{"id":1952,"date":"2021-06-28T16:15:05","date_gmt":"2021-06-28T16:15:05","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=1952"},"modified":"2021-06-28T16:15:05","modified_gmt":"2021-06-28T16:15:05","slug":"umut-3","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=1952","title":{"rendered":"Umut"},"content":{"rendered":"

G\u00fclhan\u0131m Anulur<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

\u00a0 <\/span>Bug\u00fcnlerde bir yan\u0131m umutsuzluk denizinde y\u00fcz\u00fcyor<\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/span>\u0130\u00e7imdeki f\u0131rt\u0131na \u00e7ok \u015fiddetli koparcas\u0131na k\u0131yamet.<\/p>\n

G\u00fczelligini yitirmi\u015f deniz mavisi dalgalar e\u015flik ediyor,\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Gel git ya\u015f\u0131yor \u00e7aresizli\u011fim.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Hayk\u0131r\u0131yorum ama duyan\u0131m yok! G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131ma s\u0131gd\u0131yorum acizli\u011fimi.<\/p>\n

Kalbimin odakc\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n birinde derdest ediliyor \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131m<\/p>\n

D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcn enginliklerine sevdam<\/p>\n

Yorgun d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, demir parmakl\u0131klar arkas\u0131nda bedenim<\/p>\n

Bir daha d\u00f6nememe hissinin zindan\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kam\u0131yor<\/p>\n

S\u0131k\u0131st\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f vakkum gibi toparlanm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcnse de i\u00e7i darma duman<\/p>\n

Dal\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, kuyusu susuz, bah\u00e7esi talan …<\/p>\n

\u0130syanlarda ama isyan\u0131 kime?\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Her g\u00fcn ayn\u0131 derde uyan\u0131yor kalbim, yorgun d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor ak\u015fama.<\/p>\n

Uyanas\u0131 gelmiyor, d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmler at\u0131l\u0131yor ruhuma ard arda.<\/p>\n

Umutsuzlu\u011fa teslim olmamak i\u00e7in \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131yor bedenim.<\/p>\n

Sonra \u201cteslim olma\u201d diyor di\u011fer yan\u0131m alabildigine tuhaf yumusak bir sesle<\/p>\n

Yoksa y\u00fcre\u011finle konu\u015fmaya engel olur. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Sabah\u0131n\u0131 bilmedi\u011fimiz halde \u00e7alar saati kurup uyumakt\u0131r umut,\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Bir kibritte sen yak, sonra s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131 ile \u0131s\u0131t y\u00fcre\u011fini\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Al umudunu pencere kenar\u0131na koy ye\u015fillensin, \u00e7i\u00e7eklensin, kelebekler u\u00e7u\u015fsun etraf\u0131nda!<\/p>\n

G\u00fczel \u015feyler hep zorlu yollar\u0131n sonunda<\/p>\n

B\u0131rak art\u0131k \u00f6d\u00fcn\u00e7 al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131, kendin \u0131\u015f\u0131k ol!<\/p>\n

G\u00fcne\u015f gibi \u0131\u015f\u0131k sa\u00e7 etraf\u0131na\u00a0 <\/span>y\u0131lma batmaktan ve do\u011fmaktan<\/p>\n

Ruhunu demlendir inanc\u0131nla ve huzuru kokla yudumlarken<\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcne d\u00f6n ki nefesin sonsuzluk bestesini m\u0131r\u0131ldanmaya ba\u015flas\u0131n yeniden<\/p>\n

Bak! her \u015fey d\u00f6ner, ay d\u00f6ner, g\u00fcne\u015f d\u00f6ner, d\u00fcnya d\u00f6ner\u2026<\/p>\n

Geceler g\u00fcnd\u00fcze, hastal\u0131klar \u015fifaya, h\u00fcz\u00fcnler mutlulu\u011fa d\u00f6ner.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

G\u00fcn gelir bir g\u00fcn sen de d\u00f6nersin umut ettigin hayallere.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

G\u00fclhan\u0131m Anulur \u00a0 Bug\u00fcnlerde bir yan\u0131m umutsuzluk denizinde y\u00fcz\u00fcyor \u00a0\u0130\u00e7imdeki f\u0131rt\u0131na \u00e7ok \u015fiddetli koparcas\u0131na k\u0131yamet. G\u00fczelligini yitirmi\u015f deniz<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1950,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\nUmut - SES MAGAZINE<\/title>\n<meta name=\"robots\" content=\"index, follow, max-snippet:-1, max-image-preview:large, max-video-preview:-1\" \/>\n<link rel=\"canonical\" href=\"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=1952\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:locale\" content=\"en_US\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:type\" content=\"article\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:title\" content=\"Umut - SES MAGAZINE\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:description\" content=\"G\u00fclhan\u0131m Anulur \u00a0 Bug\u00fcnlerde bir yan\u0131m umutsuzluk denizinde y\u00fcz\u00fcyor \u00a0\u0130\u00e7imdeki f\u0131rt\u0131na \u00e7ok \u015fiddetli koparcas\u0131na k\u0131yamet. 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