{"id":578,"date":"2020-02-01T16:21:36","date_gmt":"2020-02-01T16:21:36","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=578"},"modified":"2020-02-01T23:46:23","modified_gmt":"2020-02-01T23:46:23","slug":"hastahane-odasinda-corba","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=578","title":{"rendered":"Hastahane Odas\u0131nda \u00c7orba"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><iframe title=\"Hastane Odas\u0131na \u00c7orba\" width=\"640\" height=\"360\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/wf-kjE8vM0c?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\r\n\r\n<h4 class=\"has-text-align-right\">S\u0130NE EL\u0130F<\/h4>\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>Hastanede biri varm\u0131\u015f, rahats\u0131zm\u0131\u015f. Onu ziyarete gitmi\u015f. \u201cNeyi varm\u0131\u015f?\u201d dedim. \u201cKansermi\u015f,\u201d dedi. \u0130kimiz de suskun. Yemek haz\u0131rd\u0131. Yemedik. Birazdan yeriz diye erteledik. Ben k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckken annem \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcnce yemek yiyemezdi \u015fa\u015f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131m. \u201cCan\u0131m istemiyor,\u201d derdi. Anlamazd\u0131m. Can\u0131 istemezmi\u015f bazen b\u00fcy\u00fcklerin, yeni yeni anl\u0131yorum. Kim bilir annemin i\u015ftah\u0131n\u0131 kim alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 can\u0131n\u0131n elinden. Az biraz vakit ge\u00e7ince \u00e7ocukla oturduk sofraya. \u00c7orbalar\u0131m\u0131za k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck lokmalar s\u0131\u011fd\u0131rd\u0131k. Tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z biri i\u00e7in \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fck. Ertesi g\u00fcn yine gitti. Sonraki g\u00fcn de. \u201cDaha iyi g\u00f6rd\u00fcm,\u201d c\u00fcmle- leriyle girdi kap\u0131dan. \u201cArt\u0131k ev yeme\u011fi yiyebiliyormu\u015f,\u201d dedi. \u201c\u00c7orba yapar m\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z, benim i\u00e7in\u201d diye sormu\u015f. \u201cHakk\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 helal edin, ne kadar da y\u00fczs\u00fcz bir adam\u0131m\u201d diye a\u011flam\u0131\u015f sonra. \u201cTabi ki,\u201d demi\u015f e\u015fim. Terbiyeli eri\u015fte istemi\u015f can\u0131. Hayat\u0131mda hi\u00e7 yapmad\u0131m desem g\u00fcler misiniz? G\u00fclmeyin. Ben a\u011flayarak yapt\u0131m. Tarifler okudum. Kimisi sal\u00e7a kat\u0131yordu, kimisi limon s\u0131k\u0131yor, bir ba\u015fkas\u0131 yo\u011furt ekliyor. Yap\u0131p termosa koydum, bir de tarhana yapt\u0131m. Ne bileyim, sevmezse birini hi\u00e7 de\u011filse di\u011ferini i\u00e7ebilsin diye. Aylard\u0131r \u0131l\u0131k bir \u015fey ge\u00e7meyen bo\u011faz\u0131ndan a\u015fina oldu\u011fu tatlar i\u00e7ini \u0131s\u0131ts\u0131n diye. Olur ya memleketini hat\u0131rlat\u0131r. Biliyorum insan bazen hat\u0131rlay\u0131nca h\u00fcz\u00fcnlenir, \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcr, a\u011flar belki de. Hi\u00e7 istemem \u00fcz\u00fcls\u00fcn. Ancak an\u0131lara ihtiya\u00e7 duymaz m\u0131 insan, \u015fimdi uza\u011f\u0131nda olsa da ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 o g\u00fczel g\u00fcnlere \u015f\u00fckr\u00fcn\u00fc eda edebilmek i\u00e7in de \u00f6zleyebilmek, \u00f6zlem duygusunu verene te\u015fekk\u00fcr edebilmek i\u00e7in bir sebep aramaz m\u0131? Uyuyordu, uyand\u0131rmadan b\u0131rakt\u0131m \u00e7orbalar\u0131, dedi. Ertesi g\u00fcn gitti\u011finde \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fini s\u00f6ylemi\u015f. \u201cAma l\u00fctfen az yap\u0131n, israf g\u00fcnah\u0131n\u0131n sebebi olmak istemiyorum,\u201d demi\u015f. \u0130nce insanlar\u0131n hassasiyetleri kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda eriyor ruhum. Ben al\u0131yorum Rabbim, \u015fayet israfsa ve l\u00fctfen onu bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerden muhafaza et ve \u00e7orbalar\u0131m\u0131n lezzetini art\u0131r. Bo\u015f termosun her geli\u015finde sanki kenar\u0131na ili\u015ftirilmi\u015f bir de tebess\u00fcm hissediyordum. \u00c7orbay\u0131 i\u00e7enle, \u00e7orbay\u0131 yapan aras\u0131nda gizliden bir muhabbet. E\u015fim vas\u0131tas\u0131yla iletilen te\u015fekk\u00fcr\u00fcn alt\u0131nda ezilip kal\u0131yor, ancak bana da b\u00f6yle bir hizmet nasip oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in i\u00e7ime tarifsiz bir huzur doluyordu. Tan\u0131\u015f bence, dedi e\u015fim. Arabaya bindi\u011fimde dudaklar\u0131m\u0131n k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r dua etti\u011fini farkettim. Hastaneye var\u0131nca, sen de gel benimle dedim. Usulca ad\u0131mlad\u0131k beyaz koridorlar\u0131. Katlar \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k. \u0130\u00e7eri girdim. Birileri vard\u0131. Ben girince kenara \u00e7ekildiler, \u00e7ok utand\u0131m. Kendimi tan\u0131tt\u0131m. Aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131. A\u011flad\u0131m. H\u0131\u00e7k\u0131rarak a\u011flamak istedim. Ba\u015fka sebeplerden dolay\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131 benden b\u00fcy\u00fcklerin aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131klar\u0131na, yer vermeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131klar\u0131na \u015fahit olmu\u015ftum. O zaman da \u00e7ok utan\u0131rd\u0131m, ancak hi\u00e7 a\u011flamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u201cL\u00fctfen,\u201d dedim. Sanki bir kelime daha \u00e7\u0131ksayd\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131mdan sesim erozyona maruz kalm\u0131\u015f toprak gibi \u00e7orakla\u015facak ve bir daha bir harfe sahiplik edemeyecekti. \u201cNas\u0131ls\u0131n\u0131z,\u201d diyebildim dakikalar sonra. \u201c\u00c7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr bu g\u00fcn\u00fcme,\u201d dedi. \u201c\u00c7orbalar i\u00e7in \u00e7ok te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederim, ama l\u00fctfen az yap\u0131n, \u00e7ok mahcup oluyorum,\u201d dedi. \u201cSizi \u00e7ok iyi g\u00f6rd\u00fcm,\u201d dedim. Daha \u00f6nce kanser hastas\u0131 g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim oysa. Ancak bana \u00e7ok din\u00e7 gelmi\u015fti. G\u00f6zlerinde hafif sar\u0131l\u0131k vard\u0131 ve ayaklar\u0131 \u015fi\u015fti biraz. E\u015fime de ayr\u0131ca te\u015fekk\u00fcr etti\u011finden ve ziyaretimizden \u00e7ok memnun oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi. Daha fazla kalmak istemedim. \u201cL\u00fctfen, istedi\u011finiz \u00f6zel bir \u00e7orba olursa s\u00f6yleyin,\u201d dedim. \u201cSeve seve, elimden geldi\u011fince yapar\u0131m.\u201d Usulca s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcm. Sonraki g\u00fcnlerde de sanki zaman\u0131n ortas\u0131nda sallanan bir yaprak gibiydi v\u00fccudum. G\u00f6zleri akl\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yor, ince ruhu kalbimi delip ge\u00e7iyordu. Her ak\u015fam ad\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131za al\u0131p, dua ediyorduk. Bir haftasonu telefon \u00e7ald\u0131,<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>arabadayd\u0131k. Hoparl\u00f6rden gelen sesi \u00e7ok canl\u0131yd\u0131. Hi\u00e7 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015femedik son zamanlarda \u00f6zledim dedi. Art\u0131k \u00e7orbalara ihtiya\u00e7 kalmam\u0131\u015f hastane yemeklerine ba\u015flayabilmi\u015fti. \u201cGelece\u011fiz tekrar,\u201d dedi e\u015fim mahcubiyetle. \u201cGidelim,\u201d diye kararla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131k bir g\u00fcnde anla\u015f\u0131p. Birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra ba\u015fka bir telefon ve bulundu\u011fmuz \u015fehirde bildi\u011fimiz ilk T\u00fcrkiyeli\u2019nin vefat\u0131yd\u0131 bu. G\u00fcnlerce uyuyamad\u0131m. Sar\u0131 g\u00f6zleri ve \u015fi\u015fmi\u015f ayaklar\u0131yla, bir tas \u00e7orba i\u00e7in defalarca te\u015fekk\u00fcr eden mahcubiyeti hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne ge\u00e7en ince ruh. Senin ruhumda a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131n ve gurbeti iliklerimde hissettirdi\u011fin o ayakta kalma \u00e7aban, gurbette \u00f6lmekten korkmamay\u0131 \u00f6\u011fretti bana. Ve Allah biliyor ya, birlikte birer tas \u00e7orba i\u00e7meyi diliyorum \u00f6te tarafta. Senin taraf\u0131nda olabilir miyim, koca bir muamma.<\/p>\r\n<p><b><i>(Vatanlar\u0131ndan uzakta, bulunduklar\u0131 yerlerin ilk vefat edenlerine ithaf\u0131md\u0131r.)<\/i><\/b><\/p>\r\n<p><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>S\u0130NE EL\u0130F Hastanede biri varm\u0131\u015f, rahats\u0131zm\u0131\u015f. Onu ziyarete gitmi\u015f. \u201cNeyi varm\u0131\u015f?\u201d dedim. \u201cKansermi\u015f,\u201d dedi. \u0130kimiz de suskun. 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