{"id":1589,"date":"2020-10-08T01:46:25","date_gmt":"2020-10-08T01:46:25","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=1589"},"modified":"2020-10-08T01:46:25","modified_gmt":"2020-10-08T01:46:25","slug":"yarinin-yikilisi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=1589","title":{"rendered":"YARININ YIKILI\u015eI"},"content":{"rendered":"<h4 style=\"text-align: right;\">R\u00dcMEYSA N. \u00c7.<\/h4>\n<p>K\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f kalbimle y\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015f duvarlar\u0131m aras\u0131nda y\u00fcr\u00fcyorum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Her ad\u0131mda yeni bir h\u00fcz\u00fcn ve karma\u015fan\u0131n i\u00e7indeyim.<\/p>\n<p>Umudumu kime ba\u011flamal\u0131y\u0131m? Kim kurtaracak beni? <span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Ayak bast\u0131\u011f\u0131m cam k\u0131r\u0131klar\u0131nda kanayan ayaklar\u0131mdaki ac\u0131, hatalar\u0131m kadar ac\u0131 vermiyor bile&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Neyi bekliyorum?<\/p>\n<p>D\u00fcne k\u0131rg\u0131n\u0131m yar\u0131ndan korkuyorum bug\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015fayamayan bir \u00e7ocuk gibiyim kime s\u0131\u011f\u0131nmal\u0131y\u0131m? Hangi limana demirleyece\u011fim? Hangi limandan ka\u00e7aca\u011f\u0131m? R\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n sesinde hissediyorum cevaplar\u0131 duyam\u0131yorum. Belki r\u00fczg\u00e2rda duymuyordur benim \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 sessizli\u011fin \u00f6l\u00fcmle ilgisi var m\u0131 ?<\/p>\n<p>Ad\u0131mlar\u0131m yava\u015flad\u0131, ne \u00e7aresiz kalm\u0131\u015f\u0131m me\u011fer, nas\u0131lda \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 kapatm\u0131\u015f\u0131m kendime karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n beni almas\u0131n\u0131 bekledi\u011fim her saniye.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Y\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131 duvarlar\u0131m. Aras\u0131nda kalmaktan kurtulmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum sessizce. Umutlar\u0131m i\u00e7in birine ihtiyac\u0131m var m\u0131? Ne ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015f\u0131m me\u011fer birilerine nas\u0131l yorulmu\u015fum tutunmaktan! <span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Kanayan yaralar\u0131m i\u00e7in ilac\u0131m\u0131 kimden isteyece\u011fimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ben.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>R\u00fczgar hangi cevaplar\u0131 veriyorsun bana? As\u0131l korkumla ne yapmal\u0131y\u0131m hangi silah\u0131n sesinde sakl\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131\u015flar\u0131m ya da hangi m\u00fczi\u011fin ritminde sakl\u0131 mutlulu\u011fum? Ne bekledim kendimden?<\/p>\n<p>Sadece mutlu olmay\u0131 diledim ben&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Melisa&#8230;.<\/p>\n<p>Melisa\u2019n\u0131n ilk haberini ald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda istemsizce nefesimi tuttum. Sonrada Twitter\u2019dan payla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 yaz\u0131lara bakt\u0131m okudu\u011fumda g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131na hakim olamad\u0131m. Bir k\u0131z\u0131n s\u0131\u011f\u0131naca\u011f\u0131 liman babas\u0131d\u0131r. O limandan ayr\u0131laca\u011f\u0131 kendi iradesi ile yelken a\u00e7aca\u011f\u0131 yar\u0131nlar\u0131 olur, ama Melisa\u2019n\u0131n s\u0131\u011f\u0131naca\u011f\u0131 liman\u0131 m\u00fczikler olmus. Tesekkurler en az\u0131ndan m\u00fcziklerin bir s\u00fcre de olsa mutlu etmesine yard\u0131m etti\u011fi k\u0131z i\u00e7in. Bir m\u00fczik her zaman dinlemesem de bende g\u00fczle duygular uyand\u0131ran m\u00fczik, bir \u00e7ok insan\u0131n ya\u015fam umudu ve baba&#8230; Kelimelerim kayboldu.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>R\u00dcMEYSA N. \u00c7. K\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f kalbimle y\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015f duvarlar\u0131m aras\u0131nda y\u00fcr\u00fcyorum.\u00a0 Her ad\u0131mda yeni bir h\u00fcz\u00fcn ve karma\u015fan\u0131n i\u00e7indeyim. 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