Mevsimler\u2026\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Biz k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckken \u00e7ocukluk hislerimizle ya\u015fama sevinci duydu\u011fumuz ve tad\u0131na doydu\u011fumuz zaman dilimleri… Mevsimlerin ad\u0131n\u0131 da tad\u0131n\u0131 da ya\u015fayarak bilirdik biz. Yaz\u0131n sar\u0131 s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, sonbahar\u0131n sar\u0131 yapraklar\u0131n\u0131; k\u0131\u015f\u0131n beyaz kar\u0131n\u0131, ilkbahar\u0131n da beyaz bulutlar\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131rd\u0131k renklerinden. G\u00f6zlerimizle seyrederdik her mevsimi. \u0130liklerimize kadar k\u0131\u015f, iliklerimize kadar yaz olurduk. Baharlar\u0131 ilkiyle de sonuyla da severek kar\u015f\u0131lard\u0131k. Bizim \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumuz ne de g\u00fczeldi \u00f6yle. G\u00fcnl\u00fckt\u00fc, g\u00fcne\u015flikti. G\u00f6klerde u\u00e7urtmalar kuyru\u011funu sallard\u0131 bize. Biz de u\u00e7urtmalara el sallar g\u00f6zlerimizi k\u0131sarak g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcne g\u00fcl\u00fcmserdik. G\u00fcne\u015f bazen bizimle k\u00f6\u015fe kapmaca oynard\u0131. Bulutlar k\u00f6\u015feleri olurdu onun. Ya\u011fmur ya\u011facakm\u0131\u015f san\u0131p evlerimize ko\u015fard\u0131k. Ya\u011fmur ya\u011fmaz diye gitti\u011fimiz evimizden uzaklarda oyunlar oynarken s\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131klam \u0131slan\u0131rd\u0131k.<\/p>\n Ne olursa olsun her halimize g\u00fclerdik. Mevsimler bize g\u00fcl\u00fcc\u00fckler ta\u015f\u0131rlard\u0131 geldikleri diyarlardan. Bu ya\u015f\u0131mla beraber yeni bir g\u00fcz mevsimine g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyorum \u015fimdi.\u00a0 <\/span>\u00c7ocuklukla g\u00f6z\u00fcmde beliriyor mevsimler. Her birinde biraz daha b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz, her yenileni\u015finde hayat\u0131n i\u00e7ine kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z zamanlard\u0131 mevsimlerin her \u00e2n\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n A\u011fa\u00e7lar, yapraklar, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc ve tela\u015flar selama durdu \u015fimdi. Aylardan eyl\u00fcl, mevsimlerden sonbahar. Her insan ismini ya\u015far m\u0131 bilmem fakat ben bir veda program\u0131nda bir eyl\u00fcl ak\u015fam\u0131nda bir taziye ortam\u0131nda duydum bunu. Hazan\u2026Eyl\u00fclde gitmi\u015fti Hazan. Ad\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f ya\u015fatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n \u2018\u2019 Eyl\u00fclde mel\u00fcl oldu g\u00f6n\u00fcl soldu da l\u00e2le<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>Bir ka\u2019k\u00fcle meyletti g\u00f6n\u00fcl geldi bu h\u00e2le\u2019\u2019 der \u015fair neveser makam\u0131nda bestelenmi\u015f \u015fiirinde. \u015eimdi onu dinliyorum. Ah bu \u015fark\u0131lar\u2026 Eyl\u00fcl gibi onlar da h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc, sararan solan, sakinlik veren ruha, dinginlik… Hat\u0131rlanmak var ama nasiplerinde ne mutlu onlara.<\/p>\n \u0130\u015fte ben de her eyl\u00fclde bu dizeleri hat\u0131rlar\u0131m. Laleler solar, a\u011fa\u00e7lar yapraklar\u0131n\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131rlar yere. Mecalsiz anlar vard\u0131r ayr\u0131l\u0131klarda. Hayat\u0131n bah\u00e7elerinden tarumar de\u011fer g\u00f6zlere. Hayat\u0131n rengi solar gibi olur. Bir durgunluk vard\u0131r etrafta. Yazdan kalan h\u0131z\u0131 yava\u015flatan bir olu\u015fuma \u015fahittir bakan her g\u00f6z. G\u00f6rme duyusu daha bir kalbe meyleder. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr insan, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceli zamanlardan ge\u00e7erken.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Ad\u0131n \u2018\u2019Eyl\u00fcl\u2019 olsun isterim ey sevgili, sevdi\u011fim her \u015fey\u2026\u2019\u2019 Eyl\u00fcl\u2019\u2019le bilirim sevdi\u011fim her \u015feyin kalbimin misafiri oldu\u011funu, yapraklar\u0131n\u0131n renginin soldu\u011funu, susup susup konu\u015ftu\u011funu, bitenle yeniden ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmek isterim. Benimkisi nas\u0131l bir pervas\u0131zl\u0131k \u00f6yle? Her an \u2018\u2019Eyl\u00fcl\u2019\u2019 diye bakmak, sevdi\u011fin her \u015feye.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum \u015fimdi eyl\u00fclle hayat\u0131m\u0131n anlam\u0131n\u0131. \u201cHer dem yeniden do\u011fan\u201d Yunus\u2019a selam verirken hislerime bir in\u015firah do\u011fuyor eyl\u00fclde. \u00dcmit Ya\u015far\u2019\u0131 okuyorum i\u00e7imden:<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>\u201cBir eyl\u00fcld\u00fc ba\u015flayan i\u00e7imde<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>A\u011fa\u00e7lar d\u00f6km\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc yapraklar\u0131n\u0131\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>\u00c7imenler sararm\u0131\u015ft\u0131<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>Rengi solmu\u015ftu t\u00fcm \u00e7i\u00e7eklerin<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc kara bulutlar sarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>Katar gidiyordu ku\u015flar uzaklara<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>Deli deli esiyordu r\u00fczg\u00e2r<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>Da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 yazdan kalan ne varsa\u2026\u201d \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Yazdan kalan her \u015feyin belli bir zaman sonra kendini \u00f6zletece\u011fini biliyorum ben de. Eyl\u00fcl, o zaman bir de\u011fi\u015fim de\u011fil de ne? \u0130nsan\u0131n tekd\u00fcze ya\u015fant\u0131s\u0131ndan, ayn\u0131 renklerden hayata hep ayn\u0131 bakmas\u0131ndan kurtulmas\u0131 de\u011fil mi \u00f6yleyse eyl\u00fcl? G\u00f6zlere \u00e7ekilen bir s\u0131cak perdenin serin serin aralanmas\u0131 ve olan\u0131n yeni renklere ve \u015fekillere teslim olmas\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Sevmeye ge\u00e7 kalman\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc bir kaledir hem bu ay, bu g\u00fcz vakti. Hep var olacak sand\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n yeniden do\u011fu\u015fa y\u00fcr\u00fcmesi, ye\u015filin solmas\u0131, s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u0131l\u0131k bir tebess\u00fcmle \u00fc\u015f\u00fctmesi, g\u00f6zlere de\u011fen renklerin yava\u015f\u00e7a gizlenmesi, al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n de\u011fi\u015fmesi\u2026 \u0130nsan\u0131n bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcp kendine gelmesi, kendini bilmesi sonra kendini bilenin de Rabbini bilmesi ve bu bilmeyle Yaradan\u2019a teslim olmas\u0131 de\u011fil midir bu halin ruha bakan y\u00f6n\u00fc?\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Rilke! Rainer Maria Rilke\u2026 Ne g\u00fczel anlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r \u2018\u2019G\u00fcz\u2019\u2019 \u015fiirinde benim sat\u0131rlar\u0131ma ve sayfalara s\u0131\u011fd\u0131ramayaca\u011f\u0131m o uhrevi h\u00e2li:\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n D\u00fc\u015fer yapraklar d\u00fc\u015fer sanki uzaklardan<\/p>\n G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde uzak bah\u00e7eler mi bozulmu\u015f ne<\/p>\n D\u00fc\u015ferler g\u00f6n\u00fcls\u00fcz do\u011fanlar gibi<\/p>\n D\u00fc\u015fer geceleyin a\u011f\u0131r yery\u00fcz\u00fc de<\/p>\n Yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa b\u00fct\u00fcn y\u0131ld\u0131zlardan<\/p>\n Biz hepimiz d\u00fc\u015feriz. D\u00fc\u015fer bu el bak.<\/p>\n G\u00f6r ba\u015fka \u015feyleri de bu hepsinde<\/p>\n Ama var biri bu d\u00fc\u015fmeyi ellerinde\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Tutar sonsuz yumu\u015fak<\/p>\n \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Rainer Maria Rilke<\/p>\n G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde bozulan uzak bah\u00e7elerdendir, evet d\u00fc\u015fen yapraklar. Yery\u00fcz\u00fc y\u0131ld\u0131zlardan yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa b\u0131rak\u0131r kendini. Yaln\u0131zl\u0131k var olman\u0131n bir ikinci halidir. Ve nahif bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr hepimizin ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131. Bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fc\u015f, tezat\u0131n en hakiki halidir y\u00fckseli\u015fle beraber. D\u00fc\u015fmeyi ellerinde sonsuz tutand\u0131r Yarat\u0131c\u0131. Mevsimleri dev\u015firen, d\u00fc\u015feni kald\u0131ran, kuruyan\u0131 ye\u015fertendir. Daha sayamayaca\u011f\u0131m her olu\u015fun var edicisidir. G\u00fcz \u015fiirini okurken \u2018\u2019Eyl\u00fcl\u2019\u2019 e nazar etmem bu durup d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmemin hatta d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp de kalkabilmemin sevincindendir. \u0130\u00e7ime e\u011filmem, g\u00f6klerde seyrana davet g\u00f6rmemdir.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" CANAN DUYU\u015e Mevsimler\u2026\u00a0 Biz k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckken \u00e7ocukluk hislerimizle ya\u015fama sevinci duydu\u011fumuz ve tad\u0131na doydu\u011fumuz zaman dilimleri… Mevsimlerin ad\u0131n\u0131 da<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1503,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[2],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n