{"id":185,"date":"2019-09-14T22:58:17","date_gmt":"2019-09-14T22:58:17","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=185"},"modified":"2019-09-15T01:03:58","modified_gmt":"2019-09-15T01:03:58","slug":"karabasan","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=185","title":{"rendered":"KARABASAN"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p style=\"text-align:right\" class=\"has-background has-vivid-red-background-color\">ESRA DOLUNAY<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\"><figure class=\"alignleft\"><img loading=\"lazy\" width=\"267\" height=\"189\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/Unknown-1.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-186\"\/><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-drop-cap\">Neye ko\u015fuyorum? Arkama bakamam. Neye dokunsam pis, nereye d\u00f6nsem ezik, harabe; neye baksam virane , neyi konu\u015fsam ya \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f ya \u00e7i\u011f. Nereye ko\u015fuyorum? Ayaklar\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131ndaki bal\u00e7\u0131k batt\u0131k\u00e7a ad\u0131ml\u0131yorum . Sinekler u\u00e7u\u015fuyor, konuyor y\u00fcz\u00fcme g\u00f6z\u00fcme ars\u0131zca. A\u011f\u0131rla\u015f\u0131yor ayaklar\u0131m ve betonla\u015f\u0131yor her ad\u0131mda . Ellerimi \u00fczerime siliyorum, di\u011fer yandan pa\u00e7alar\u0131m\u0131 kirletiyorum. Y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131mdan temizliyorum , yerine ise siyah izler b\u0131rak\u0131yorum. G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn rengi gibi ve kargalar\u0131n..<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir ses b\u00f6l\u00fcyor u\u011fuldamas\u0131yla puslu havay\u0131. En huzursuz sesler \u00e7\u0131nl\u0131yor kulaklar\u0131mda. Bayku\u015fun sinsi bak\u0131\u015f\u0131 dik dik kar\u015f\u0131mda . M\u0131r\u0131ldanmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. A\u011fz\u0131mda kelimeler s\u0131ralan\u0131yor ama d\u0131\u015far\u0131 bir harf \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yor. Tekrar edip duruyorum i\u00e7imde . Daha \u00e7ok daha g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc hayk\u0131r\u0131yorum , duyam\u0131yorum &#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>A\u011f\u0131rla\u015f\u0131yor ayaklar\u0131m batakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ortas\u0131nda . Bir ad\u0131m daha atam\u0131yorum. Takatim son damlas\u0131nda . Dayan\u0131lmaz bir u\u011fultu.. kulaklar\u0131m\u0131 kapat\u0131yorum. Kapatt\u0131k\u00e7a yakla\u015f\u0131yor sesler ve bir \u00e7\u0131nlama &#8230;!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00f6zlerimi a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda dudaklar\u0131m k\u0131p\u0131rd\u0131yor . M\u00fctemadiyen ayn\u0131 kelimeleri tekrarl\u0131yor . Serin bir ikindi vakti burnuma taze ot kokusu geliyor . Bir ka\u00e7 kelebek havalan\u0131yor \u00fczerimden utanga\u00e7 ve zarif. G\u00f6lgeleri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor y\u00fcz\u00fcme g\u00f6z\u00fcme. Ayaklar\u0131m ar\u0131 ku\u015fu kadar hafif. Tam \u00fczerimde yapraklar\u0131n h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 ve ba\u015fka bir ar\u0131 ku\u015funun mavili\u011fe ilk kanat \u00c7\u0131rp\u0131\u015f\u0131.. Yumu\u015fak topra\u011f\u0131 kaplam\u0131\u015f papatyalar dokunuyor yana\u011f\u0131ma . G\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc kama\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yor . Bir ka\u00e7 ses serbes kal\u0131yor ruhumdan ard\u0131 ard\u0131na . Ve kelimelere d\u00f6n\u00fcyor sonra . Do\u011fan\u0131n melodisine kar\u0131\u015f\u0131yor ayn\u0131 m\u0131sra : \u201c Fe inne me al usri y\u00fcsra. \u201c * (1)<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>*(1)Demek ki her zorlukla beraber bir kolayl\u0131k vard\u0131r. (\u0130n\u015firah:5)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>ESRA DOLUNAY Neye ko\u015fuyorum? Arkama bakamam. Neye dokunsam pis, nereye d\u00f6nsem ezik, harabe; neye baksam virane , neyi<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":249,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[4],"tags":[27,26],"yoast_head":"<!-- This site is optimized with the Yoast SEO plugin v15.5 - https:\/\/yoast.com\/wordpress\/plugins\/seo\/ -->\n<title>KARABASAN - SES MAGAZINE<\/title>\n<meta name=\"robots\" content=\"index, follow, max-snippet:-1, max-image-preview:large, max-video-preview:-1\" \/>\n<link rel=\"canonical\" href=\"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=185\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:locale\" content=\"en_US\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:type\" content=\"article\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:title\" content=\"KARABASAN - SES MAGAZINE\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:description\" content=\"ESRA DOLUNAY Neye ko\u015fuyorum? Arkama bakamam. 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