Bir anne \u00f6zlemi d\u00fc\u015ferdi a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n \u015fakaklar\u0131na ve gidi\u015flerin sesleri vururdu kalemime bir ikindi tela\u015f\u0131nda. \u00dc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f parmaklar\u0131ma inat, m\u00fcrekkep kan\u0131m kadar s\u0131cak ve dosttu serin Ankara ak\u015famlar\u0131nda. Cebimde al\u0131nteri damlayan har\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131m ne az ne \u00e7ok, elimde bir ka\u00e7 jeton\u2026 Bir telefon kul\u00fcbesi \u00f6n\u00fcnde s\u0131ra beklemekti eyl\u00fcl, hasretti, \u00f6zlemdi\u2026<\/p>\n
Bilmem bu ka\u00e7\u0131nc\u0131 sonbahar\u2026? Y\u00fcz\u00fcmde hala hasret y\u00fckl\u00fc g\u00f6zlerin izi var, hala her k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131nda dost bir y\u00fcrek ar\u0131yorum. Yapraklar\u0131n yana\u011f\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fen vuslat arzusu sarar y\u00fcre\u011fimi. Buruk bir sevda dolan\u0131r ba\u015f\u0131mda. U\u00e7u\u015fan yapraklara kar\u0131\u015f\u0131r gitgide b\u00fcy\u00fcyen uzakl\u0131\u011f\u0131m. Kalabal\u0131k sokaklarda bir hayalet gibi dola\u015f\u0131r yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m. Yaz\u0131n\u0131n, mektubun h\u00fckm\u00fcn\u00fc yitirdi\u011fi hengamda, c\u0131l\u0131z sesimden ka\u00e7 nota duyulur bilmem \u015fimdi. Ka\u00e7 selam ula\u015f\u0131r soranlara? Nabz\u0131mda atar ku\u015flar\u0131n kanatlar\u0131ndaki g\u00f6\u00e7 heyecan\u0131. Ayaklar\u0131msa zincirini ta\u015f\u0131r demir kap\u0131lar\u0131n, \u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u00fcm. Renkler b\u00fcy\u00fclerken g\u00f6zlerimi, tuvalim ba\u015ftan ba\u015fa yaprak d\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fc\u2026 T\u00fcrk\u00fclerim ba\u011f bozumu ak\u015famlar\u0131 kadar yorgun.\u00a0 <\/span>Eyl\u00fcl beni vurur, ben Eyl\u00fcl\u2019e vurgun.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Sayfa aralar\u0131nda kurutulmu\u015f yapraklar kan k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131s\u0131 \u00e7i\u00e7ek a\u00e7sa bu eyl\u00fcl. Hasretlimiz gelse kap\u0131ya ans\u0131z\u0131n. Ayaklar\u0131n\u0131 okyanuslar ok\u015fasa ve g\u00fcne\u015f g\u00f6zlerinden do\u011fsa o sabah. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndan s\u0131la kokulu ya\u011fmurlar d\u00f6k\u00fclse ve eteklerinden eyl\u00fcl yapraklar\u0131. Ya\u015fanmam\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar\u0131 eritsek yazdan kalma g\u00fcnlerde. Avu\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131zda mevsimler b\u00fcy\u00fctsek, y\u00fcre\u011fimizde bahar. Vuslata uzansa bu eyl\u00fcl b\u00fct\u00fcn yollar. Hi\u00e7 s\u00f6z etmesek ayr\u0131 ge\u00e7en g\u00fcnlerden. \u0130nce s\u0131z\u0131larla k\u0131vrand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z geceleri boyasak sar\u0131ya ve ye\u015file. Savursak ac\u0131lar\u0131 ard\u0131s\u0131ra r\u00fczgardaki \u015fark\u0131n\u0131n.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n A\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n \u015fakaklar\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fen \u00f6zlemlerde b\u00fcy\u00fcs\u00fcn sevdalar, yine hasretle yo\u011frulsun vars\u0131n gidi\u015flerin tela\u015f\u0131, yine serin essin r\u00fczgar. Ne gam! De\u011fil mi ki ufukta bu eyl\u00fcl kavu\u015fmak var.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" KATRE Bir anne \u00f6zlemi d\u00fc\u015ferdi a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n \u015fakaklar\u0131na ve gidi\u015flerin sesleri vururdu kalemime bir ikindi tela\u015f\u0131nda. \u00dc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f parmaklar\u0131ma inat,<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1507,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[2],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n