ESRA DOLUNAY <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n
Kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bir mevsim di\u011ferine\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Hangi g\u00fcn, ay, sene<\/p>\n Da\u011fda\u011fan a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6lgesinde<\/p>\n G\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fc o yitik hazine\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0<\/span>Elleri toprak i\u00e7indeydi. Topra\u011f\u0131 kazd\u0131k\u00e7a nem art\u0131yor, elleri daha \u00e7ok so\u011fuyordu. Toprak \u00e7amurla\u015f\u0131yor, ard\u0131ndan yeniden sertle\u015fiyordu. Eline bir k\u0131ym\u0131\u011f\u0131n batmas\u0131yla irkildi. S\u00fcphan Da\u011f\u0131\u2019n\u0131n sert yama\u00e7lar\u0131nda r\u00fczg\u00e2r u\u011fuldarken beraberinde getirdi\u011fi kelimeler, r\u00fczg\u00e2rda dalgalan\u0131yordu.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cXec\u00ea…\u201d<\/p>\n …\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Uyand\u0131. Bahar kokusunu duydu. A\u00e7\u0131k pencereden giren yalanc\u0131 esinti perdeyi havaland\u0131rd\u0131, sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fad\u0131. G\u00fcne\u015f, pencerenin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki g\u00fclleri daha da canl\u0131 hale getirmi\u015fti. \u0130ki k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fc… G\u00fcllerin daha fazla g\u00fcne\u015f almas\u0131 i\u00e7in saks\u0131y\u0131 kenara \u00e7ekti\u011fi s\u0131rada elinde bir ac\u0131 hissetti. Bir damla kan saks\u0131daki \u00e7amurla\u015fm\u0131\u015f topra\u011fa kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u201cHay Allah!\u201d derken r\u00fcyas\u0131n\u0131n silinmemi\u015f par\u00e7alar\u0131 zihninde parlad\u0131. \u0130\u00e7ini \u00fcrperten bu r\u00fcyaya k\u00e2bus da diyebilirdi. G\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc en g\u00fczel k\u00e2bus… Bu k\u00e2busun ortas\u0131ndaki anlam veremedi\u011fi o c\u00fcmle, i\u00e7inde tekrar yank\u0131lanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bir melodi gibi t\u0131n\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 duydu\u011fu kelimelere mana k\u0131yafeti giydiremiyordu. G\u00fcn boyunca bu c\u00fcmlenin melodisi zihninde d\u00f6nd\u00fc.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0<\/span>\u201cXec\u00ea, Xeca min a delal…\u201d<\/p>\n II<\/p>\n Bulma, bakma<\/p>\n Tak\u0131ld\u0131k u\u00e7suz bir kervana<\/p>\n Ne pusula var elimizde\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Ne de harita\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Ko\u015f ama bir ad\u0131m atma\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Uykusunda duydu\u011fu c\u00fcmlenin zihninde s\u00fcrekli tekrar edip durmas\u0131 bu sihirli c\u00fcmleyi kendili\u011finden bir melodiye \u00e7evirmi\u015fti. Sanki bir isim vard\u0131 orada, sanki kendisine seslenen biri vard\u0131. O isim kendisine hem \u00e7ok uzak hem de \u00e7ok yak\u0131nd\u0131. Bu sesleni\u015f yard\u0131m \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131ndan \u00e7ok bir \u00f6zlem inilltisi gibiydi ve kendisini duyuraca\u011f\u0131na emindi.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler, t\u00fcm g\u00fcn ad\u0131mlar\u0131yla ordan oraya dola\u015ft\u0131. Her ad\u0131m\u0131nda onunla geldi Xec\u00ea.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cKimsin sen? Neredesin? Benden ne istiyorsun?!\u201d<\/p>\n Bu sorular\u0131 r\u00fcyas\u0131ndan kalan tek par\u00e7aya sorup durdu. Sonunda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceleri yerinden f\u0131rlad\u0131:<\/p>\n -Seni bulaca\u011f\u0131m Xec\u00ea!<\/p>\n -Efendim! Bana m\u0131 dediniz?<\/p>\n Apartman giri\u015findeki kom\u015fu, bir anl\u0131\u011f\u0131na duvar boyamaya ara vermi\u015f, dalg\u0131n g\u00f6zlerle kendisine bak\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n -A, hay\u0131r, kolay gelsin!<\/p>\n \u00a0<\/span>G\u00f6zlerini ka\u00e7\u0131rarak ko\u015far ad\u0131mlarla yukar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Eve geldi. Dolaptan uzun zamand\u0131r unutulmu\u015f olan uyku ilac\u0131ndan \u00f6nce birini sonra ani bir kararla ikincisini ald\u0131. Hemen i\u00e7ip kanepeye uzand\u0131. G\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi:<\/p>\n -Art\u0131k ac\u0131 \u00e7ekmeyeceksin Xec\u00ea.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n III<\/p>\n S\u00fcphan Da\u011f\u0131\u2019n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 sislidir<\/p>\n Seni koruyup kollar sanma\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Sorma, durma<\/p>\n D\u00fc\u015fmesin bir damla\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Ayaklar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131plakt\u0131. Y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fc. Sanki y\u00fcr\u00fcyen kendisi de\u011fil, ak\u0131p giden bir zemindi. Bir deve dikeninin ayak parma\u011f\u0131na batmas\u0131yla s\u0131\u00e7rad\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cR\u00fcyadaysam nas\u0131l ac\u0131 hissedebilirim!\u201d<\/p>\n Dikeni \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p, y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye devam etti. S\u00fcphan Da\u011f\u0131\u2019n\u0131n yama\u00e7lar\u0131nda r\u00fczg\u00e2rla beraber savrulan sisler d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda art\u0131k biri daha vard\u0131. Her ad\u0131m\u0131nda sisli zirve, biraz daha yak\u0131nla\u015f\u0131yor, biraz daha g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr oluyordu. O tan\u0131d\u0131k c\u00fcmleyi tekrar duydu. Bu tan\u0131d\u0131k c\u00fcmle, ard\u0131nda s\u00fcr\u00fckledi\u011fi yeni dizelerle bu sefer daha net, daha temiz, daha g\u00fcr dalgalan\u0131yordu. Sanki kendisini uzun s\u00fcredir g\u00f6rmedi\u011fi bir dost gibi ko\u015farak kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131yordu Siyabend\u2019in dizeleri:<\/p>\n \u201cXec\u00ea, Xeca min a delal<\/p>\n \u00c7awan neb\u00fb miraz\u00ea min \u00fb te<\/p>\n Me \u00ea ji xwe ra li ser\u00ea S\u00eepan\u00ea Xelat\u00ea<\/p>\n \u00c7\u00eakira konek\u00ee rind \u00fb delal<\/p>\n Xec\u00ea meke, mel\u00fbr\u00eene<\/p>\n H\u00eastiran di ser s\u00fbret\u00ea sor de nebarine\u201d (1)<\/p>\n Bu sefer \u00fczg\u00fcn ya da tedirgin de\u011fildi. Aya\u011f\u0131ndaki deve dikenlerini art\u0131k hissetmiyordu. Art\u0131k yank\u0131lanan bu kelimeleri anl\u0131yordu. Ufak bir ge\u00e7idi de a\u015f\u0131nca zirveye ula\u015ft\u0131. \u0130leriye bakt\u0131. Aras\u0131ndan ge\u00e7ti\u011fi sisler \u015fimdi a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da kalm\u0131\u015f, buluttan bir \u00f6rt\u00fcye d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Zirvenin ucuna yakla\u015ft\u0131. Kuru bir a\u011fa\u00e7 k\u00f6k\u00fcn\u00fcn yan\u0131na oturdu. Da\u011fda\u011fan a\u011fac\u0131yd\u0131 bu. Y\u0131llar \u00f6nce kesilmi\u015f gibiydi. Geriye sadece k\u00f6kleri kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Oysa kesilmemesi gerekirdi. Bu a\u011fac\u0131n kesilmesi iyi \u015feylere sebep olmazd\u0131. K\u00f6k\u00fcn dibinde iki kan k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131s\u0131 g\u00fcl ve onlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda iri bir deve dikeni vard\u0131. T\u00fcm su\u00e7 bu deve dikeninde olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Elini uzatt\u0131, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden dikeni avu\u00e7lad\u0131. Elinden akan k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 damlalar \u00e7amurlu topra\u011fa kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Sonunda kanl\u0131 ellerinde, s\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f k\u00f6kleri a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sarkan bir deve dikeni kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Yanyana duran iki g\u00fcle ve aralar\u0131ndaki bo\u015flu\u011fa bakt\u0131. Derin bir nefes ald\u0131:<\/p>\n -Art\u0131k ac\u0131 \u00e7ekmeyeceksin!<\/p>\n S\u00fcphan Da\u011f\u0131\u2019n\u0131n zirvesinde oturmu\u015f biri, elindeki deve dikenini acem r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131na b\u0131rakt\u0131. Sevdalar\u0131 S\u00fcphan Da\u011f\u0131\u2019n\u0131n zirvesine yara\u015f\u0131r y\u00fccelikte olan iki g\u00fcl\u00fcn yan\u0131nda oturup, r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n e\u015flik etti\u011fi Xec\u00ea\u2019nin dizelerini dinledi.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cSer\u00ea \u00e7iyay\u00ea S\u00eepan\u00ea Xelat\u00ea bi mij e<\/p>\n Bin\u00ea \u00e7iyay\u00ea S\u00eepan\u00ea Xelat\u00ea bi mij e<\/p>\n K\u00ea d\u00eetiye, k\u00ea b\u00eenaye<\/p>\n Ku n\u00ea\u00e7ir, n\u00ea\u00e7irvan bikuje<\/p>\n Gak\u00fbviyo, te strudir\u00eajo weke bejna<\/p>\n \u00c7awan te ji hev kir dest\u00ea jin \u00fb m\u00earo<\/p>\n Strudir\u00eajo weke dara s\u00fbk\u00ea<\/p>\n \u00c7awan te xirab kir bext\u00ea xort \u00fb buk\u00ea\u201d (2)<\/p>\n Yere d\u00fc\u015fen kutunun sesiyle irkildi. G\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7t\u0131. Kanepedeydi. \u0130la\u00e7 kutusunu yerden al\u0131p bakt\u0131. Bu uyku ilac\u0131 de\u011fil, vitamin takviyesiydi. Nas\u0131l bu kadar derin uyuyabildi\u011fini anlamad\u0131. A\u00e7\u0131k pencereden i\u00e7eri yalanc\u0131 bahar doluyordu. Zoraki kalk\u0131p d\u0131\u015far\u0131 bakt\u0131. Kom\u015fu adam, dilinde bir t\u00fcrk\u00fc ile bah\u00e7edeki k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 g\u00fclleri suluyordu. Tan\u0131d\u0131k ve y\u00fcksekten bir sevda t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fcyd\u00fc bu.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Notlar:<\/p>\n * S\u00eeyabend \u00fb Xec\u00ea Destan\u0131:\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n K\u00fcrt edebiyat\u0131n\u0131n en \u00f6nemli a\u015fk Destan\u0131na g\u00f6re S\u00fcphan da\u011f\u0131\u2019n\u0131n ku\u015f u\u00e7maz kervan ge\u00e7mez yama\u00e7lar\u0131nda avc\u0131 bir gen\u00e7 gezinirdi. Ad\u0131 Siyabend\u2019di. Avc\u0131lar\u0131n i\u00e7inde en cesaretli en at\u0131lgan en yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 olan Siyabend\u2019in g\u00f6nl\u00fc Xec\u00ea\u2019deydi.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Siyabend\u2019in yi\u011fitli\u011fine, mertli\u011fine ve sayg\u0131s\u0131na doyum olmazd\u0131. Ama ne yaz\u0131kki fakirdi. Ne Xec\u00ea\u2019nin babas\u0131n\u0131n isteyece\u011fi ba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 verebilir ne de bu konuda ad\u0131m atabilirdi.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Xec\u00ea\u2019nin ba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6deyemeyecek durumda olan Siyabend, Xec\u00eayi ka\u00e7\u0131rmaya karar verir. S\u00fcphan da\u011f\u0131n\u0131n derin vadilerinin kendilerini koruyup kollayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildiklerinden, O\u2019na s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131rlar. Siyabend\u2019in uykusu gelir. Uyurken bir damla Siyabend\u2019in aln\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fer. Xec\u00ea\u2019nin g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 oldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcr. Neden a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sorar.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Xec\u00ea:<\/p>\n -Biraz \u00f6nce \u00e7irkin bir geyik \u00e7ok g\u00fczel bir geyi\u011fi \u00f6n\u00fcne katm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyordu. O kadar g\u00fczel geyikler vardi ki ard\u0131nda ama o \u00e7irkin geyik hi\u00e7birini o g\u00fczel geyi\u011fe yakla\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131yordu. Di\u011fer g\u00fczel geyikler korkular\u0131ndan yana\u015fam\u0131yorlard\u0131 bile. Hele i\u00e7inde bir vard\u0131 ki t\u0131pk\u0131 sana benzettim. Bu y\u00fczden tutamay\u0131p kendimi a\u011flad\u0131m.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n B\u00f6lgenin en usta avc\u0131s\u0131 Siyabend hemen do\u011frulur. K\u0131l\u0131c\u0131n\u0131 kalkan\u0131n\u0131 ku\u015fan\u0131r. Ok ve yay\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131r. \u00c7ok ge\u00e7meden geyiklere yeti\u015fir. Yay\u0131n\u0131 haz\u0131rlar, okunu s\u00fcr\u00fcp f\u0131rlatacakken geyik anlam\u0131\u015f gibi Siyabend\u2019e yana\u015f\u0131r. Boynuzunu Siyabend\u2019e saplayarak onu u\u00e7urumdan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya f\u0131rlat\u0131r.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Xec\u00ea meraklan\u0131r. O\u2019nu aramaya ba\u015flar. Geyiklerin yan\u0131nda g\u00f6remez. Derenin dibine do\u011fru aramalar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcr\u00fcrken derinlerden bir inilti duyar. Siyabend kocaman bir dal par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr. Rivayete g\u00f6re Xec\u00ea de bu sivri dal par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne atlar. Siyabend\u2019le Xec\u00ea\u2019yi ay\u0131ran sivri dal ikisini tekrar bir araya getirir fakat cans\u0131z bir \u015fekilde.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Derlerki her y\u0131l Siyabend ile Xec\u00ea\u2019nin mezar\u0131nda kan renginde iki g\u00fcl biter. Bu g\u00fcller bir birine sar\u0131lmak \u00fczere iken bir deve dikeni de aralar\u0131na girer bu iki g\u00fcl\u00fcn kavu\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 engeller.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0<\/span>(1)Xec\u00ea, benim g\u00fczel Xec\u00ea\u2019m\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Nas\u0131l da olmad\u0131 ikimizin murad\u0131<\/p>\n Biz de S\u00fcphan da\u011f\u0131na<\/p>\n Kursayd\u0131k g\u00fczel bir \u00e7ad\u0131r<\/p>\n Xec\u00ea yapma, a\u011f\u0131t yakma<\/p>\n Al yanaktan, ya\u015f ak\u0131tma\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n (2) S\u00fcphan da\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 sislidir<\/p>\n S\u00fcphan da\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131 sislidir<\/p>\n Kim g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f, Kim i\u015fitmi\u015f<\/p>\n Av avc\u0131y\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcrs\u00fcn<\/p>\n Geyi\u011fin boynuzu uzun t\u0131pk\u0131 boyum gibi<\/p>\n Nas\u0131l ay\u0131rd\u0131n iki sevgilinin ellerini<\/p>\n Suk\u00ea a\u011fac\u0131 gibi uzun boynuzlu<\/p>\n Nas\u0131l y\u0131kt\u0131n gelinle damad\u0131n baht\u0131n\u0131\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" ESRA DOLUNAY Kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bir mevsim di\u011ferine\u00a0 Hangi g\u00fcn, ay, sene Da\u011fda\u011fan a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6lgesinde G\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fc o yitik hazine\u00a0 \u00a0Elleri<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2006,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[4],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n