{"id":466,"date":"2019-11-23T02:44:55","date_gmt":"2019-11-23T02:44:55","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=466"},"modified":"2020-02-02T00:04:20","modified_gmt":"2020-02-02T00:04:20","slug":"nisyandan-isyana","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=466","title":{"rendered":"N\u0130SYANDAN \u0130SYANA"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><iframe title=\"N\u0130SYANDAN \u0130SYANA\" width=\"640\" height=\"360\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/Y8Jald0RmC8?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\r\n\r\n<h6 class=\"has-text-align-right\"><span class=\"tadv-color\" style=\"color: #cf2e2e;\">AFRA B\u00dc\u015eRA<\/span><\/h6>\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>\u0130nsan olu\u015fum&#8230;<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>\u0130nsan olu\u015fumla nisyan olu\u015fum ve bu nisyana m\u00fcptela olu\u015fum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>B\u00f6yle bir d\u00fcnyada vuku bulu\u015fum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Onca zaman i\u00e7inde bu katmanda duru\u015fum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Ve \u015fimdi \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn orta dura\u011f\u0131nda bulunu\u015fum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Ans\u0131z\u0131n gelen s\u0131z\u0131larla uyan\u0131\u015f\u0131m.<\/p>\r\n<p>D\u00fcnya g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc usulca kapat\u0131p, g\u00f6n\u00fcl g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131yorum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>\u0130peklerden bir sergi ile bilincimi \u00f6rt\u00fcyorum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Kendime, hayat\u0131ma, yazg\u0131ma bak\u0131yorum ve nisyan olu\u015fumla ihya ediliyorum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Yoksa ne t\u00fcrl\u00fc olur ya\u015famak?<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Bilmiyorum. Bilemiyorum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Maddeden \u00f6te baz\u0131 \u015feyler var diyorum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Mesela varl\u0131k i\u00e7inde yokluk, yokluk i\u00e7inde varl\u0131k \u00e7eken ruhum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Nas\u0131l oluyor diye soruyorsun, duyuyorum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Tutup ellerinden getiriyorum seni;<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Kalp kap\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 aralad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda ise sana, ne \u00e7ok karma\u015fa g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum.<\/p>\r\n<p>Nefse kap\u0131l\u0131\u015flar\u0131m, hata yap\u0131\u015flar\u0131m.<\/p>\r\n<p>Unutu\u015flar\u0131m, \u00f6telere bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131m, her g\u00fcn yeniden var olu\u015flar\u0131m.<\/p>\r\n<p>Nereye ve neden gidiyoruz derken yeniden kaybolu\u015flar\u0131m.<\/p>\r\n<p>Tek tek duru\u015flar\u0131m ve evvellere ka\u00e7\u0131\u015flar\u0131m,<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Beni ben yapan\u0131 aray\u0131\u015flar\u0131m ve beni benden alanlara kay\u0131\u015flar\u0131m,<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Nihayetinde asla ve kat\u2019a anlayamay\u0131\u015flar\u0131m var.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Evet, bak; i\u00e7imde ne \u00e7ok \u0131zd\u0131rap, ne \u00e7ok hissiyat,<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Ne \u00e7ok gaybiyat var.<\/p>\r\n<p>Bir mum alevinden ilham al\u0131yorum \u00e7o\u011fu zaman.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Sessiz ve b\u00fct\u00fcn kendili\u011fim i\u00e7inde a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r yan\u0131yorum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Dibim karanl\u0131k, \u00f6tem, berim, y\u00f6rem.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Hep karanl\u0131k.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Sadece ben ve ince bir \u00e7izgiye d\u00f6nen k\u0131z\u0131l sar\u0131 alevim.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\r\n<p>Kalbimin odalar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015ftanba\u015fa geziyorum \u015fimdi,<\/p>\r\n<p>Ve orac\u0131kta k\u00f6\u015fe bucak t\u00fct\u00fcyorum.<\/p>\r\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\r\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>AFRA B\u00dc\u015eRA \u0130nsan olu\u015fum&#8230;\u00a0 \u0130nsan olu\u015fumla nisyan olu\u015fum ve bu nisyana m\u00fcptela olu\u015fum.\u00a0 B\u00f6yle bir d\u00fcnyada vuku bulu\u015fum.\u00a0<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":134,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[90,9,26,11],"yoast_head":"<!-- This site is optimized with the Yoast SEO plugin v15.5 - 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