{"id":1426,"date":"2020-09-03T15:14:28","date_gmt":"2020-09-03T15:14:28","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=1426"},"modified":"2020-09-03T15:14:29","modified_gmt":"2020-09-03T15:14:29","slug":"multeci-bebek","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=1426","title":{"rendered":"M\u00dcLTEC\u0130 BEBEK"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<h3 class=\"has-text-align-right\"><strong>ARZU KARA<\/strong><\/h3>\n\n\n\n<p>Yokluktan var edildim ben&#8230; Ruhumla bildi\u011fim, z\u00e2t\u0131yla g\u00f6rmedi\u011fim ama varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 her bir h\u00fccremde hissetti\u011fim o y\u00fcce varl\u0131k var etti beni\u2026 Endi\u015feler vard\u0131 sezdi\u011fim, korkular vard\u0131 duydu\u011fum\u2026 Hepsi bir kordonla ba\u011fl\u0131 oldu\u011fum annemden gelen hislerdi..<\/p>\n<p><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Birg\u00fcn!.. Hen\u00fcz varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hissetmi\u015fti annem ve babam. \u00d6yle korkular vardi ki annemin o koca kalbinden benim k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck kalbime de\u011fen, \u00f6yle korkun\u00e7 endi\u015feler, \u00f6yle yerinde durdurulamaz heyecanlar, \u00f6ylesine boynu b\u00fck\u00fck bekleyen kayg\u0131lar&#8230; Ta ki ertesi sabaha kadar s\u00fcrecek, tarifsiz his ve duygular&#8230; Da\u011flar\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131m\u0131\u015fcas\u0131na zay\u0131f bedenlere d\u00fc\u015fen yorgunluklar&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Gecenizi ayd\u0131nlatan bir dolunay\u0131n\u0131z oldu mu sizin? Normal dedi\u011finiz vakitlerde, duymakta zorland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131z, koca tarlalarda gecelerinizin sessizli\u011fini bozdu mu mesela?<\/p>\n<p>Benim annem b\u00f6cekten, karanl\u0131ktan, ha\u015ferattan korkan annem, \u00f6yle \u00e7ok d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc ki o gece; \u00e7ukurlara, su arklar\u0131na, dikenlerin i\u00e7ine&#8230; Bir eliyle on d\u00f6rt ayl\u0131k ablam\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131ya tutarken, \u00f6b\u00fcr eliyle beni tutan annem. Korkusu, sadece biz olan annem&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7aresizlik vard\u0131 o gece, Meri\u00e7 diye bir yer vard\u0131 o gece, akan suyun \u00fcrk\u00fct\u00fcc\u00fc sessizli\u011fi vard\u0131 o gece ve g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde yorgunlu\u011fumuza umut olan y\u0131ld\u0131zlar vard\u0131 o gece. Annemin \u201cO gece yaln\u0131z de\u011fildik, y\u0131ld\u0131zlar g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnden indi, g\u00f6lge sand\u0131k \u00f6nce, me\u011fer \u0131\u015f\u0131km\u0131\u015f \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fcze.\u201d dedi\u011fi gece&#8230;<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Yolcuydum ben de, bir a\u011fa\u00e7 g\u00f6lgesinde dinlenmeye do\u011fru giden yolu g\u00f6steriyordu zaman pusulas\u0131n\u0131n ibresi&#8230; Yolcuyduk hepimiz, evi olan bir aile beklemiyordu beni, dedelerim, ninelerim, teyzem d\u00f6rt g\u00f6zle beklemiyordu beni, kundaklar\u0131ma kurdeleler tak\u0131lmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131, doktorumuz kim onu bilmek bile bizim i\u00e7in ola\u011fan\u00fcst\u00fcyd\u00fc&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>G\u00fcnlerce, m\u00fclteci kamplar\u0131nda kalmak i\u00e7in bir \u00fclkeden ba\u015fka \u00fclkeye gitti\u011fimiz, art\u0131k m\u00fcltecisiniz dediklerinde annemle babam\u0131n ac\u0131 ac\u0131 g\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fc, fakat yeni dura\u011f\u0131m\u0131z art\u0131k buras\u0131 deyip ac\u0131yla g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedikleri yere var\u0131ncaya kadar ge\u00e7en zaman\u2026 Haftalarca hatta aylarca hi\u00e7 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, dilini bilmedi\u011fimiz, yemeklerini yiyemedi\u011fimiz hastanelerde ge\u00e7en zaman&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Bir g\u00fcn d\u00fcnya ad\u0131 verilen a\u011fac\u0131n g\u00f6lgesine geldim ben de. Do\u011fmu\u015ftum ama \u00f6zel bir bebektim ben; M\u00fclteci bebek. Kimsenin kendisine Kuranlar, mevlitler, \u015f\u00f6lenler haz\u0131rlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u00fclteci bir bebek. Evimizin bile olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir d\u00fcnyaya gelmi\u015ftim anneme ho\u015f gelmi\u015f, babama sefa gelmi\u015f, karde\u015flerime can getirmi\u015f bir bebektim. \u00c7ok zengindim, biliyor, hissediyor, duyuyordum bunu.<\/p>\n<p><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Bir haftal\u0131kken i\u00e7ime kokusunu \u00e7ekti\u011fim m\u00fclteci kamp\u0131m vard\u0131 benim, m\u00fclteci har\u00e7l\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 vermeleri i\u00e7in bekledi\u011fimiz s\u0131rada tan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ilk ya\u011fmur damlas\u0131yla. G\u00fcne\u015fi, ye\u015fili, a\u011fac\u0131 g\u00f6rebildi\u011fim bir d\u00fcnyam vard\u0131 benim. \u0130pek sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 ok\u015fayan r\u00fczgar o g\u00fcn f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131 kula\u011f\u0131ma \u201c\u00dcz\u00fclme bebek, sak\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fclme. Evin de olur yata\u011f\u0131n da, oyuncaklar\u0131n da.\u201d<\/p>\n<p><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Selamlar getirdim sana Anadolu\u2019dan. Her kar\u0131\u015f topra\u011f\u0131ndaki zindanlardan. Dediler ki oradaki ya\u015f\u0131tlar\u0131n, \u201cBizim i\u00e7in de baks\u0131n mavi g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcne, bizim i\u00e7in de baks\u0131n a\u011fa\u00e7lara, \u00e7i\u00e7eklere. Karlar d\u00fc\u015ferken yana\u011f\u0131na sak\u0131n \u00fc\u015f\u00fcmesin annesinin koynuna girsin, sar\u0131ls\u0131n. Oyuncaklar\u0131yla oynarken s\u0131k\u0131lmas\u0131n, karde\u015fleriyle b\u00fcy\u00fcrken onlara dar\u0131lmas\u0131n, \u00e7oraplar\u0131 eskidi\u011finde a\u011flamas\u0131n, bizim topra\u011f\u0131m\u0131z so\u011fuk betonlar, yata\u011f\u0131m\u0131z bazen iki ki\u015filik, bazen \u00fc\u00e7 ki\u015filik, oyuncaklar\u0131m\u0131z kartondan, \u00e7i\u00e7eklerin renklerini \u00f6\u011frenmemiz pek m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde u\u00e7an birka\u00e7 ku\u015f olmasa ku\u015f nedir onu bile bilemeyece\u011fiz. Ha bir de sabah uyan\u0131rken g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcl\u00fc insanlar da olmaz onun hayat\u0131nda.. Hi\u00e7 \u00fcz\u00fclmesin.. Bizi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcns\u00fcn ve beklesin, beraber oynayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z parklarda&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Ah be r\u00fczgar tan\u0131\u015f\u0131r tan\u0131\u015fmaz seninle, kimlerin selam\u0131n\u0131 toplad\u0131n da getirdin bana? Evet m\u00fclteci de\u011filler bunu anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, vatanlar\u0131ndalar\u2026 Onlar\u0131n da yataklar\u0131 var ama demirden, onlar\u0131n da g\u00fcne\u015fi var ama demir parmakl\u0131klar delmi\u015f, puslu g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor g\u00fcne\u015f ve hatta baz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n penceresine hi\u00e7 u\u011fram\u0131yor bile! Akraba dolu koca diyarlar\u0131nda kimsesizler\u2026 Analar\u0131 var sadece; garip kalm\u0131\u015f boynu b\u00fck\u00fck analar\u0131\u2026 Babalar\u0131 var, var da hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmediler ki!&#8230; G\u00f6stermedikleri babalar\u0131 nerde kim bilir\u2026? Karde\u015fleri var baz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n, demir parmakl\u0131klar\u0131n ard\u0131ndan usulca tan\u0131\u015fabildikleri\u2026 Belki de baz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n hi\u00e7 g\u00f6remedi\u011fi, tan\u0131\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131&#8230;. S\u00fct i\u00e7ebildikleri<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>biberonlar\u0131 var m\u0131 bilmiyorum\u2026? Havas\u0131z kalm\u0131\u015f, rutubet kokan gecelerin sonunda, annelerinin g\u00fczel sesleri de\u011fil, ku\u015flar\u0131n sesleri de\u011fil onlar\u0131 uyand\u0131ran&#8230;<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>R\u00fczgar, sen kula\u011f\u0131ma f\u0131s\u0131lday\u0131p selam getireli iki y\u0131l oldu, h\u00e2l\u00e2 bekliyorum onlar\u0131. Oyun parklar\u0131nda karde\u015flerim ve ben var\u0131m. Ben de e\u011flenmiyorum merak etmesinler. Binmiyorum mesela sal\u0131nca\u011fa, \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck diye ba\u011f\u0131ram\u0131yor, r\u00fczgar\u0131 yanaklar\u0131mda hissedemiyorum.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Gelmediler, gelemediler&#8230; Neden gelmediler??? Sahi r\u00fczgar ben de sana bir\u015fey f\u0131s\u0131ldasam beklerken, g\u00f6t\u00fcrsen t\u00fcm zalimlere&#8230;.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Hani biz bebe\u011fiz hani biz \u00e7ocu\u011fuz ya,<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Sahi s\u00f6ylesene r\u00fczgar ben neden m\u00fclteci bir \u00e7ocu\u011fum?<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Sahi onlar neden zindanda mahkum \u00e7ocuklar&#8230;?<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>ARZU KARA Yokluktan var edildim ben&#8230; Ruhumla bildi\u011fim, z\u00e2t\u0131yla g\u00f6rmedi\u011fim ama varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 her bir h\u00fccremde hissetti\u011fim o y\u00fcce<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1427,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[4],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"<!-- This site is optimized with the Yoast SEO plugin v15.5 - https:\/\/yoast.com\/wordpress\/plugins\/seo\/ -->\n<title>M\u00dcLTEC\u0130 BEBEK - SES MAGAZINE<\/title>\n<meta name=\"robots\" content=\"index, follow, max-snippet:-1, max-image-preview:large, max-video-preview:-1\" \/>\n<link rel=\"canonical\" href=\"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=1426\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:locale\" content=\"en_US\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:type\" content=\"article\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:title\" content=\"M\u00dcLTEC\u0130 BEBEK - SES MAGAZINE\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:description\" content=\"ARZU KARA Yokluktan var edildim ben&#8230; 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