{"id":336,"date":"2019-10-31T02:45:12","date_gmt":"2019-10-31T02:45:12","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=336"},"modified":"2019-10-31T02:45:13","modified_gmt":"2019-10-31T02:45:13","slug":"ben-yoksam-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=336","title":{"rendered":"Ben Yoksam"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<h4 style=\"text-align:right\">Seyfullah Sacit<\/h4>\n\n\n\n<p><em><strong>&#8220;G\u00fc\u00e7 sava\u015f\u0131nda g\u00fcn\u00fcn galibi kim? Kim daha \u00e7ok s\u00f6z s\u00f6ylerse mi<br> kazan\u0131yor bu sava\u015fta?\u00a0Susman\u0131n hakikatine eren yok mu?&#8221;<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-drop-cap\">K\u0131\u015fk\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131 onca \u015feyin ortas\u0131nda ses bulutlar\u0131 ile \u00e7evrilmi\u015f zaman\u0131n i\u00e7inde hakikate ula\u015fmak kadar zor bir \u015feye daha denk gelmedim. Ger\u00e7ekli\u011fin bir o kadar sanal oldu\u011fu bu \u00e7a\u011fda ya\u015famaktan nefret edercesine; kula\u011f\u0131m\u0131, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc ve a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 koruma noktas\u0131ndaki acizli\u011fimi fark etti\u011fim bu anlar\u0131n i\u00e7inde bu asr\u0131n en zor as\u0131r oldu\u011funu idrak ettim. Ka\u00e7 k\u0131rk\u0131nc\u0131 g\u00fcn ge\u00e7ti bilmiyorum. K\u0131rklar \u00fczerinden bile k\u0131rk g\u00fcn ge\u00e7ti. Ben hala de\u011fi\u015fim r\u00fczg\u00e2rlar\u0131na rastlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in gitgide t\u00fckenen \u00fcmidimi sorgular buldum kendimi. S\u00f6yleyin bana ne zaman terk edecek g\u0131ybet denen gulyabani bizi\u2026 Ne zaman lanetlenecek iftira denen illet? <br> Karde\u015flik,  isar ruhu\u2026 <br> Seslerin ortas\u0131nda kayboldu bay\u0131m. G\u00fc\u00e7 sava\u015f\u0131nda g\u00fcn\u00fcn galibi kim? Kim daha \u00e7ok s\u00f6z s\u00f6ylerse mi kazan\u0131yor bu sava\u015fta? <br> Susman\u0131n hakikatine eren yok mu?  Benli\u011finden ba\u015fka bir \u015feyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeyen, kendini adanm\u0131\u015f addeden insanlar\u0131n verdi\u011fi zarar kadar kim sana  zarar verdi daha \u00f6nce? S\u00f6ylesene bay\u0131m! Adand\u0131m deyince ger\u00e7ekten kendini adam\u0131\u015f oluyor mu insan davas\u0131na? Bir ka\u00e7 zaman i\u00e7inde yemedi\u011fin iftira, yap\u0131lmayan g\u0131ybetin kalmad\u0131.  Tertemiz de\u011filsin elbet\u2026 \u00dcz\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn nokta temiz sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n insanlar\u0131n bu \u015fekilde kirlenmesi de\u011fil mi? Hani karde\u015ftik sorusunu daha ka\u00e7 kere soracaks\u0131n gece vakitleri? Ka\u00e7 g\u00fcn daha a\u011flayacaks\u0131n bu hicran memleketinde? Ne \u00e7ok soru sordum de\u011fil mi bay\u0131m? Ne \u00e7ok cevaps\u0131z kelimeler b\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fc bu i\u00e7inde bulundu\u011fun ahval. Vefa m\u0131 demi\u015fti birisi?  Hani bize menk\u0131beler anlat\u0131p hadi ko\u015fturun diyenler. <br> Yoksa gemiyi ilk onlar m\u0131 terk etti? Neredeler? Hani karde\u015ftik biz?  Korku cumhuriyetinde direni\u015fin ad\u0131 korkmak olmamal\u0131. Direni\u015f, inad\u0131na ko\u015fmak olmal\u0131\u2026 <br> S\u00f6ylesene bay\u0131m! Ko\u015fanlarla ha\u015frolmak istedi\u011fin ortadayken ni\u00e7in korkanlardan oldun? <br>       Sonunda bo\u015f bir lak\u0131rd\u0131 diye okunacak olan bu yazd\u0131klar\u0131n kimsede bir heyecan uyand\u0131rm\u0131yorsa var sende yazma bay\u0131m!  Yazma! S\u00fck\u00fbt b\u00fcr\u00fcns\u00fcn simana\u2026 Sessizce git bu zaman\u0131n ortas\u0131ndan. Kimseler duymas\u0131n ve bilmesin seni. Bir garip olarak geldin, bir garip olarak g\u00f6\u00e7 git bu d\u00fcnyadan\u2026 \u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>&#8220;<em>Ko\u015fan yok, sine biryan, sesler garip <\/em><br> <em>Ey yolcu bu d\u00fcnyada ancak oldun mihman  <br> G\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc yok, Dide giryan, zihinler garip<br> Bilmem hangi zamandan geldin, oldun mihman <br> G\u00f6n\u00fcl yok, ak\u0131llar nemrut, kalp garip <br> Bir bilinmezin i\u00e7inde kald\u0131n, oldun mihman&#8221;<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Seyfullah Sacit &#8220;G\u00fc\u00e7 sava\u015f\u0131nda g\u00fcn\u00fcn galibi kim? Kim daha \u00e7ok s\u00f6z s\u00f6ylerse mi kazan\u0131yor bu sava\u015fta?\u00a0Susman\u0131n hakikatine eren<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":340,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[2],"tags":[12,9,65,64,28,72],"yoast_head":"<!-- This site is optimized with the Yoast SEO plugin v15.5 - https:\/\/yoast.com\/wordpress\/plugins\/seo\/ -->\n<title>Ben Yoksam - SES MAGAZINE<\/title>\n<meta name=\"robots\" content=\"index, follow, max-snippet:-1, max-image-preview:large, max-video-preview:-1\" \/>\n<link rel=\"canonical\" href=\"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=336\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:locale\" content=\"en_US\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:type\" content=\"article\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:title\" content=\"Ben Yoksam - SES MAGAZINE\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:description\" content=\"Seyfullah Sacit &#8220;G\u00fc\u00e7 sava\u015f\u0131nda g\u00fcn\u00fcn galibi kim? 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