{"id":1860,"date":"2021-02-12T16:46:55","date_gmt":"2021-02-12T16:46:55","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=1860"},"modified":"2021-02-12T16:46:55","modified_gmt":"2021-02-12T16:46:55","slug":"sunduz-apartmaninda-virus","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=1860","title":{"rendered":"S\u00dcND\u00dcZ APARTMANI\u2019NDA V\u0130R\u00dcS"},"content":{"rendered":"

TUBA S\u0130NA<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

1.\u00a0 <\/span>B\u00f6l\u00fcm<\/b><\/p>\n

Pazar sabah\u0131,\u00a0 <\/span>ezan vakti.\u00a0 <\/span>Kal\u0131n perdeyi hafif\u00e7e aralad\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>\u015eimdi de,\u00a0 <\/span>haftan\u0131n be\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fcnde\u00a0 <\/span>korna seslerinden uyuyamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m caddeyi seyrediyorum.\u00a0 <\/span>\u00c7evre yolunun \u00fczerine aral\u0131kl\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fen sokak lambalar\u0131n\u0131n\u00a0 <\/span>par\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131ndan ba\u015fka g\u00f6rebilece\u011fim \u0131\u015f\u0131k yok.\u00a0 <\/span>\u0130yi ki sokaktaki k\u00f6peklerin,\u00a0 <\/span>kedilerin ba\u011fr\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131 var.\u00a0 <\/span>Yoksa bu saatte i\u00e7imin k\u0131yametini bast\u0131racak sesleri nereden bulabilirdim ki?<\/p>\n

Ah \u015fu ila\u00e7lar!\u00a0 <\/span>Yurt d\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan geliyor olmalar\u0131 beni bu saatte pencere \u00f6nlerine itti.\u00a0 <\/span>\u0130la\u00e7lar\u0131m bitti.\u00a0 <\/span>Yenisini\u00a0 <\/span>sipari\u015f ettim ama kargolarda \u015fu s\u0131ralar s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 varm\u0131\u015f.\u00a0 <\/span>Birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn daha beklememiz gerekiyormu\u015f.\u00a0 <\/span>O s\u00fcre zarf\u0131nda bende patlak veren her \u015fey normalmi\u015f: Uykusuzluk,\u00a0 <\/span>i\u015ftahs\u0131zl\u0131k,\u00a0 <\/span>sinir bozuklu\u011fu,\u00a0 <\/span>vs. \u00a0 <\/span>Ama ben normal de\u011filim.\u00a0 <\/span>Ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131m hi\u00e7 normal de\u011fil.<\/p>\n

Normal ge\u00e7en g\u00fcnlerime en yak\u0131ndan tan\u0131kl\u0131k eden Rukiye ile ge\u00e7en y\u0131la kadar\u00a0 <\/span>ayn\u0131 apartmanda,\u00a0 <\/span>S\u00fcnd\u00fcz Apartman\u0131\u2019nda oturuyordum.\u00a0 <\/span>Be\u015f y\u00fcz elli bin liraya iki otob\u00fcs dura\u011f\u0131 ilerisinden yeni bir daire alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k.\u00a0 <\/span>Haliyle,\u00a0 <\/span>Rukiye ile aram\u0131za mesafeler girmi\u015fti.\u00a0 <\/span>Ama aray\u0131 a\u00e7m\u0131yorduk.\u00a0 <\/span>Haftan\u0131n bir g\u00fcn\u00fc ya o bende,\u00a0 <\/span>ya da ben ondayd\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>Bir araya geldi\u011fimizde,\u00a0 <\/span>dedikodu kazanlar\u0131n\u0131 odun ate\u015finde kaynatt\u0131k\u00e7a kaynat\u0131rd\u0131k.\u00a0 <\/span>Laf eski kom\u015fulardan a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 m\u0131 \u015feytan dilimize bal s\u00fcr\u00fcyordu.\u00a0 <\/span>Hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum da\u00a0 <\/span>son bulu\u015fmam\u0131zda Rukiye\u2019deydim ve ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m haberler bir biri ard\u0131na \u015f\u00f6yleydi:<\/p>\n

Y\u0131ld\u0131z Abla\u2019n\u0131n kaportac\u0131ya ka\u00e7an k\u0131z\u0131, \u00a0 <\/span>kocas\u0131yla birlikte\u00a0 <\/span>bayramda\u00a0 <\/span>el \u00f6pmeye gelmi\u015f, ama Y\u0131ld\u0131z Ablalar k\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131 eve kabul etmemi\u015fler.<\/p>\n

En alt kattaki Sivasl\u0131 kar\u0131-kocan\u0131n evine,\u00a0 <\/span>Esra Erol ekibi h\u00e2l\u00e2 gelip gidiyormu\u015f.\u00a0 <\/span>Onlar o programa kat\u0131lal\u0131 alt\u0131 ay olmu\u015ftu.\u00a0 <\/span>\u00c7ocuklar\u0131n DNA testi sonu\u00e7land\u0131ktan sonra adam iyice kafay\u0131 oynatm\u0131\u015f.\u00a0 <\/span>\u201cBen inanm\u0131yorum bu teste.\u00a0 <\/span>Bu \u00e7ocuklar benden de\u011fil\u201d\u00a0 <\/span>diyormu\u015f.<\/p>\n

Sinem\u2019in o\u011flu deneme s\u0131navlar\u0131nda K\u00fcbra\u2019n\u0131n o\u011flunu hep ge\u00e7iyormu\u015f.\u00a0 <\/span>K\u00fcbra h\u0131rs\u0131ndan hap i\u00e7meye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f.\u00a0 <\/span>Be\u015f vakit namaz\u0131n\u0131n arkas\u0131ndan Allah\u2019a her g\u00fcn yalvar\u0131yormu\u015f: \u201cSinem\u2019in o\u011flu \u00fcniversite s\u0131nav\u0131nda kayd\u0131rma yaps\u0131n.\u201d diye.<\/p>\n

Kap\u0131c\u0131 H\u00fcseyin\u2019in kar\u0131s\u0131,\u00a0 <\/span>Ay\u015fe Teyze\u2019nin evini paspaslarken aya\u011f\u0131 kaym\u0131\u015f,\u00a0 <\/span>d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f.\u00a0 <\/span>Ay\u015fe Teyze\u00a0 <\/span>temizli\u011fin geri kalan\u0131n\u0131 yapmad\u0131 diye kad\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcndeli\u011fini kesmi\u015f.\u00a0 <\/span>Apartmanda,\u00a0 <\/span>Kap\u0131c\u0131 H\u00fcseyin\u2019in\u00a0 <\/span>de dahil oldu\u011fu sa\u00e7 sa\u00e7a,\u00a0 <\/span>ba\u015f ba\u015fa kavga \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f…<\/p>\n

Bu dedikodular\u0131n her birisinde ya kahkaha at\u0131yor,\u00a0 <\/span>ya \u201cVay can\u0131na!\u201d deyip\u00a0 <\/span>yorum \u00fcst\u00fcne yorum geli\u015ftiriyorduk.\u00a0 <\/span>Yan\u0131nda k\u0131s\u0131r,\u00a0 <\/span>po\u011fa\u00e7a ve pandispanyal\u0131 pasta ile birlikte,\u00a0 <\/span>Allah bilir ka\u00e7 demlik \u00e7ay bitirmi\u015ftik.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Tabi o g\u00fcn sadece kikirdemelerle g\u00fcn\u00fc bitirmemi\u015ftik.\u00a0 <\/span>Sonras\u0131nda laf\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcp dola\u015ft\u0131r\u0131p yine Nesrin\u2019e getirdik.\u00a0 <\/span>Pe\u015fi s\u0131ra ikimiz de bo\u011fucu bir atmosferin i\u00e7ine d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fck.\u00a0 <\/span>Benim sesim titriyordu,\u00a0 <\/span>Rukiye\u2019nin ise telefonun tu\u015flar\u0131na dokunan parmaklar\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Bunca kasvetin sebebi,\u00a0 <\/span>ge\u00e7ti\u011fimiz hafta S\u00fcnd\u00fcz Apartman\u0131\u2019ndan bir cenaze arac\u0131n\u0131n kalkmas\u0131yd\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Geride d\u00f6rt ya\u015f\u0131ndaki yetimin,\u00a0 <\/span>ona bakan ya\u015fl\u0131 bir anneannenin ve bir de tutuklu annenin var oldu\u011funu bilmekti.\u00a0 <\/span>Evet,\u00a0 <\/span>vefat eden Nesrin\u2019in kocas\u0131yd\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Pazartesi g\u00fcn\u00fc,\u00a0 <\/span>vefat haberi duyulur duyulmaz,\u00a0 <\/span>Nesrin\u2019i cezaevinden al\u0131p apartman\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne getirmi\u015fler.\u00a0 <\/span>O g\u00fcn apartman\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fc cezaevi ve cenaze arac\u0131 ile kapanm\u0131\u015f.\u00a0 <\/span>B\u00fct\u00fcn kom\u015fular merakla balkonlara dolu\u015fmu\u015f.\u00a0 <\/span>Rukiye ve neredeyse apartmandaki herkes,\u00a0 <\/span>tabutun cenaze arac\u0131na konulu\u015f an\u0131n\u0131\u00a0 <\/span>balkonlardan kameraya \u00e7ekmi\u015fler.\u00a0 <\/span>Hi\u00e7 birisi inmemi\u015f a\u015fa\u011f\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>\u201cNe olur ne olmaz bu adam zaten koronadan \u00f6ld\u00fc,\u00a0 <\/span>bi de evdekilere bula\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r falan.\u00a0 <\/span>Ha bir de Nesrinler\u2019in yan\u0131na zaten yakla\u015fmamak gerekir(!)\u201d diye konu\u015fup durmu\u015flar kendi aralar\u0131nda.\u00a0 <\/span>Ama \u00e7ektikleri videolar\u0131 apartman\u0131n Whatsapp grubunda ard arda payla\u015fmay\u0131 da ihmal etmemi\u015fler.\u00a0 <\/span>Rukiye de bana\u00a0 <\/span>dakikalarca\u00a0 <\/span>telefonundan, \u00a0 <\/span>bu tabutun videolar\u0131n\u0131 izletti.\u00a0 <\/span>Rukiye:<\/p>\n

\u00a0 <\/span>-Bak bu da G\u00fcler\u2019in \u00e7ekti\u011fi…\u00a0 <\/span>\u015eu da Vildan\u2019\u0131n ki\u201d\u00a0 <\/span>diyerek hepsini bir bir g\u00f6sterdi.\u00a0 <\/span>Videolarda tabuttan ziyade,\u00a0 <\/span>en \u00e7ok Nesrin\u2019in hallerini izledim.\u00a0 <\/span>Jandarmalar\u0131n\u00a0 <\/span>aras\u0131nda petrol mavisi e\u015farb\u0131yla varl\u0131k yokluk m\u00fccadelesi veriyordu.\u00a0 <\/span>Nereden baksan\u00a0 <\/span>yirmi kilo vermi\u015f,\u00a0 <\/span>i\u011fne ipli\u011fe d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc garibim.\u00a0 <\/span>Bileklerindeki kelep\u00e7eyle tabutun \u00fczerine kapan\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131,\u00a0 <\/span>kad\u0131n askerin onu oradan \u00e7ekmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 izledim.\u00a0 <\/span>D\u00f6nd\u00fc Teyze\u2019nin kuca\u011f\u0131ndaki Elif\u2019e bakt\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>Nesrin\u2019in Elif\u2019i kucaklamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rkenki k\u0131sm\u0131na gelince ise, \u00a0 <\/span>art\u0131k y\u00fcre\u011fim dayanm\u0131yordu.\u00a0 <\/span>Akl\u0131ma,\u00a0 <\/span>bu konudaki t\u00fcm sevimsizli\u011fiyle Cengiz d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.\u00a0 <\/span>Rukiye\u2019nin akl\u0131na da Suat\u2019\u0131n d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne emindim.\u00a0 <\/span>Konuyu de\u011fi\u015ftirsem iyi olacakt\u0131 ama \u015funu da sormazsam i\u00e7im rahat etmeyecekti:<\/p>\n

– Taziyeye giden olmu\u015f mudur?<\/p>\n

-Sence?\u00a0 <\/span>D\u00f6rt y\u0131ld\u0131r kim gitti sanki evlerine?<\/p>\n

K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir sessizlik olmu\u015ftu.\u00a0 <\/span>Rukiye\u2019nin omuzlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.\u00a0 <\/span>G\u00fccendi\u011finde ya da hayal k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131klar\u0131nda yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 dudak mimikleriyle s\u00f6zlerine devam etti:<\/p>\n

-Ama D\u00f6nd\u00fc Teyze bu aralar baya\u011f\u0131 bir beklenti i\u00e7inde.\u00a0 <\/span>Birilerini bekledi\u011fine eminim.\u00a0 <\/span>Bu hafta birka\u00e7 defa\u00a0 <\/span>d\u0131\u015f kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p e\u015fi\u011fe \u00e7\u00f6meldi.\u00a0 <\/span>Kap\u0131 d\u00fcrb\u00fcn\u00fcnden izledim.\u00a0 <\/span>Bayg\u0131n bayg\u0131n merdivenlere bak\u0131yordu.\u00a0 <\/span>\u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcn \u00f6nce yine\u00a0 <\/span>e\u015fikte bekledi\u011fi vakitler,\u00a0 <\/span>a\u00e7\u0131k kap\u0131n\u0131n gerisinden Elif\u2019in ba\u011f\u0131rma seslerini duyduk.\u00a0 <\/span>Suat da be\u015f kar\u0131\u015f suratla daha yenice\u00a0 <\/span>kap\u0131dan i\u00e7eri girmi\u015fti.\u00a0 <\/span>Biliyosun ya,\u00a0 <\/span>Suat\u2019\u0131n seninkiyle birlikte haftal\u0131k\u00a0 <\/span>hal\u0131 saha ma\u00e7lar\u0131 var.\u00a0 <\/span>Bu hafta moralleri s\u0131f\u0131rd\u0131,\u00a0 <\/span>yenilmi\u015fler.\u00a0 <\/span>Suat avanakl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan kalesine at\u0131lan d\u00f6rt topu kurtaramam\u0131\u015f.\u00a0 <\/span>Bir de eve gelip \u00e7ocuk ciyaklamas\u0131 duyunca \u201cBen apartman y\u00f6neticisiyim lan! \u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131p \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 D\u00f6nd\u00fc Teyze\u2019ye.\u00a0 <\/span>D\u00f6nd\u00fc Teyze \u201cDaha \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcnl\u00fck yetim,\u00a0 <\/span>k\u0131ymay\u0131n bu yavruya,\u201d falan dedi.\u00a0 <\/span>Valla \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcm Necla.\u00a0 <\/span>Ne diyeyim ben sana?<\/p>\n

Hi\u00e7bir \u015fey demesine gerek yoktu.\u00a0 <\/span>Zaten Nesrin\u2019i \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131\u015ft\u0131ran her\u00a0 <\/span>hikaye vicdan\u0131m\u0131n paslanm\u0131\u015f yerlerine yeterince Por\u00e7\u00f6z d\u00f6k\u00fcyordu.\u00a0 <\/span>Vicdan\u0131m az\u0131c\u0131k par\u0131ldasa ben eriyip t\u00fckeniyordum.\u00a0 <\/span>Ama gel de Cengiz\u2019in,\u00a0 <\/span>Suat\u2019\u0131n vicdanlar\u0131na laf anlat.\u00a0 <\/span>A\u011flamakl\u0131 oldum. \u00a0 <\/span>Rukiye\u2019ye g\u00f6z ucuyla bakt\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>Halinden anlatt\u0131klar\u0131na pi\u015fman olmu\u015fluk sezmi\u015ftim.\u00a0 <\/span>Elbette ki kim olsa\u00a0 <\/span>misafirini \u00fczmek istemezdi.<\/p>\n

-Ay Necla a\u011flamaya m\u0131 geldik?\u00a0 <\/span>Hi\u00e7 sormuyosun bizim kahveleri.\u00a0 <\/span>Yapay\u0131m da bi i\u00e7elim kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131kl\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Sonra da neyse halim,\u00a0 <\/span>\u00e7\u0131ks\u0131n falim.<\/p>\n

Son c\u00fcmlesini s\u00f6ylerken g\u00f6zlerini k\u0131rp\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Ard\u0131ndan g\u00f6z a\u00e7\u0131p kapay\u0131ncaya kadar kahveleri yap\u0131p getirdi.<\/p>\n

2.\u00a0 <\/span>B\u00f6l\u00fcm<\/b><\/p>\n

\u2013 \u00d6l\u00fcm!\u00a0 <\/span>Yak\u0131n bir zamanda\u00a0 <\/span>aile i\u00e7inde \u00f6l\u00fcm,\u00a0 <\/span>hastal\u0131klar olacak.<\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/span>Bu kelimeler hayretle,\u00a0 <\/span>kekeleyerek d\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc Rukiye\u2019nin a\u011fz\u0131ndan.\u00a0 <\/span>Hipnoz olmu\u015f gibi telvede g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc dev kazanlar\u0131,\u00a0 <\/span>harl\u0131 ate\u015fleri bir bir anlatt\u0131 bana.\u00a0 <\/span>Donup kald\u0131m.<\/p>\n

-\u201cNas\u0131l olur bu?\u00a0 <\/span>Allah\u00a0 <\/span>Allah!\u00a0 <\/span>Nerden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 bu k\u0131z?\u201d diye sorunca\u00a0 <\/span>Rukiye anca uyan\u0131p toparland\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Tedirgin,\u00a0 <\/span>sapsar\u0131 olmu\u015f y\u00fcz\u00fcme bakt\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 \u0131s\u0131rd\u0131. \u00a0 <\/span>Bu kadar \u00e7ok \u00fcrk\u00fct\u00fcc\u00fc,\u00a0 <\/span>asab bozucu kehanetlerle misafirinin can\u0131n\u0131 nas\u0131l s\u0131kabildi\u011fine inanam\u0131yordu.\u00a0 <\/span>Y\u00fcz ifadesi bir kez daha pi\u015fmanl\u0131kla doldu.\u00a0 <\/span>Az \u00f6nceki s\u00f6zlerini \u00f6rtbas edebilmek ad\u0131na,\u00a0 <\/span>a\u011fz\u0131nda bir \u015feyler geveledi:<\/p>\n

-Ay Necla!\u00a0 <\/span>Bu fala inan\u0131l\u0131r m\u0131 Allah a\u015fk\u0131na?\u00a0 <\/span>Bir g\u00fcn tutar,\u00a0 <\/span>bir g\u00fcn tutmaz.\u00a0 <\/span>Hem zaten g\u00f6zlerim \u015fu aralar iyi g\u00f6rm\u00fcyo.\u00a0 <\/span>Benim g\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn numaras\u0131n\u0131n de\u011fi\u015fmesi laz\u0131md\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Fincanda daha iyi \u015feyler varm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r da ben g\u00f6rmemi\u015fimdir.\u00a0 <\/span>Sen bo\u015f ver \u015fimdi bu fal i\u015fini.<\/p>\n

B\u00f6yle diyordu da a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kanlara kendisi de inanm\u0131yordu.\u00a0 <\/span>Baltay\u0131 ta\u015fa vurdu\u011fu i\u00e7in,\u00a0 <\/span>i\u00e7inden kendisine k\u00fcf\u00fcrler etti\u011fine emindim.\u00a0 <\/span>Daha fazla oturmad\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>\u00c7antam\u0131 omzuma al\u0131p d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>O kadar kasvet y\u00fcklenmi\u015ftim ki,\u00a0 <\/span>o \u00e7ok be\u011fendi\u011fim pandispanyal\u0131 pasta tarifini yazan ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131 dahi almay\u0131 unutmu\u015fum.<\/p>\n

Apartman kap\u0131s\u0131nda g\u00f6z\u00fcm Elif\u2019le D\u00f6nd\u00fc Teyze\u2019ye tak\u0131ld\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Kad\u0131nca\u011f\u0131z e\u011filmi\u015f,\u00a0 <\/span>k\u0131z\u0131n bisikletini d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu.\u00a0 <\/span>Yard\u0131m etmek istedim.\u00a0 <\/span>Seve seve kabul etti.\u00a0 <\/span>Beklemiyordu bu iyili\u011fi,\u00a0 <\/span>biliyorum.\u00a0 <\/span>Nesrin\u2019i sordum.\u00a0 <\/span>\u00d6nce kollar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fczerindeki k\u0131r\u00e7\u0131lla\u015fm\u0131\u015f montta kavu\u015fturdu.\u00a0 <\/span>Sonra da ka\u015flar\u0131 inip kalkt\u0131,\u00a0 <\/span>g\u00f6zlerini Elif\u2019ten yana oynatt\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Tahmin etti\u011fim gibi,\u00a0 <\/span>hemen ard\u0131ndan i\u015faret parma\u011f\u0131yla duda\u011f\u0131nda \u201cSus!\u201d i\u015faretini g\u00f6sterdi.\u00a0 <\/span>\u00c7ocu\u011fun yan\u0131nda tutuklu annesi sorulur muydu?\u00a0 <\/span>Benimki de patavats\u0131zl\u0131kt\u0131 i\u015fte.\u00a0 <\/span>\u00c7\u0131kar\u0131p cebimden para versem mi vermesem mi bilemedim, ama sonra \u201cCengiz\u2019in kula\u011f\u0131na\u00a0 <\/span>falan gider,\u201d\u00a0 <\/span>dedim.\u00a0 <\/span>Para meselesinden hemen orac\u0131kta vazge\u00e7tim.<\/p>\n

S\u00fcnd\u00fcz Apartman\u0131\u2019n\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131ndan ayr\u0131ld\u0131ktan bir saat sonra eve gelmi\u015ftim.\u00a0 <\/span>Ak\u015fam yemekten sonra \u00e7ocuklar odalar\u0131na \u00e7ekildi.\u00a0 <\/span>Ders ba\u015f\u0131ndalar m\u0131 yoksa telefonun ba\u015f\u0131ndalar m\u0131 hi\u00e7 bilmiyordum.\u00a0 <\/span>Cengiz internette LCD ekran televizyon kampanyalar\u0131n\u0131 inceliyordu.\u00a0 <\/span>Ben de mutfak bula\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na daha elimi s\u00fcrmeden,\u00a0 <\/span>\u201cYemek tak\u0131mlar\u0131nda kampanya f\u0131rsatlar\u0131 ne zaman?\u201d diye Google\u2019da habire bir \u015feyler aratt\u0131r\u0131p duruyordum.\u00a0 <\/span>Sonra bir de bakt\u0131m,\u00a0 <\/span>kabir videolar\u0131na gelmi\u015fim.\u00a0 <\/span>\u0130ki milyon kez g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fclenen sekiz dakikal\u0131k videoyu izledim.\u00a0 <\/span>Tansiyonum f\u0131rlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Videodaki adam Nesrin\u2019in rahmetli kocas\u0131na\u00a0 <\/span>ne kadar da \u00e7ok benziyordu.\u00a0 <\/span>\u201cCengiz g\u00f6rmesin, \u201d dedim i\u00e7imden.\u00a0 <\/span>\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc a\u011fz\u0131ndan k\u00f6p\u00fckler \u00e7\u0131kara \u00e7\u0131kara,\u00a0 <\/span>sa\u00e7\u0131p savuraca\u011f\u0131 \u015feyleri iyi biliyordum.\u00a0 <\/span>G\u00f6rse kesin \u015funu derdi:<\/p>\n

-Tevfik domuzunun t\u0131pa t\u0131p\u0131 i\u015fte!<\/p>\n

Yemekte zaten yeterince esip g\u00fcrlemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n

-Tevfik i\u00e7in\u00a0 <\/span>sosyal medyada ayakland\u0131lar.\u00a0 <\/span>Ne oldu sonra?\u00a0 <\/span>Elinin k\u00f6r\u00fc.\u00a0 <\/span>Tahliye ettiler herifi.\u00a0 <\/span>Adam iki ay ge\u00e7medi.\u00a0 <\/span>Koronadan geberdi.\u00a0 <\/span>Bana bak Necla,\u00a0 <\/span>ne diye gittin sen \u015fimdi eski mahalleye?\u00a0 <\/span>Ne malum sana da vir\u00fcs bula\u015ft\u0131rmad\u0131klar\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Ya hepimiz toptan korona olduysak?<\/p>\n

Bu s\u00f6zlerin hi\u00e7birine cevap yeti\u015ftiremedim.\u00a0 <\/span>Yine huysuzlu\u011fu \u00fcst\u00fcndeydi.\u00a0 <\/span>Her c\u00fcmlesinde yumruklar\u0131n\u0131 daha \u015fiddetli s\u0131k\u0131yordu.\u00a0 <\/span>\u00c7ocuklar\u0131n yan\u0131nda duymad\u0131\u011f\u0131m hakaret kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Korona meselesi olunca ister istemez \u00e7ocuklar da babalar\u0131n\u0131 hakl\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcler:<\/p>\n

-Anne nas\u0131l olur da koronal\u0131 apartmana gidersin? dediler.\u00a0 <\/span>Su\u00e7luluk duygusuyla mutfa\u011fa ko\u015fup bir sigara yakt\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>Yedi\u011fim tokat gibi s\u00f6zlerin duman\u0131 i\u00e7in mutfa\u011f\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn pencerelerini a\u00e7t\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>Haliyle biraz \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcm.\u00a0 <\/span>Peki kalbim ka\u00e7 santigrat dereceye d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc?\u00a0 <\/span>Hi\u00e7 bilmiyordum.\u00a0 <\/span>Nabz\u0131m pandemi yasaklar\u0131ndaki \u0130stanbul sokaklar\u0131 gibiydi,\u00a0 <\/span>t\u0131k yoktu.\u00a0 <\/span>Kahve fal\u0131ndan beri\u00a0 <\/span>kalbime gelenler,\u00a0 <\/span>Cengiz\u2019in dilinden d\u00f6k\u00fclenlerdi:<\/p>\n

\u2013Korona oldun sen korona.\u00a0 <\/span>Bizi de yakt\u0131n,\u00a0 <\/span>kendini de!<\/p>\n

\u00a0 <\/span>Bu s\u00f6zler,\u00a0 <\/span>beni gece yata\u011f\u0131ma g\u00f6t\u00fcrmedi.\u00a0 <\/span>\u00c7ocuklar\u0131n \u00fczerini \u00f6rtmeye gitmi\u015ftim.\u00a0 <\/span>Al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131k ya,\u00a0 <\/span>gayri ihtiyari\u00a0 <\/span>kafam\u0131 onlar\u0131n yanaklar\u0131na do\u011fru az\u0131c\u0131k e\u011fmi\u015ftim ki,\u00a0 <\/span>vazge\u00e7tim.\u00a0 <\/span>Bu geceden tezi yok,\u00a0 <\/span>\u00f6p\u00fc\u015fmelere\u00a0 <\/span>yasak getirmeliydim.\u00a0 <\/span>O gece ve di\u011fer geceler hep salondaki kanepede uyumu\u015ftum.<\/p>\n

Ertesi sabah alt\u0131 civar\u0131nda,\u00a0 <\/span>Rukiye\u2019nin\u00a0 <\/span>ard arda att\u0131\u011f\u0131 mesaj sesleriyle uyand\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>Gece ikide att\u0131\u011f\u0131m mesajlar\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anca g\u00f6nderiyordu ak\u0131ll\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>\u201cAy Necla hakikaten niye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmedik?\u00a0 <\/span>Faldaki bu cenaze koronay\u0131 m\u0131 g\u00f6steriyo yoksa k\u0131z?\u00a0 <\/span>Ay bak \u015fimdi elim aya\u011f\u0131m dola\u015ft\u0131…. G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u00fcz yine….\u00a0 <\/span>Bir \u015fey olursa ara… \u201d<\/p>\n

Bir \u015fey olmad\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Bir hafta,\u00a0 <\/span>iki hafta,\u00a0 <\/span>\u00fc\u00e7 hafta…\u00a0 <\/span>Tela\u015f\u0131m\u0131zla,\u00a0 <\/span>gerginli\u011fimizle,\u00a0 <\/span>karantinam\u0131zla,\u00a0 <\/span>negatif test sonucumuzla pandemi vir\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc fihristimizden silmi\u015ftik.\u00a0 <\/span>Burada dural\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>Silinen sadece pandemi.\u00a0 <\/span>Vir\u00fcs\u00fcn kendisiyle tan\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131m hen\u00fcz yeni ba\u015flayacakt\u0131.<\/p>\n

3.\u00a0 <\/span>B\u00f6l\u00fcm<\/b><\/p>\n

\u00dcniversite hastanesinden be\u015f ay sonras\u0131na anca s\u0131ra bulabilmi\u015ftik.\u00a0 <\/span>Ci\u011ferlerimin adam gibi kontrol edilmesi gerekiyordu.\u00a0 <\/span>Geceleri yan odadaki \u00e7ocuklar bile \u00f6ks\u00fcr\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmden rahats\u0131z oluyorlard\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Cengiz\u2019in \u201cRahats\u0131z oluyorum,\u201d deyi\u015flerini\u00a0 <\/span>zaten hesaba katm\u0131yordum.\u00a0 <\/span>\u201cYan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131mdaki horultusuna bunca y\u0131l ben katlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>Biraz da o benim \u00f6ks\u00fcr\u00fc\u011f\u00fcme katlans\u0131n,\u201d diyordum.\u00a0 <\/span>\u2018Katlanmak\u2019 s\u00f6zc\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne gelmi\u015fken; d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum da\u00a0 <\/span>o vakitler\u00a0 <\/span>bu s\u00f6zc\u00fck s\u0131rf benim benim i\u00e7in tasarlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 sanki.\u00a0 <\/span>\u00d6ks\u00fcrmekten kendimi alam\u0131yordum ama as\u0131l\u00a0 <\/span>b\u00fcy\u00fck imtihan\u0131m,\u00a0 <\/span>her seferinde hastaneye benimle birlikte gelen Cengiz\u2019in \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 rezaletlerdi.\u00a0 <\/span>Hastane kuyru\u011funda her \u015feyi y\u0131k\u0131p indiriyordu.\u00a0 <\/span>O g\u00fcn de ayn\u0131 \u015feyleri yapt\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Kuyrukta g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn tutmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 herkese,\u00a0 <\/span>g\u00f6mle\u011finin \u00f6n cebinden \u00e7\u0131kartt\u0131\u011f\u0131 polis kimli\u011fini,\u00a0 <\/span>bir de ceketinin alt\u0131ndaki beylik tabancas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6sterdi.\u00a0 <\/span>Hastabak\u0131c\u0131lar,\u00a0 <\/span>hem\u015fireler illallah etmi\u015fti resmen.\u00a0 <\/span>O kadar \u00f6ks\u00fcr\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcn aras\u0131nda d\u00fcrt\u00fcklemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum da nafile.\u00a0 <\/span>Kendi kendime:<\/p>\n

\u00a0 <\/span>-\u201cSab\u0131rl\u0131\u00a0 <\/span>ol\u00a0 <\/span>Necla.\u00a0 <\/span>Bir daha ki sefere\u00a0 <\/span>yan\u0131nda Cengiz\u2019i getirmezsin olur biter,\u201d diye telkinde bulunuyordum.<\/p>\n

Biz s\u0131rada beklerken; \u00fc\u00e7 d\u00f6rt jandarma,\u00a0 <\/span>bir\u00a0 <\/span>infaz koruma memuru aras\u0131nda tan\u0131d\u0131k bir e\u015farp g\u00f6z\u00fcme \u00e7arpm\u0131\u015ft\u0131: Nesrin\u2019in e\u015farb\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Aylar sonra onu tekrar g\u00f6r\u00fcnce ister istemez heyecanland\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>\u00dcst\u00fcne ba\u015f\u0131na bakt\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>K\u0131yafetlerinin rengi t\u0131pk\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn rengi gibi soluktu.\u00a0 <\/span>Cenaze videosundan daha da zay\u0131f g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu \u015fimdi.\u00a0 <\/span>Yan\u0131ndakilerle birlikte koridorun en ba\u015f\u0131ndan\u00a0 <\/span>bize do\u011fru ad\u0131m ad\u0131m geldi.\u00a0 <\/span>Aram\u0131zda nereden baksan yirmi metre mesafe kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ki,\u00a0 <\/span>soldaki Dahiliye Poliklini\u011fi\u2019ne ge\u00e7tiler.\u00a0 <\/span>\u0130\u00e7imden \u201cUmar\u0131m Cengiz Nesrin\u2019i fark etmemi\u015ftir,\u201d \u00a0 <\/span>dedim ama ge\u00e7 kald\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>Cengiz \u00e7oktan Nesrin\u2019i g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f bile.\u00a0 <\/span>Vakit kaybetmeden,\u00a0 <\/span>a\u011fz\u0131nda laf de\u011firmenini d\u00f6nd\u00fcrmeye ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n

-Necla,\u00a0 <\/span>yat\u0131p kalk\u0131p dua et \u015fu kad\u0131na.\u00a0 <\/span>Bu kad\u0131n ve kocas\u0131 olmasayd\u0131 \u015fimdi ben d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc derece emniyet m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fc olabilir miydim?<\/p>\n

\u00a0 <\/span>Surat\u0131na ters ters bakt\u0131m. Dirse\u011fimden,\u00a0 <\/span>deminkilerden daha \u015fiddetli bir d\u00fcrt\u00fck geldi:<\/p>\n

-Valla do\u011fru Cengiz.\u00a0 <\/span>Suat\u2019la ikiniz kafa kafaya verip hem onu hem kocas\u0131n\u0131 ihbar ettiniz; sadece onu de\u011fil,\u00a0 <\/span>konu kom\u015fu kim varsa.\u00a0 <\/span>Asl\u0131nda bu performans\u0131n\u0131zla size birinci derece m\u00fcd\u00fcrl\u00fck vermeleri gerekiyor.\u00a0 <\/span>Peki bu ihbar i\u015flerinizden sonra ne oldu?\u00a0 <\/span>Herkesle k\u00f6t\u00fc olduk.\u00a0 <\/span>Eski mahalledekiler size korkular\u0131ndan, \u00a0 <\/span>Nesringil\u2019e de yard\u0131mc\u0131 olmad\u0131lar.\u00a0 <\/span>Geride Nesrin\u2019in annesiyle bir tane \u00e7ocuk kald\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Ne yer,\u00a0 <\/span>ne i\u00e7erler bildi\u011fimiz yok.\u00a0 <\/span>Hallerini desen\u00a0 <\/span>hi\u00e7 sordu\u011fun yok.\u00a0 <\/span>Devam et sen.\u00a0 <\/span>Burda beklerken de bo\u015f durma.\u00a0 <\/span>Bu hastane koridorundan \u015f\u00f6yle on ki\u015fiyi daha listene koy.\u00a0 <\/span>Bakars\u0131n bir g\u00fcn i\u00e7i\u015fleri bakan\u0131 olu…<\/p>\n

Her zamanki gibi gerisi\u00a0 <\/span>gelmeyen s\u00f6zlerimi s\u00f6ylemi\u015ftim.\u00a0 <\/span>Cengiz av\u0131n\u0131 di\u015fler gibi at\u0131ld\u0131:<\/p>\n

-Kes sesini!\u00a0 <\/span>Yoksa seni de yazar\u0131m listeye.\u00a0 <\/span>Allah senin belan\u0131…<\/p>\n

-Necla Ate\u015f burda m\u0131?<\/p>\n

Neyse ki hem\u015firenin seslenmesiyle aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131k.\u00a0 <\/span>Cengiz\u2019in kalp at\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131 fazlas\u0131yla artt\u0131ran ses tonu bir anda kesildi.\u00a0 <\/span>\u00c7antamdan alelacele n\u00fcfus c\u00fczdan\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p hem\u015fire han\u0131ma uzatt\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>Tahlil sonu\u00e7lar\u0131nda nihayet s\u0131ra bana gelmi\u015fti.\u00a0 <\/span>Ancak doktorun odas\u0131na girdikten sonraki dakikalar\u0131m\u0131 nas\u0131l anlatabilirim,\u00a0 <\/span>bilemiyorum?<\/p>\n

4.\u00a0 <\/span>B\u00f6l\u00fcm<\/b><\/p>\n

Doktorun masas\u0131ndaki isimli\u011fi hi\u00e7 unutam\u0131yorum.\u00a0 <\/span>Orada alt\u0131n renklerinde \u2018Dr.\u00a0 <\/span>Hasan S\u00f6nmez\u2019 yaz\u0131yordu.\u00a0 <\/span>Dr.\u00a0 <\/span>Hasan S\u00f6nmez\u2019in anlatt\u0131klar\u0131 birazdan \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn geride kalan t\u00fcm\u00a0 <\/span>elektrik lambalar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcp ge\u00e7ecekti.<\/p>\n

K\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 deri koltuklar\u0131n oldu\u011fu muayenehanede yirmi dakika kadar oturduk.\u00a0 <\/span>Doktor sordu,\u00a0 <\/span>ben cevaplad\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>Sonra te\u015fhis etti\u011fi hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00f6yledi.\u00a0 <\/span>Doktorun s\u00f6yledi\u011fini duyar duymaz t\u0131rnaklar\u0131mla deri koltu\u011fa zarar verdi\u011fimi hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum.\u00a0 <\/span>Anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum:<\/p>\n

-Nas\u0131l yani?\u00a0 <\/span>M\u00fcmk\u00fcn m\u00fc b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey,\u00a0 <\/span>dedim.<\/p>\n

-M\u00fcmk\u00fcn,\u00a0 <\/span>dedi.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Adamca\u011f\u0131z utana s\u0131k\u0131la vir\u00fcs\u00fcn bula\u015fma yollar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131ralad\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>S\u00f6zleri ilerledik\u00e7e ben ve Cengiz\u2019deki v\u00fccut dilini\u00a0 <\/span>daha detayl\u0131 izliyordu.\u00a0 <\/span>Benim Cengiz\u2019i par\u00e7a par\u00e7a eden g\u00f6zlerimi,\u00a0 <\/span>Cengiz\u2019in ayn\u0131 bir s\u0131\u011f\u0131r gibi burun deliklerini\u00a0 <\/span>b\u00fcy\u00fct\u00fcp k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcltmesini seyretti.\u00a0 <\/span>Son s\u00f6zlerini mesle\u011finin verdi\u011fi tecr\u00fcbelerle toparlad\u0131 ve odadan\u00a0 <\/span>\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k.\u00a0 <\/span>Doktor ard\u0131m\u0131zdan kimbilir neler d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc?\u00a0 <\/span>Peki ya yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndaki hem\u015firenin akl\u0131ndan ge\u00e7enler neydi acaba? \u00a0 <\/span>Kap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131ktan sonra \u00f6nce \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k atmak istedim.\u00a0 <\/span>Ama hay\u0131r,\u00a0 <\/span>rezalet \u00e7\u0131kartmamaya and i\u00e7mi\u015ftim,\u00a0 <\/span>sustum.\u00a0 <\/span>Asl\u0131nda o esnada,\u00a0 <\/span>de\u011fil hastaneyi,\u00a0 <\/span>t\u00fcm \u015fehri ate\u015fe verecek n\u00fckleer bombayd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Cengiz\u2019le birlikte,\u00a0 <\/span>be\u015f dakika i\u00e7inde\u00a0 <\/span>koridordan hastanenin \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f kap\u0131s\u0131na do\u011fru ilerledik.\u00a0 <\/span>Pimimi evde mi,\u00a0 <\/span>yoksa yol kenar\u0131nda bir yerde mi \u00e7ekeyim diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum.\u00a0 <\/span>Cengiz ge\u00e7erken sa\u011f taraf\u0131m\u0131zda bir tuvalet g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f.\u00a0 <\/span>Elini y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc y\u0131kayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi.\u00a0 <\/span>\u201c\u0130yi tamam. \u201d,\u00a0 <\/span>dedim.\u00a0 <\/span>Beklerken elime telefonu ald\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>Tam Whatsapp mesajlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcleme derdine d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm ki,\u00a0 <\/span>bir silah sesi geldi.\u00a0 <\/span>Hastane bir anda kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Yan\u0131mdakiler bana bakt\u0131lar,\u00a0 <\/span>ben onlara bakt\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>\u0130leriden g\u00fcvenlik\u00e7ilerin ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015flar\u0131 duyuluyordu.\u00a0 <\/span>Birka\u00e7 adam tuvaleti i\u015faret etti.<\/p>\n

\u2013Abim,\u00a0 <\/span>silah sesi burdan geldi!\u00a0 <\/span>\u00c7abuk olun.<\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/span>\u00dcst kattan,\u00a0 <\/span>alt kattan,\u00a0 <\/span>yan taraflardan,\u00a0 <\/span>her taraftan kafalar e\u011fildi,\u00a0 <\/span>kalkt\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Herkes kafas\u0131n\u0131\u00a0 <\/span>bizim kata benim bulundu\u011fum tarafa do\u011fru d\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcyordu.\u00a0 <\/span>Cep telefonlar\u0131n\u0131n kameralar\u0131 \u00e7oktan a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>-Anla\u015f\u0131ld\u0131,\u00a0 <\/span>dedim.\u00a0 <\/span>Ak\u015fama SHOW Haber\u2019in konu\u011fuyum.<\/p>\n

\u015eov gibi hayat i\u015fte.\u00a0 <\/span>Nereden nereye.\u00a0 <\/span>Cengiz\u2019i iyi k\u00f6t\u00fc\u00a0 <\/span>\u00f6b\u00fcr tarafa yolcu etmi\u015ftik.\u00a0 <\/span>Cenaze namaz\u0131n\u0131\u00a0 <\/span>be\u015f on kadar\u00a0 <\/span>insan k\u0131lm\u0131\u015f.\u00a0 <\/span>Ben ancak bir ay sonra -klinik sonras\u0131- cenaze videolar\u0131n\u0131 izleyebildim. \u00a0 <\/span>Rukiye telefonuma cenazeden iki \u00fc\u00e7 hafta sonra mesaj \u00e7ekmi\u015f:<\/p>\n

Ay Neclac\u0131m \u00e7ok ge\u00e7mi\u015f olsun karde\u015fim.\u00a0 <\/span>\u0130nan,\u00a0 <\/span>o kadar \u00e7ok \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcm ki.\u00a0 <\/span>Sorma bizim de ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za gelenleri.\u00a0 <\/span>Sizin bu mesele duyulunca Suat\u2019\u0131 da bir tela\u015f ald\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Ald\u0131 beni,\u00a0 <\/span>g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc hastaneye.\u00a0 <\/span>Hem kendine hem bana test yapt\u0131rmaya.\u00a0 <\/span>\u201cNe yapmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorsun? \u201d diye iyice s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131nca a\u011fz\u0131ndaki baklay\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karmak zorunda kald\u0131. Me\u011ferse bunlar\u0131n hal\u0131 saha ma\u00e7\u0131 hikayeymi\u015f be karde\u015fim.\u00a0 <\/span>Bizi iyi uyutmu\u015f bu \u015ferefsizler.\u00a0 <\/span>Rus,\u00a0 <\/span>Moldoval\u0131,\u00a0 <\/span>\u00d6zbek,\u00a0 <\/span>K\u0131rg\u0131z…\u00a0 <\/span>Tan\u0131mad\u0131klar\u0131 kad\u0131n kalmam\u0131\u015f.\u00a0 <\/span>Bunlar\u0131 duydum ya,\u00a0 <\/span>durur muyum art\u0131k o evde?\u00a0 <\/span>\u00c7olu\u011fu \u00e7ocu\u011fu toplay\u0131p,\u00a0 <\/span>annemin evine ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>Bo\u015fanma i\u015flemlerini de ba\u015flatt\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>\u00c7ok iyi bir avukat varm\u0131\u015f,\u00a0 <\/span>onunla anla\u015ft\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>Neyse ge\u00e7elim \u015fimdi bunlar\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ah be Necla\u2019m ya!\u00a0 <\/span>Bizde \u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr AIDS vir\u00fcs\u00fcne rastlanmad\u0131 da sana \u00e7ok \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcm.\u00a0 <\/span>Yok mudur ki bir h\u00e2l \u00e7aresi..\u00a0 <\/span>Doktor ne diyor?\u00a0 <\/span>Nas\u0131l bir tedavin olacak?\u00a0 <\/span>Bir \u015fey olursa,\u00a0 <\/span>ara beni olur mu?<\/p>\n

Aramad\u0131m.\u00a0 <\/span>Konu\u015fmaya g\u00fcc\u00fcm yoktu.\u00a0 <\/span>Onun yerine parmaklar\u0131m\u0131n kikirdemesi,\u00a0 <\/span>merak\u0131 ,\u00a0 <\/span>ricas\u0131 gezindi harflerin \u00fczerinde:<\/p>\n

K\u0131z Rukiye!\u00a0 <\/span>\u00d6lmedim de,\u00a0 <\/span>\u00f6lmeye al\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yorum kendimi.\u00a0 <\/span>Sana da ge\u00e7mi\u015f olsun.\u00a0 <\/span>Art\u0131k g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u00fc arama yaparak fal bakar\u0131z biz de.<\/p>\n

Rukiyem,\u00a0 <\/span>bu d\u00fcnyadan ayr\u0131lmadan senden \u00fc\u00e7 tane ricam var.\u00a0 <\/span>Kabul eder misin karde\u015fim?\u00a0 <\/span>Birincisi;\u00a0 <\/span>avukat\u0131nla Nesrin konusunda\u00a0 <\/span>g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr m\u00fcs\u00fcn?\u00a0 <\/span>Nesrinler\u2019in davalar\u0131yla ilgileniyor muymu\u015f,\u00a0 <\/span>bir sorsana.\u00a0 <\/span>\u201cBu kad\u0131n\u0131n muhakkak hapisten \u00e7\u0131kmas\u0131 gerekiyor,\u201d de.\u00a0 <\/span>Para k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmesin.\u00a0 <\/span>Ne kadar istiyorsa ben kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ycam.<\/p>\n

\u0130kincisi; \u00a0 <\/span>eski evine u\u011framazs\u0131n biliyorum\u00a0 <\/span>bilmesine de,\u00a0 <\/span>en az\u0131ndan n\u2019olur D\u00f6nd\u00fc Teyze\u2019lerden habersiz b\u0131rakma beni.\u00a0 <\/span>Bir ihtiya\u00e7lar\u0131 var m\u0131 yok mu bilelim.<\/p>\n

\u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fcs\u00fcne gelince…\u00a0 <\/span>Pandispanyal\u0131 pastan\u0131n tarifini h\u00e2l\u00e2 yollamad\u0131n bana.\u00a0 <\/span>A\u011fz\u0131m suland\u0131 bak.\u00a0 <\/span>Bekliyorum ha,\u00a0 <\/span>ona g\u00f6re…<\/p>\n

Can\u0131m s\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131 m\u0131 bu mesajlar\u0131 okuyorum.\u00a0 <\/span>Zaten konu\u015fam\u0131yordum,\u00a0 <\/span>\u015fimdi yazmaya da g\u00fcc\u00fcm kalmad\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Yar\u0131m saat ge\u00e7ti.\u00a0 <\/span>Ben aral\u0131k perdeden d\u0131\u015far\u0131y\u0131 seyretmeye devam ediyorum.\u00a0 <\/span>Soka\u011f\u0131n lambalar\u0131 ise h\u00e2l\u00e2 s\u00f6nmedi.\u00a0 <\/span>Apartmanlara bak\u0131yorum da yan\u0131p s\u00f6nen koridor \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 haricinde h\u00e2l\u00e2 karanl\u0131ktalar.\u00a0 <\/span>Muhtemelen S\u00fcnd\u00fcz Apartman\u0131 da \u00f6yledir.\u00a0 <\/span>Bu vir\u00fcsten sonra ayd\u0131nlan\u0131r m\u0131 ki acaba?\u00a0 <\/span>Belki Nesrin gelir, \u00a0 <\/span>kimbilir?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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