde bulmal\u0131yd\u0131m.\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n So\u011fuduk\u00e7a dudaklar\u0131m titremeliydi,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Berrak sular\u0131 i\u00e7imde yo\u011furmal\u0131yd\u0131m.\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Silinmi\u015f bir haritada yabanc\u0131 konumuna d\u00fc\u015fen,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n \u0130ki m\u00fclteci olmal\u0131yd\u0131k seninle,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Pay\u0131m\u0131za d\u00fc\u015feni almal\u0131yd\u0131k b\u00fcrokrasiden,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Ya da biz,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Biz olmayabilmeliydik.\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n –<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n \u201cAkl\u0131m\u0131n en g\u00fczel tutulmu\u015flu\u011fudur s\u00f6zlerim.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Fikrimden g\u00f6zlerin ge\u00e7iyor belki de,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Belki de yava\u015f\u00e7a terk ediyor sahneyi,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n K\u00f6r k\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcm sonbahar.\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Mevsimler fikrimden g\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcyor sevgilim,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n \u015eimdi hi\u00e7 zaman\u0131 de\u011fil eylemsizli\u011fimizin.\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Kitaplar\u0131n \u00f6ns\u00f6z\u00fcne gelip kal\u0131yorum,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Sabahlar ne de sessiz geliyor sensizken,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Uykular\u0131m iyice hafifledi biliyor musun?\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Uykudan bahsetmenin hi\u00e7 zaman\u0131 de\u011fil biliyorum.\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n –<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n \u201cAy \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda yol tutuyorum,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n \u00d6l\u00fcm solu\u011fumda can veriyor.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Olur da s\u00f6z\u00fcn h\u00fckm\u00fc kalmazsa kitaplarda,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Uzun bir yolculu\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kal\u0131m uzak k\u00f6\u015felerine d\u00fcnyan\u0131n,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n \u0130lahi emre haz\u0131r olal\u0131m zulme haz\u0131r oldu\u011fumuz gibi,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Biz gidersek belki kurtulur co\u011frafyam\u0131z,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Asya\u2019n\u0131n \u0131ss\u0131z topraklar\u0131 bereketlenir,\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Mezopotamya tekrar ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131na kavu\u015fur.\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Gidelim art\u0131k herkes gibi ya\u015famad\u0131k nas\u0131l olsa.\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Arif O. Ye\u015filyurt \u201cAl\u0131\u015fmakta \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcr, bize bu keder fazla.\u201d\u00a0 Geceleri n\u00f6bet tutard\u0131 babam,\u00a0 Sabah\u0131n ilk \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131yla gelirdi elinde<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":616,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[100,20,11,102],"yoast_head":"\n