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<\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n\u0130lki: \u0130brahim Nebi\u2019nin Haceri yani b\u0131\u00e7ak alt\u0131ndaki \u0130smailin annesi, yani sab\u0131r kahraman\u0131\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Anne olarak sevdim onu. Hz \u0130brahim\u2019in zevcesi ve yol arkada\u015f\u0131 Halilullah\u0131n\u2026 Sahrada kalan vefal\u0131… \u00c7etin imtihan\u0131n annesi…<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Bilmem ki anneler Hacer olmadan ibrahimin mesaj\u0131n\u0131 anlayabilirler mi?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Bir di\u011fer Hacer can\u0131m karde\u015fim. Anac\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n mezar ta\u015f\u0131yla ya\u015f\u0131t Hacer. Anam\u0131n en k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z\u0131. Karde\u015flerin ortancas\u0131.Yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 en fazla hissedinimiz ve en fazla annesizli\u011fi ya\u015fayan\u0131m\u0131z bizim. Boynu b\u00fck\u00fck yeti\u015fti ve fedakarl\u0131k simgesi oldu Hacer. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n G\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131d\u0131r onun bir di\u011fer ismi. Uzaklardan gelsem, yan\u0131ma yana\u015f\u0131r boynuma sar\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 hep. \u0130kinci kelimeden sonra g\u00f6zleri dolar tamamlayamazd\u0131 s\u00f6zc\u00fcklerini.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Ve g\u00f6zleri damla damla olur arkas\u0131ndan. Dudaklar\u0131 titrer ve hemen terk eder ortam\u0131. Boynuma sar\u0131l\u0131nca elimi omzuna atar ba\u011fr\u0131ma basar\u0131m Haceri.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0130smi bana hep h\u00fczn\u00fc ifade eder. Anne hasretinin yan\u0131nda babas\u0131zl\u0131k ate\u015fini i\u00e7inde hissetti bir ya\u015f\u0131nda. \u0130ki mezar ortas\u0131nda on ya\u015f\u0131nda bir \u00e7ocuk ve iki g\u00f6z aras\u0131nda iki damla ya\u015f. \u0130\u015fte kareye tak\u0131lan foto\u011fraf\u0131.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Ziyaretine gidince , \u201cabi ne zaman gideceksin?\u201d der. Ben, \u201cbirazdan\u201d deyince \u201cabi bir-iki g\u00fcn daha kalsan olmaz m\u0131?\u201d der her seferinde ve yine yar\u0131m kal\u0131r meram\u0131. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Abi bir sudur karde\u015f i\u00e7in bazen, Anne ile babas\u0131zl\u0131k aras\u0131nda bir ate\u015f s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc. Mezar ta\u015f\u0131na dayan\u0131nca, omuzlar\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcnce arkas\u0131ndan, omuzlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcne basan bir \u00e7ocuktur, abi\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Ve \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc Hacer. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Bir g\u00fcvercin kalbinin ritmi gelir akl\u0131ma. \u0130kinci Hacerden a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 bir yan\u0131 yok. O da can, o da ba\u015fka ku\u015fak bir karde\u015f.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Pembe bir elbise ve uzaklara bakan bir bak\u0131\u015f. Hasret karesine tak\u0131lan foto\u011fraf\u0131. Okyanusun kenar\u0131na oturunca ay\u0131n yolcuyu bekledi\u011fimiz Hacer.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Uzaklara bak\u0131nca bak\u0131\u015f uzakl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ayn\u0131 oldu\u011fu can. Suyun \u00f6tesindeki muallimin suyun berisindeki hasretlilerinden…<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0130\u00e7imdeki yang\u0131n.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Boynuma sar\u0131lmad\u0131, boynuna sar\u0131lamad\u0131m belki ama i\u00e7imdeki sarma\u015f\u0131k, ismini sard\u0131 i\u00e7ime. Onunda g\u00f6zlerinde hasret, onun da g\u00f6zlerinde g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 var. \u0130yile\u015fmesi umutsuz bi yarad\u0131r hat\u0131ras\u0131. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Birinci Haceri tan\u0131yamad\u0131m, h\u00fczn\u00fcm\u00fcn ilk par\u00e7as\u0131d\u0131r bu.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0130kinci Haceri doyas\u0131ya sevinderimedim ve b\u00fck\u00fck boynunu yukar\u0131 kald\u0131ramad\u0131m. H\u00fczn\u00fcm\u00fcn ikinci par\u00e7as\u0131d\u0131r. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc Haceri k\u0131r\u0131k bir g\u00f6n\u00fclle b\u0131rak\u0131p gittim. H\u00fczn\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc par\u00e7as\u0131d\u0131r bu. Derincedir \u00fc\u00e7 Hacerin \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fc. Derincedir yaralar\u0131 onlar\u0131n. Tarihin i\u00e7ime yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7 anlaml\u0131 portredir bu.Yaz\u0131las\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7 hikaye\u2026Okunas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7 hat\u0131rad\u0131r bu. \u00dc\u00e7 damla g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 \u2026<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00dc\u00e7 damla kan izidir i\u00e7imde\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" FER\u0130D KARSLI B\u00f6yle ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7 Hacerin \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fc\u2026 \u0130lki: \u0130brahim Nebi\u2019nin Haceri yani b\u0131\u00e7ak alt\u0131ndaki \u0130smailin annesi, yani sab\u0131r<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":199,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[2],"tags":[29,26,23,30],"yoast_head":"\n