{"id":2087,"date":"2021-12-12T21:42:39","date_gmt":"2021-12-12T21:42:39","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=2087"},"modified":"2021-12-12T21:44:00","modified_gmt":"2021-12-12T21:44:00","slug":"kalem-ve-kelam","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=2087","title":{"rendered":"KALEM ve KELAM"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\u201cKalem dildir, s\u00f6ze ne h\u00e2cet?<\/i><\/p>\n

Kel\u00e2m i\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcr, ele ne h\u00e2cet?<\/i><\/p>\n

Karam\u0131k g\u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcn esintili k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131nda sal\u0131nan sazl\u0131klar hepsidir. Batak nefesli r\u00fczg\u00e2rda u\u00e7u\u015furken kopar\u0131l\u0131r ba\u011f\u0131rlar\u0131ndan. K\u00f6k\u00fcnden ayr\u0131lman\u0131n ac\u0131s\u0131 ile ya ney olur inler dost derg\u00e2h\u0131nda, ya kalem olur yazar g\u00f6n\u00fcl kitab\u0131nda. Her ikisi ile de hem haldir, B\u00eecan\u2019lar\u0131n \u0130hsan Efendi.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00c2leme g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan beridir keke\u00e7tir dili. Ne hekimler \u00e7\u00f6zm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr onun m\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fc, ne de hocan\u0131n biri. Anas\u0131 babas\u0131 kabullenememi\u015f, kahretmi\u015fler kendilerine. Ge\u00e7mi\u015f \u00f6m\u00fcr sessizce. \u0130hsan Efendi ne sebep aram\u0131\u015f ne de \u00e7are. Onun i\u00e7in suskundur, gerekmedik\u00e7e diline. Anac\u0131\u011f\u0131 o konu\u015fmaya \u00e7abalad\u0131k\u00e7a \u2018S\u00f6zler inci olur, tane tane d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr o\u011fulcu\u011fumdan, k\u0131ymetlidir, sarraf kendi i\u015fler, vermez \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131na\u2019 derdi. Hem kendi hem o\u011fulcu\u011fun tesellisiydi, yumu\u015fac\u0131k ve sevgili.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Kendi de bilmez ka\u00e7\u0131nc\u0131 t\u0131rman\u0131\u015f\u0131d\u0131r Ku\u015fka\u00e7\u0131ran Yoku\u015funu? Ana karn\u0131nda bir fas\u0131l, \u00e7ocukluk, yeni yetmelik, ve \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fcn pirin\u00e7 ba\u015fl\u0131 bastonu oldu\u011fu kocam\u0131\u015f bacaklar. Ne \u00e7ok g\u00fczellik vard\u0131r r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131nda buralar\u0131n? Tenekeci R\u0131za, Zahireci As\u0131m Efendilerin haylaz, Sarraf Mi\u015fon\u2019un tombalak o\u011fullar\u0131yla topa\u00e7 pe\u015finde ko\u015ftu\u011fu, bayram sabahlar\u0131 toplad\u0131\u011f\u0131 akide \u015fekerlerini, dut kurusunu, pe\u015fkir mendilleri, kap\u0131 kap\u0131 gezip ku\u015fa\u011f\u0131na s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 zamanlar. B\u0131y\u0131klar\u0131 terledi\u011finde k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131ndaki a\u015f\u0131 boyal\u0131 cumbal\u0131 evin \u00f6n\u00fcnden ge\u00e7erken ki mahcubiyeti. Pa\u015fa kona\u011f\u0131 derdi anas\u0131. G\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc, kap\u0131ya ince belli k\u0131sraklar\u0131n \u00e7ekti\u011fi k\u00f6r\u00fckl\u00fc faytonlar\u0131n biri gelir, \u00f6b\u00fcr\u00fc giderdi. S\u0131rmal\u0131, p\u0131rp\u0131rl\u0131 \u015f\u0131k efendiler, saten arkal\u0131kl\u0131 ipek feraceli han\u0131mlar, halay\u0131klar, sazendeler. \u0130zin verildi\u011fince yana\u015f\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 o kap\u0131ya. L\u00e2kin, izine ihtiya\u00e7 yoktu bakard\u0131 uzaktan uza\u011fa g\u00f6zleri. Ve tahta cumban\u0131n ard\u0131nda, kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ill\u00e2ki buldu\u011fu ka\u00e7amak bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n saadeti. Hele de vuslat\u0131 hi\u00e7 olmam\u0131\u015f tebess\u00fcmleri. Ah, o sundurma \u00fcst\u00fc tahta cumbal\u0131 pencere! Ne s\u0131r verirdi, ne gelirdi dile. Kollar\u0131n\u0131 o sundurmaya, pencereye uzatan ulu \u00e7\u0131nar ne bahtiyard\u0131. Az t\u0131rmanmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 dal\u0131na. G\u00f6rebilmekti \u00fcmidi \u0130hsan\u2019\u0131n, belki de gidebilmek yan\u0131na. Dilinin incilerini ona d\u00f6kmek.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Y\u0131llar bu yoku\u015fu daha m\u0131 dikle\u015ftirdi nedir? Oysa bir solukta t\u00fcketirdi, soka\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131ndan baba yadig\u00e2r\u0131 k\u00e2gir fakirhanenin kap\u0131s\u0131na kadarki mesafeyi. Ne \u00e7ileke\u015f kap\u0131yd\u0131 o ne gam y\u00fckl\u00fc? Merhum babas\u0131 \u0130zzet Efendi, vak\u0131ftaki memuriyetinden d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc her ak\u015fam, ilkin bah\u00e7e kap\u0131s\u0131nda duyulurdu geli\u015fi hanesine. Demir per\u00e7inli k\u00f6hne tahta kap\u0131 hep g\u0131c\u0131rdard\u0131 ama ne yenisine bak\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 ne de \u00e7aresine. \u00d6yle isterdi rahmetli anac\u0131\u011f\u0131 Hasibe Han\u0131m. Gelen belli olsun diye. Gelen getirdi\u011fi nasibiyle kar\u015f\u0131lan\u0131rd\u0131, giden duayla Salavatlan\u0131r. Zamane edebi \u00f6yleydi. Tokma\u011f\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131nmadan kap\u0131n\u0131n g\u0131c\u0131rdayarak a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131 yaln\u0131zca \u0130zzet Efendi\u2019nin geli\u015fiydi.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u0130hsan Efendi de birka\u00e7 takviye d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda dokunmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 kap\u0131ya. Yine inliyordu, ama art\u0131k kendi ya\u015fl\u0131 ahbaplar\u0131 d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda geleni gideni olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan kendi haline b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ya, kendi haline b\u0131rak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ne \u00e7ok \u015fey vard\u0131 onda?<\/p>\n

Y\u0131llard\u0131r kimseyi ortak etmemi\u015fti hayat\u0131na. Kocam\u0131\u015f evin ne odas\u0131 nohut, ne sofas\u0131 bakla. Ne i\u00e7inde dolanan ay y\u00fczl\u00fc bir Ayvaz, ne de bala. Zaten ayak bas\u0131p nefeslendi\u011fi bir g\u00f6z yerdi, tahta badallar\u0131n \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 ikinci kattaki. \u00d6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn son \u00e7eyre\u011fi neredeyse buradayd\u0131. Yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n en koyu demini koruksuz i\u00e7ti\u011fi odayd\u0131 ill\u00e2ki. Bedestendeki ufak d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131nda g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcn ipekli, ka\u015fmir d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlerin G\u00f6rdes kilimleri, \u0130ran yolluklar\u0131n\u0131n ihti\u015faml\u0131 renkleriyle ha\u015f\u0131r ne\u015fir oldu\u011fu debdebeli g\u00fcn\u00fcn ard\u0131ndan s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131 buraya. Korunakl\u0131, yald\u0131zs\u0131z, tela\u015fs\u0131z ve g\u00f6zden uzak. Bilirdi ki g\u00f6r\u00fcnen aldat\u0131r, ruha tuzak.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Ak\u015fam\u0131n siyah perdesi \u00e7ekildi\u011finde, \u0130hsan Efendi\u2019nin hi\u00e7bir \u015feye de\u011fi\u015fmedi\u011fi devran\u0131 ba\u015flard\u0131. Yufka ekme\u011fine kat\u0131k etti\u011fi \u00e7orbas\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7er, ta\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n tulumbas\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na ge\u00e7erdi. Buz gibi sular dualara kar\u0131\u015f\u0131p kayard\u0131 sakallar\u0131n\u0131n tellerinden, dirseklerinden, babadan usta, Yaradan\u2019dan mahir ellerinden. Ara s\u0131ra g\u00f6z\u00fc ili\u015firdi, ta\u015fl\u0131kta Kundurac\u0131 Saridis Efendi\u2019nin elinden \u00e7\u0131kma potinlerine. Bir keresinde demi\u015fti ya \u2018Ah o filos mou, ne vak\u0131t k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 potin yapacaayim sana vre? Bu yaln\u0131zl\u0131k daha ne ka s\u00fcrer? Ne vak\u0131t yeyecaayiz hatun elinden \u00e7\u0131kma zerdeli pilav?\u2019 demi\u015fti demesine de, gen\u00e7likte o k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131, s\u0131rmal\u0131 potinlere girememi\u015f nazenin ayaklar, kocam\u0131\u015fl\u0131kta ne gezer? G\u00fcl\u00fcmseyip d\u00f6nerdi tulumba ta\u015f\u0131na. Sonra, anac\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n marifetiyle birbirini el ele tutmu\u015f seccadeye can olmu\u015f pazen, y\u00fcn par\u00e7alar\u0131, soluk renkleriyle ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda k\u0131yam ba\u015f\u0131na. Suskun dil haybeye d\u00f6nerdi sessiz, g\u00f6n\u00fcl s\u00f6ylerdi. Zaten s\u00f6z neydi ki? Ey\u00fcp s\u0131rtlar\u0131, s\u00f6z ustas\u0131 Mevlana\u2019n\u0131n yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndaki Ham\u00fb\u015fan\u2019\u0131 s\u00f6z\u00fc t\u00fckenmi\u015flerle dolu de\u011fil miydi?<\/p>\n

Sonras\u0131 haz\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131yd\u0131 kendi ile olman\u0131n ve bulu\u015fma vakti gelirdi Nun\u2019larla Elif\u2019lerin, Sin\u2019lerle de\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Kaf\u2019lar\u0131n. \u00d6nce ellerini bir g\u00fczel y\u0131kar, g\u00fcl suyuyla ovard\u0131. Ustas\u0131 merhum babas\u0131 \u0130zzet Efendi \u00f6yle demi\u015fti \u2018El, Allah kel\u00e2m\u0131na dokunacaksa, edep ister. Temizlenesin. \u2019 Kel\u00e2mla bulu\u015fmak \u00f6yle kolay de\u011fildir. Her bir gerecini d\u00fczg\u00fcn tutard\u0131 nasihatine uygun \u2018Kem aletle olmaz kemal\u00e2t, evvel edep, sab\u0131r, \u00f6tededir m\u00fck\u00e2fat.\u2019<\/p>\n

Ya\u011f kandili yanard\u0131 \u00f6nce k\u0131s\u0131k\u00e7a. S\u00fcleymaniye\u2019nin kandil isiyle v\u00fccut bulan kara m\u00fcrekkebi hokkas\u0131nda beklerdi. \u0130pek topu likas\u0131n\u0131n damarlar\u0131ndan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcp, iyice ar\u0131n\u0131p fazlal\u0131klar\u0131ndan. Karam\u0131k\u2019\u0131n k\u0131y\u0131lar\u0131nda hoyrat r\u00fczg\u00e2rlarda sal\u0131n\u0131p serpilen sazlar, bir kez daha inlerdi. Uzat\u0131rd\u0131 boynunu. Yontulup makta \u00fczerinde son \u00e7ilesini \u00e7eker, bekleyenine a\u00e7ard\u0131 koynunu. Kalem olur dil ku\u015fan\u0131rd\u0131. Hokka, r\u0131zayla ho\u015f geldin der, kara suyunu i\u00e7irirdi g\u00fcl \u015ferbeti gibi g\u00fclistan makam\u0131na.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Bir bekleyen daha vard\u0131. Aharla entarisi giydirilmi\u015f, m\u00fchreyle allan\u0131p pullanm\u0131\u015f k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131. Kimi yumuk y\u00fczl\u00fclerin \u00fclkesinden, kimi Y\u0131ld\u0131z Saray\u0131 h\u00fcnerinden. A\u011fac\u0131n ci\u011ferg\u00e2h\u0131ndan s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcp t\u00fcrl\u00fc \u00e7ilelerle gelmi\u015fti \u0130hsan Efendi\u2019nin mahir ellerine. Ne dal\u0131 k\u00fcst\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f ne yapra\u011f\u0131. O da beklerdi kalemle sar\u0131\u015fmay\u0131, kel\u00e2mla bulu\u015fmay\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Kalem, kayd\u0131k\u00e7a ak\u0131t\u0131rd\u0131 kan\u0131n\u0131. H\u00fczn\u00fcn rengi siyah\u0131. Dizilirdi k\u0131vr\u0131mlar, keskin d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fler, u\u00e7u\u015fan \u015feddeler, harekeler. \u0130hsan Efendi misali k\u00e2h ka\u015f \u00e7atar K\u00fbf\u00ee ile, k\u00e2h durulur S\u00fcl\u00fcs ile. \u015eeyh Galib\u2019in H\u00fcsn\u2013\u00fc A\u015fk\u2019\u0131yla boyun b\u00fcker, Fuzuli Mesnev\u00ee\u2019sinde Mecnun olur. Nef\u2019ii ile \u00e7alkant\u0131l\u0131 sularda gezinirken, Karahisar\u00ee\u2019 nin Besmelesiyle avunur, Mevlana ile durulurdu.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Gam neydi ki o saatler? Hepsi \u2018Vav kay\u0131\u011f\u0131na\u2019 binip gittiler. Ne saadetliydi kalemin k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t \u00fczerindeki raks\u0131n\u0131 hisseden el. Bunun i\u00e7indi, sadece g\u00f6n\u00fcl kula\u011f\u0131yla \u00f6denen bedel. \u00d6mr\u00fcnce ses verememi\u015fti \u0130hsan Efendi\u2019nin dili Mushaf nefesine. Eliyle, kalemiyle konu\u015fup hasb\u0131hal ederdi \u00f6ylesine. D\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131ndaki hal\u0131lar, kilimler i\u00e7in de nefes gerekmezdi ki. Onlar kendini satard\u0131 zaten. Bedestenin kadim m\u00fc\u015fterisi Acem\u2019inden Ma\u011frib\u00ee\u2019sine, Osmanl\u0131\u2019s\u0131ndan Arab\u2019\u0131na, Mon\u015fer\u2019ine kadar hepsi anlard\u0131 g\u00fczelden. Frenk diline h\u00e2kim olmas\u0131 duydu\u011funu anla\u015f\u0131l\u0131r k\u0131lar, \u00e7\u00f6zemedi\u011fini \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131 kom\u015fusu Saridis Efendi kotar\u0131rd\u0131. Sabahlar\u0131 dua kubbesi alt\u0131nda aminlerle a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131n\u0131n bereketi, Ah\u00ee edebiyle s\u00fcr\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc eller y\u00fcze, ne mezhebi, rengi ne de dini yoktu dostlu\u011fun, \u015feceresi tutulmazd\u0131 ne nereli ne kim oldu\u011fun.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u0130hsan Efendi i\u00e7in yaln\u0131z derlerdi yaln\u0131zl\u0131k neydi ki sanki? Ana rahminde ba\u015flar, sonuncusu \u00e7ukurda. G\u00fcnahta yaln\u0131zd\u0131r, sevapta yal\u0131n. Ne dedi\u011fin etti\u011finin, ne demeyip etmedi\u011finin, ne de niyetine girip edemedi\u011finin kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fclmez, bilinmez san\u0131lmaya sak\u0131n.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

O, sorana \u015fu ya\u015f\u0131mday\u0131m demezdi, \u015fu kadar ya\u015f ald\u0131md\u0131 cevab\u0131. Say\u0131larla hi\u00e7 i\u015fi olmayan, ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015f, kazan\u0131l\u0131p kaybedilmi\u015f hi\u00e7bir \u015feyi de\u011fersiz k\u0131lmayan.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Sabah\u0131n seherinden ak\u015fam\u0131n koyulu\u011funa kadar kalaban\u0131n, tema\u015fan\u0131n, nihayetinde de bir g\u00f6z odada yal\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n tarifiydi \u00f6m\u00fcr. Onu l\u00fctfeden \u2018gel\u2019 diyene kadar. Y\u00fcre\u011findeki sakl\u0131 sadece O\u2019na, g\u00f6r\u00fcnen de ahaliye \u00e2yan.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Bu sat\u0131rlar, Nezihe Han\u0131m\u0131n defterlerinden birinde okuduklar\u0131mdand\u0131. Rahmetli annemden birka\u00e7 y\u0131l sonra babam\u0131n da vefat\u0131yla, evin e\u015fyalar\u0131ndan \u00f6nemli bir k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131 vak\u0131f ve derneklere ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131k. Geri kalanlar\u0131 da biz karde\u015fler, onlar\u0131n hat\u0131ras\u0131 olarak aram\u0131zda payla\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Benim pay\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fenler aras\u0131nda, babam\u0131n sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u00f6zenle k\u00fct\u00fcphanesinde saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131 birka\u00e7 kitap ve g\u00fcnl\u00fck olarak yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f defter ve k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tlar vard\u0131. Bir k\u0131sm\u0131 eski, bir k\u0131sm\u0131 yeni T\u00fcrk\u00e7eyle yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Babam, \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumuzda kitaplardan bize okurdu. Ancak, g\u00fcnl\u00fcklere dokunmam\u0131z\u0131 yasaklam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu y\u00fczden benim i\u00e7in hep merak konusu olmu\u015ftur.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Rahmetli babam, onun birka\u00e7 ku\u015fak \u00f6ncesi akrabalar\u0131m\u0131zdan oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylerdi. Saray e\u015fraf\u0131ndan bir aileye mensup olu\u015fu, zaman\u0131n gen\u00e7 han\u0131mlar\u0131ndan farkl\u0131 olarak e\u011fitimi, k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131s\u0131ndan pek \u00e7ok nimetler sunmu\u015f ona. O d\u00f6nem siyaset ve sanat\u0131nda muteber olan Avrupa dillerine hakim ve ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 toplumun al\u0131\u015fk\u0131n olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fczere be\u011fenilen bir kad\u0131n yazarm\u0131\u015f. Ancak, yazd\u0131klar\u0131 zamane gazete sayfalar\u0131 ve matbuat\u0131nda \u201cFiruze\u201d mahlas\u0131yla okunurmu\u015f. Bu da Nezihe Han\u0131m\u2019\u0131n yazmas\u0131 konusunda, kendisine imtiyaz tan\u0131nmas\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 konulan bir \u015fart olmu\u015f. Nezihe Han\u0131m, d\u00f6nemin pa\u015falar\u0131ndan birinin hekim olan o\u011fluyla evlenmi\u015f ancak, evlat sahibi olamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in, ikinci han\u0131m\u0131n geli\u015fi ile baba oca\u011f\u0131na geri d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f. Bu c\u00fcretk\u00e2r davran\u0131\u015f, o zamana g\u00f6re al\u0131\u015f\u0131lmad\u0131k bir g\u00fc\u00e7 g\u00f6sterisi imi\u015f. Yani Nezihe Han\u0131m fark\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Ne var ki, Balkan harbinin ard\u0131ndan aile maddi zorluklarla bo\u011fu\u015furken, birinci d\u00fcnya sava\u015f\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015flamas\u0131yla varl\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 ve n\u00fcfuzlar\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcde kaybetmi\u015fler. Ya\u015fanan s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 y\u0131llar, bu g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc kad\u0131n\u0131n Anadolu\u2019nun k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir kentinde kabu\u011funa \u00e7ekilmesine neden olmu\u015f.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Y\u00fcz k\u00fcs\u00fcr ya\u015f\u0131nda vefat etti\u011finde, v\u00e2rislerine b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 birka\u00e7 antika e\u015fya ve herhangi bir maddi de\u011fer ta\u015f\u0131mayan kitaplar, kendi yaz\u0131s\u0131yla g\u00fcnl\u00fckleri ve k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck saman k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t \u00fczerine hat me\u015fk edilmi\u015f tomarlar. Dikkatimi \u00e7eken bir ayr\u0131nt\u0131 vard\u0131. Bu k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tlar\u0131n baz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n sa\u011f alt k\u00f6\u015fesinde \u2018Bican\u00ee \u0130hsan\u2019 imzas\u0131 okunuyordu. Ayn\u0131 ad\u0131, farkl\u0131 bi\u00e7imde Nezihe Han\u0131m\u2019\u0131n g\u00fcnl\u00fcklerinde de g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm. \u015eeyh Galip ve Hayyam dizelerinde. San\u0131yorum onun nezdinde \u00e7ok \u00f6zeldi. G\u00fcnl\u00fcklerinde, t\u00fcm mutsuzlu\u011funa ra\u011fmen e\u015finden h\u00fcrmetle bahsederken, ba\u015fka bir isim de genellikle ima ile zikrediliyordu. Ve ben okuduk\u00e7a kim oldu\u011funu anlayabiliyorum ve akl\u0131ma bir ak\u015fam esintisiyle Cemal S\u00fcreyya\u2019n\u0131n dizeleri geliyor:<\/p>\n

\u201cDokunmasa da,\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/span>g\u00f6r\u00fclmese de\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/span>kalpte yer verilir<\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/span>baz\u0131s\u0131na nedensiz\u201d \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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