\u0130\u00e7i i\u00e7ini yiyor. \u0130\u00e7indeki s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131y\u0131 gizleyemiyor. Bazen bir \u00f6fke bazen bir k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcmseme bazen alay. \u0130\u00e7i i\u00e7ini yiyor. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc hi\u00e7 iyili\u011fi tatmad\u0131. Ne de olsa zay\u0131f iyiler. Korkak iyiler. Nezaketten beli k\u0131r\u0131lacak zavall\u0131 iyiler. S\u00e2hi hi\u00e7 iyi bir \u015fey yapm\u0131\u015f m\u0131yd\u0131? Tabi ya hani evdeki b\u00f6ce\u011fi ezmeyip d\u0131\u015far\u0131 atm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Merhamet! Merhametten miydi? D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Hay\u0131r o pis kan\u0131 duvar\u0131 kirletmesin diye. Yoksa i\u011fren\u00e7 bir b\u00f6cekti i\u015fte. Kendisi d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda herkes ya kuyusunu kazmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan, ya yar\u0131m ak\u0131l varl\u0131klard\u0131. \u00d6yle miydi ger\u00e7ekten? Yoksa i\u00e7ten i\u00e7e, i\u00e7indeki k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, mutsuz, yar\u0131m, kendini de\u011fersiz hisseden \u00e7ocuk muydu onu b\u00f6yle yapan?<\/p>\n
\u00d6fke. Yalan s\u00f6ylemeyen tek duygulardan… Neden \u00f6fkeliydi genelde. \u0130\u015fte bu y\u00fczden. Hatadan korkuyordu \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc. G\u00f6r\u00fcyordu i\u015fte. \u0130nsanlar hata doluydu. G\u00f6revliler, \u00e7\u00f6p toplayanlar, \u00e7ocuklar… Hepsi koca bir hata topuydu. E\u011fer kendisi de hata yapsa dururdu d\u00fcnya. Ge\u00e7en y\u0131l yan kom\u015fusu bah\u00e7eyi sularken kar\u015f\u0131 tarafa su ge\u00e7mi\u015fti de k\u0131yameti koparm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u015eimdi daha dikkatli sulamal\u0131yd\u0131 bah\u00e7esini ki a\u011fz\u0131na geleni sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u00fcst\u00fcne \u00fcstl\u00fck alayc\u0131 bir beceriksizlikle su\u00e7lad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kom\u015fusuyla ayn\u0131 davran\u0131\u015f\u0131 yapmamal\u0131yd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Yard\u0131ma ihtiyac\u0131 olsa kimi arard\u0131 s\u00e2hi? Sayd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 kom\u015fusunu mu, ezdi\u011fi b\u00f6ce\u011fin u\u00e7up geldi\u011fi bah\u00e7edeki amcay\u0131 m\u0131, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131na k\u0131z\u0131p durdu\u011fu, caddenin kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki d\u00f6rt \u00e7ocuklu aileyi mi?<\/p>\n Yandaki evin perdeleri s\u0131k\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131 kapanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu seferkiler de ta\u015f\u0131nm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bir iki hafta ge\u00e7meden ayn\u0131 eve birileri geldi. \u00c7aylak bir bela m\u0131 gelmi\u015fti \u015fimdi? \u201cU\u011fra\u015f dur! \u0130\u015fin yoksa kurallar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015ftan \u00f6\u011fret! \u0130lk g\u00fcnden bah\u00e7emi mahvetmese bari!\u201d Bo\u015falm\u0131\u015f koliler evin kap\u0131s\u0131nda bekliyordu. \u00d6fkelendi. Etrafta bunca yar\u0131m ak\u0131l varken, \u00f6fkelenmek i\u00e7in bir sebep bulmas\u0131 kolayd\u0131. \u015eimdi varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 belli etmenin tam zaman\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n \u201c\u0130\u015finiz bitince onlar\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6pe g\u00f6t\u00fcrseniz iyi olur! Ortal\u0131k berbat g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor.\u201d<\/p>\n Neden bo\u015f g\u00f6zlerle kendisine bak\u0131yorlard\u0131 ki? O g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme neydi \u00f6yle? Bir de hadsizce k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcms\u00fcyorlar m\u0131yd\u0131 kendisini?<\/p>\n -Hat\u0131rlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z i\u00e7in te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederiz, hemen toplayaca\u011f\u0131z.<\/p>\n Ertesi sabah k\u0131r\u0131k aynada kendi aksine bakt\u0131. Aksine\u2026 Ge\u00e7ip giden g\u00fcnlerin aksine y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki ge\u00e7meyen \u00e7izgilere\u2026 Duman\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcnde fincan\u0131 tuttu ve bah\u00e7eyi ad\u0131mlad\u0131. Kar\u0131ncalar, k\u0131r \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri ve bir karahindiba ezdi. Bah\u00e7enin k\u00f6\u015fesine vard\u0131\u011f\u0131nda g\u00f6zleri parlad\u0131. Arad\u0131\u011f\u0131 f\u0131rsat aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n dibinde s\u0131z\u0131yordu. Su…<\/p>\n En ba\u015ftan haddini bildirmek gerekti bu yeni ta\u015f\u0131nanlara. H\u0131zl\u0131ca yan bah\u00e7eye ge\u00e7ip kap\u0131y\u0131 var g\u00fcc\u00fcyle yumruklad\u0131. A\u00e7\u0131lan kap\u0131n\u0131n ard\u0131ndaki \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n iki g\u00f6ze, \u00f6fkeli g\u00f6zlerini dikti.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n -Bah\u00e7eme buradan su s\u0131z\u0131yor. Benim bah\u00e7eme!\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Kap\u0131da iki g\u00f6z \u00f6nce aksi adama sonra g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n -Afedersiniz ama hi\u00e7 bah\u00e7e sulama mevsimi de\u011fil. \u015eimdi izninizle tadilat i\u015flerimizle u\u011fra\u015faca\u011f\u0131z.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Kap\u0131n\u0131n kapanmas\u0131yla evine do\u011fru y\u00f6nelen huysuz ad\u0131mlar muson ya\u011fmurlar\u0131n\u0131 tartakl\u0131yor, s\u00f6ylenmeler, su birikintilerini azarl\u0131yordu.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" ESRA DOLUNAY \u0130\u00e7i i\u00e7ini yiyor. \u0130\u00e7indeki s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131y\u0131 gizleyemiyor. Bazen bir \u00f6fke bazen bir k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcmseme bazen alay. \u0130\u00e7i i\u00e7ini<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1436,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[4],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n