{"id":1888,"date":"2021-02-12T17:05:12","date_gmt":"2021-02-12T17:05:12","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=1888"},"modified":"2021-02-12T17:05:12","modified_gmt":"2021-02-12T17:05:12","slug":"muhteseme-mektuplar-7","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=1888","title":{"rendered":"MUHTE\u015eEM\u2019e Mektuplar 7"},"content":{"rendered":"<h4><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span>Bet\u00fcl Aydan\u2019dan<\/h4>\n<p>Sevgili Muhte\u015fem,<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u00e7imden gemiler ge\u00e7iyor. Bir deniz \u00fczerinde mahkumiyetinden de\u011fil mahkumiyetine ka\u00e7an gizli duygular\u0131m var.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Her dalga biraz daha sall\u0131yor beni.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Kimi annemin dizinde uykuya dal\u0131yorum kimi bir depremden ka\u00e7ar misali bir o yana bir bu yana ko\u015fmak istesem de ko\u015fam\u0131yorum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Herkes susuyor herkesin g\u00f6zlerinde korku&#8230;<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Titanic<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>batm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ya hani ismini ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 filmde.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Dikkatimizi nas\u0131l da \u00e7ekmi\u015fti \u00f6yle hat\u0131rl\u0131yor musun?<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Herkes gemiden ka\u00e7arken bir grup m\u00fczisyen eserlerini icra ediyordu hi\u00e7 teredd\u00fcts\u00fcz.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>\u0130\u015fini son kez ama hi\u00e7 y\u00fcks\u00fcnmeden son an\u0131n tad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kara \u00e7\u0131kara melodilerini g\u00f6nderiyorlard\u0131 tela\u015ftan ba\u015fka bir \u015fey duyamayacak insanlara.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Onlar,<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>i\u015flerini yap\u0131yordu.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Gerisini bo\u015fvermi\u015flerdi.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Kocaman tela\u015flarda, \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k dolu seslerde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck kal\u0131yorlar kalabal\u0131klarda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fcyorlard\u0131 sanki.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Asl\u0131nda nas\u0131l da b\u00fcy\u00fckt\u00fc yapabildikleri.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Sahi:\u201d B\u00fcy\u00fckl\u00fck k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckl\u00fck de ne?<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Bazen bir gemi batar da k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir kay\u0131k kurtar\u0131r\u201d diyordu bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>\u0130\u00e7imden ge\u00e7en gemiler var demi\u015ftim ya Muhte\u015fem.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>\u0130\u00e7imde giden ve gelmeyenler de var gelip d\u00f6nemeyeceklerle bir.<\/p>\n<p>Hayat\u0131n ilmeklerinde bir yerden sesleniyorum sana.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>\u0130p olmu\u015fum sonra birinin parmak u\u00e7lar\u0131nda dolanm\u0131\u015f ve di\u011fer ilmeklerin i\u00e7inde bir yerde durmu\u015fum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Bilirsin hem de hat\u0131rlars\u0131n de\u011fil mi Muhte\u015fem k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczde ilmek at\u0131larak \u00f6r\u00fclen<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>o kazaklar\u0131,<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>h\u0131rkalar\u0131.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Bazen tam da istemedi\u011fin yerden bir ilmek d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar ahenk bozulur,<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>b\u00fct\u00fcn o uyumlu \u00f6rg\u00fcn\u00fcn desenlerinin i\u00e7inde bir d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm gibi durur bo\u011fazda.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>G\u00f6ze dokunur bu durum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>\u0130yi hissettirmez kendini.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Kendim \u015fimdilerde bir \u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f b\u00fct\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn i\u00e7inde \u00fczerinde durdu\u011fum ki\u015finin y\u00fcz\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne tak\u0131l\u0131p da yerinden oynam\u0131\u015f bir ilmek gibiyim. Tak\u0131l\u0131yorum galiba bir \u015feylere.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Sonra bir asi gibi dik ba\u015f\u0131m sivri bir t\u0131\u011fla dokunulmasa boynunu e\u011fmiyor.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>\u0130\u011fneli s\u00f6zler gibi sanki baz\u0131 bak\u0131\u015flar,<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>i\u011fneyle kaz\u0131lan kuyulardan \u00e7\u0131karabiliyor muyuz \u015fimdi \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131?<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Peki<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>ya \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumuzu?<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Sonra yenilik isteyince, yeni bir ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7 i\u00e7in ipin ucunu tutup elimizde o \u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f giysi sessizce s\u00f6k\u00fcls\u00fcn diye uzaklara do\u011fru ko\u015fuyor muyuz?<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Ya da ne bileyim bir \u015feyler yapmal\u0131y\u0131m ama ne?<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>diye soruyor muyuz kendimize?<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Zeze\u2019yi hat\u0131rlars\u0131n hani o g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez renkteki iple yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 muzipli\u011fi de.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Hat\u0131rlad\u0131k\u00e7a g\u00fcl\u00fcmserim.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Zeze\u2019yle tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m kitap kokusunu turuncu renklerde duyar\u0131m hep.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>\u0130\u015fte b\u00f6yle bir tutunma maceras\u0131nda renk renk ipler var \u00f6rg\u00fc sepetimde.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Bir de d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm de ipin ucunu ka\u00e7\u0131rmak,<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>deyimi ke\u00e7ileri ka\u00e7\u0131rmaktan daha m\u0131 kolay ya da daha m\u0131 cevaps\u0131z Muhte\u015fem?<\/p>\n<p>Muhte\u015fem,<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Sana bu sat\u0131rlar\u0131 \u00fczerimdeki \u00f6rg\u00fc kaza\u011f\u0131n d\u0131\u015fa ta\u015fm\u0131\u015f bir ilme\u011fine bakarak yaz\u0131yorum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck damlalar\u0131n g\u00f6le d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmek i\u00e7in damlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliriz ya<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>i\u015fte her \u00f6rg\u00fc de \u015fi\u015fte biriken bir damla ad\u0131 ilmek olan.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>K\u0131\u015f getirdi bu \u00f6rg\u00fcl\u00fc c\u00fcmleleri sana.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Gemiler buz \u00fcst\u00fcnde ak\u0131p gidemedi i\u00e7imden.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn kardan adam\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131n takt\u0131klar\u0131 \u00f6rg\u00fc \u015fapkaya bak\u0131p g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedim.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Kardan adam da bana g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>K\u00f6m\u00fcrden de\u011fildi a\u011fz\u0131 oyuncak n\u00f6rf mermilerinin mavi u\u00e7lar\u0131ndan g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyordu bize. \u00dcz\u00fcld\u00fck\u00e7e daha dikkatle bakt\u0131m ona. Bizim \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumuzdaki k\u00f6m\u00fcr karas\u0131n\u0131 ve k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck par\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Hem k\u00f6m\u00fcr\u00fc hi\u00e7 bilmiyor en k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck o\u011flum galiba odunu da.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Kaloriferli, kombili veya klimal\u0131 evlerde do\u011fup b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>O odun,<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>k\u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fc zamanlar\u0131m\u0131za yeti\u015fmedi en az\u0131ndan k\u00f6ylerimizdeki sobal\u0131 evlerdeki s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 bile hissedemedi.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Eskisi gibi de\u011fil ya art\u0131k hi\u00e7bir \u015fey. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fe hi\u00e7 yak\u0131n de\u011fil \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n g\u00f6rd\u00fckleri, oynad\u0131klar\u0131. Oysa so\u011fuk bir sabahta uyanmak ve \u00fc\u015f\u00fcmek de ne tatl\u0131d\u0131r bilirsin.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Sonra etraf\u0131 \u0131s\u0131tacak soban\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda toplanmak&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Ah Muhte\u015fem,<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>ah sevgili dostum!<\/p>\n<p>Senin i\u00e7in kalemi elime her ald\u0131\u011f\u0131mda \u00e7ocuklu\u011fum ve bu ya\u015f\u0131m aras\u0131ndaki basamaklar\u0131 yava\u015f yava\u015f \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Eteklerimizdeki g\u00fcne\u015f rengi her yaprakta el yaz\u0131m\u0131zla yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z kelimeler var.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>S\u0131rlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 f\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131yorlar bize.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Bilmem ki hangi birinibhat\u0131rlars\u0131n ya da unutursun?<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Hani bah\u00e7emizde erik a\u011fac\u0131 vard\u0131.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Yapraklar\u0131 ye\u015fil,<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>dallar\u0131 kal\u0131n.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>H\u00e2l\u00e2 o daldaki sal\u0131ncakta sallan\u0131yorum Muhte\u015fem.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Biliyor musun,<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>kar\u015f\u0131mda gemiler var.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Geminin g\u00fcvertesinden<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>\u00fczerinde kal\u0131n \u00f6rme kazakl\u0131 \u00e7ocuklar el sall\u0131yorlar bana.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Hatta yanlar\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131yorlar. Ama ben uzaklara gitmeyi g\u00f6ze alam\u0131yorum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>B\u0131rak,<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>\u015fimdilik gemilerimiz yaln\u0131z i\u00e7imizde gezsin. Uzaklardaki mavi deniz bize baks\u0131n biz \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fczdeki g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcne bakal\u0131m ve en iyisi g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyelim.<\/p>\n<p>Ho\u015f\u00e7akal Muhte\u015fem&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u00a0Bet\u00fcl Aydan\u2019dan Sevgili Muhte\u015fem, \u0130\u00e7imden gemiler ge\u00e7iyor. 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