{"id":638,"date":"2020-02-01T22:46:22","date_gmt":"2020-02-01T22:46:22","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=638"},"modified":"2020-02-01T22:46:23","modified_gmt":"2020-02-01T22:46:23","slug":"aslina-rucu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=638","title":{"rendered":"ASLINA R\u00dbC\u00db"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><b>Veda<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/b><\/p>\n<p>So\u011fu\u011fun, bizim i\u00e7in \u00e7ok da so\u011fuk olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve hayat\u0131 da dondurmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 zamanlarda T\u00fcrkiye\u2019nin ortas\u0131nda bir yerlerde do\u011fmu\u015ftum. Hava \u015fartlar\u0131na k\u00f6t\u00fc demenin Gayretullah\u2019a dokunaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilircesine kar ile arkada\u015ft\u0131k.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>K\u00fcrt olarak do\u011fmaktan rahats\u0131z bile de\u011fildik ama bize K\u00fcrtler denilirdi. Tam K\u00fcrt olamad\u0131k da, evde T\u00fcrk\u00e7e konu\u015furduk. Zaman doksanlar\u0131 g\u00f6sterdi, birlikte b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz, Alev\u00eeli\u011fin ayr\u0131m sebebi oldu\u011funu bilmedi\u011fimiz arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z mecburen ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131p gittiler. Biz on ki\u015fiydik be\u015f kald\u0131k, can arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z gitti. Biz S\u00fcnn\u00ee oldu\u011fumuzu, onlar\u0131n Alev\u00ee oldu\u011funu ayr\u0131l\u0131k ac\u0131s\u0131yla birlikte \u00f6\u011frendik. Hi\u00e7 kin olmad\u0131 aram\u0131zda sadece onlar gitti biz arkada kald\u0131k. Ac\u0131y\u0131 \u015fiddetli hissedenler daha g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc oldu, kalanlar hayatin i\u00e7inde s\u0131radanla\u015ft\u0131.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Gazeteci olma hayalimle ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fczel okulumda K\u00fcrt organizasyonlara \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131lmaya ba\u015fland\u0131m ama ben yolumu \u00e7izmi\u015ftim bile \u00e7oktan .Hizmet etmeye 28 \u015eubatta anlayamadan verdi\u011fim ara sonras\u0131 yeniden ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m bu y\u0131llarda.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Okulda mescit yok, ba\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fc yasak, ajanlar cirit at\u0131yor&#8230;<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Okul bitti, ikincisini okudum\u2026 Sosyoloji sonra psikoloji.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Ne tam K\u00fcrt olabildim ne T\u00fcrk, ne S\u00fcnn\u00ee ne Alev\u00ee, ne oral\u0131 ne bural\u0131, ne feminist ne gazeteci, ne sosyolog ne psikolog. En zor olan\u0131 anne olmak oldu, kad\u0131n olmak, iyi insan olmak, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr olmak ve susar olmak, vakti geldi\u011finde konu\u015fmak ve cesur olmak&#8230;<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00fclkede hepsi \u00e7ok zordu.. Sonunda bir damga vuruldu anl\u0131ma ve Meri\u00e7\u2019ten ge\u00e7tim o damgayla. Asl\u0131nda ka\u00e7 tane damgaya direnmi\u015ftim y\u0131llarca, herkese insanca sayg\u0131yla yakla\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ve t\u00fcm damgalar\u0131 sessizce bertaraf edip sadece ben olmu\u015ftum. Son f\u0131rt\u0131na \u00e7ok karaktersizdi ay\u0131rmaya niyetliydi beni yavrular\u0131mdan, anamdan, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnden, denizden. \u00d6zg\u00fcrl\u00fcks\u00fcz olmaz deyip ge\u00e7tim yavrular\u0131mla o sudan. Bo\u011fulmad\u0131m, \u00f6lmedim, sevdiklerimi aramad\u0131m o suda! Sadece bir gece yar\u0131s\u0131 ge\u00e7tim. Geldim bu so\u011fuk ama havaya k\u00f6t\u00fc denilmeyen memlekete.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>\u015eimdilerde ya\u015f otuz be\u015fi ge\u00e7mi\u015f, hava so\u011fuk, dil yok, \u0131rk yok, damga yok, sadece ayni g\u00f6kyuzu, deniz ve sessizlik&#8230;<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Ama cevaps\u0131z kalm\u0131\u015f sorular zaman\u0131n\u0131n gelmesini bekliyor cevaplanmak i\u00e7in.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Orada kalm\u0131\u015f akl\u0131n\u0131n gelmesini bekliyor bedenin tamamlanmak i\u00e7in&#8230;<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Yar\u0131m kalm\u0131\u015f bir hikaye asl\u0131na yava\u015f yava\u015f r\u00fccu ediyor&#8230;<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Ne diyor:<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Yusuf Has Hacib \u2018in Bu\u011fra Karahan\u2019a sunulan eseri Kutadgu Bilig (Mutluluk veren bilgi)\u2019de;<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>I\u015f\u0131k h\u00e2l\u00e2 do\u011fudan y\u00fckseliyor.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>H\u00e2l\u00e2 koval\u0131yor gece g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fc, g\u00fcnd\u00fcz geceyi&#8230;<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc h\u00e2l\u00e2 ku\u015f; su bal\u0131k; toprak insan kokuyor&#8230;<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Eskiyenler de var h\u00e2l\u00e2 eskimeyenler de&#8230;<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Zaman h\u00fckm\u00fcn\u00fc icr\u00e2 ediyor,<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Gelen gidiyor&#8230;<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>H\u00e2l\u00e2 d\u00f6n\u00fcyor d\u00fcnya!<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>\u0130nsan h\u00e2l\u00e2 insan&#8230;<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Unutuyor!<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>De\u011fi\u015fen ne?..<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Veda\u00a0 So\u011fu\u011fun, bizim i\u00e7in \u00e7ok da so\u011fuk olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve hayat\u0131 da dondurmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 zamanlarda T\u00fcrkiye\u2019nin ortas\u0131nda bir yerlerde do\u011fmu\u015ftum.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":629,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[2],"tags":[12,100,104,102],"yoast_head":"<!-- This site is optimized with the Yoast SEO plugin v15.5 - 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