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Seyfullah Sacit<\/h6>\n\n\n\n
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Ak\u015fam\u0131n k\u0131z\u0131ll\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ard\u0131ndan, karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7ine vard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z bir gece vakti. Her yerin en kuvvetli olan siyah nur ile nurlanmas\u0131n\u0131 bekledik y\u0131llard\u0131r. Her bir vakti \u015fehri ayinlerin gelece\u011fi \u00fcmidi ile ge\u00e7irdik. Hasret t\u00fcrk\u00fcleri yazd\u0131k. Sevda hik\u00e2yeleri anlatt\u0131k. Fedak\u00e2rl\u0131k hareketleri sal\u0131nd\u0131 gecelerimize. Anlay\u0131\u015f, ho\u015fg\u00f6r\u00fc ve tolerans iklimi yaymaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131k d\u00fcnyan\u0131n d\u00f6rt bir yan\u0131na. Ama hala geceydi. Biz bazen g\u00fcne\u015f niyetinde ay g\u00f6rd\u00fck. \u00c7\u00f6l\u00fcn ortas\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f bir serab\u0131 ger\u00e7ek san\u0131p ona sar\u0131ld\u0131k. Ama idrak edemedik. Hala geceydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gecemiz iyice karard\u0131. Evet, \u00f6yle bir karard\u0131 ki g\u00f6z g\u00f6z\u00fc g\u00f6rmez oldu art\u0131k. Bir \u015fua beklentisi i\u00e7inde iki b\u00fckl\u00fcm olduk. Bir \u0131zd\u0131rap denizi i\u00e7inde g\u00f6rd\u00fck g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc. Her yer gecenin orman karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7indeki feryatlarla doldu ta\u015ft\u0131. El uzatamaman\u0131n, yard\u0131m edememenin hicran\u0131 sard\u0131 benli\u011fimizi. Ah’lar feryat oldu y\u00fckseldi g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcne. Evet, bir vakit taksimi yapmaktan bile aciz kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z bu g\u00fcnlerin i\u00e7inde iki b\u00fckl\u00fcm geceler g\u00f6rd\u00fck \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fczde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ancak, her \u015feye ra\u011fmen bir \u00fcmit var i\u00e7imizde. Diyoruz ey gece… Karar kararabildi\u011fin kadar. Bir vaktin var senin de. Gideceksin. Do\u011funun semas\u0131nda y\u00fckselecek bir \u015fua ile kaybolacaks\u0131n. Tan vaktinin yak\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndand\u0131r senin en koyu halini alman. Biliyoruz, ge\u00e7ecek senin de rengin. Her rengi saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131n benli\u011fin par\u00e7alanacak… Az kald\u0131. Her yer par\u00e7alanan benli\u011finden f\u0131\u015fk\u0131ran renklerle reng\u00e2renk olacak.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Zalimin zulm\u00fcn\u00fcn ebedi oldu\u011fu g\u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f m\u00fc hi\u00e7? Elbet bir g\u00fcn bir \u201cZ\u00fcbeyir K\u0131l\u0131c\u0131\u201d kesecek o melun zalim kolunu. Z\u00fcl\u00fcm denilen ac\u0131mas\u0131z k\u0131l\u0131\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015fecek gayyalara. Bir ta\u00e7 giydirilecek mazlumun ba\u015f\u0131na. Bir sevda t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fc dolacak senin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na da. Yery\u00fcz\u00fc a\u015fk\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc olacak. Her yerini sevin\u00e7 g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 sulayacak memleketimin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir dua duydum gece vakitlerinde. “Ya Rab, bahar\u0131 g\u00f6rmeyi bana nasip etme” diyen. Bu hicran denizinde bahar g\u00fcn\u00fc terk-i d\u00fcnya etmek isteyen bir g\u00f6z\u00fc ya\u015fl\u0131 m\u00fcnadinin duas\u0131 ne derin ne i\u00e7ten. Sevda bahar da m\u0131 bilinmez. Belki de bekleyi\u015f sevdaya d\u00e2hildi. Belki de bekleyi\u015f sevdan\u0131n ta kendisiydi. Belki de o bekleyi\u015fin \u0131zd\u0131rab\u0131 bir\u00e7ok \u015feye sebepti. Hep vuslat\u0131 arzulayan insan beklemeyi neden sevmedi? G\u00f6z\u00fc ya\u015fl\u0131 m\u00fcnadi beklemenin ve \u00fcmidin ne oldu\u011funu anlatt\u0131. Sustum. Beklemeye koyuldum. \u0130ki m\u0131sra d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc g\u00f6nl\u00fcme. Kaleme k\u00e2\u011f\u0131da sar\u0131ld\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“\u00d6yle bir \u015fey ki gece, insana \u00fcmit veren direni\u015f<\/p>\n\n\n\n

 Vuslat an\u0131, beklentisiz bir bekleyi\u015f”
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