Gaflet uykusunda yatar uyanmaz \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Can g\u00f6z\u00fc kapal\u0131 gafil\u00e2n \u00e7oktur\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n \u00c7ok uykuyla hemhal oldu\u011fum bir g\u00fcn\u00fcn sabah\u0131nda dilimde bu dizeler d\u00f6n\u00fcp duruyorum evin i\u00e7inde. \u201cGidi\u015fat\u0131n iyi de\u011fil!\u201d diyorum kendime. Aynan\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda kendimle y\u00fczle\u015fiyorum. G\u00f6zlerimle bir yolculu\u011fa \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n \u201cHo\u015f\u00e7a bak zat\u0131na kim z\u00fcbde-i \u00e2lemsin sen \/ Merdum-i\u00a0 <\/span>dide-i ekv\u00e2n olan \u00e2demsin sen\u201d diyerek \u015eeyh Galip yol g\u00f6steriyor bana. Daha yeni okudu\u011fum \u2018L\u00e2\u2019 isimli romanda yazar bu dizeyi de alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 sat\u0131rlar\u0131na. G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyorum. \u201cBak sen!\u201d diyorum kendime. \u201cDemek ki arada iyi i\u015fler yapm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n!\u201d Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015fu g\u00fcnleri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek\u2026 \u00d6ylesine, donuk, yeknesak\u2026<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Oysa ben b\u00f6yle miydim? Allah\u2019\u0131m bug\u00fcn\u00fc \u015fiir g\u00fcn\u00fc ilan ettim kendime. Her \u015fey bana bir \u015fiir dizesi olup selam veriyor. \u201cBen b\u00f6yle bak\u0131p durmayacakt\u0131m dili ba\u011fl\u0131\u2026\u201d diyor Mehmet Akif. Sonra Mehmet Akif\u2019li dizeler art arda ku\u015fat\u0131yorlar etraf\u0131m\u0131. Safahat\u2019\u0131n yapraklar\u0131 aras\u0131nda y\u00fcr\u00fcyor gibiyim.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cEy dipdiri meyyit! \u0130ki el bir ba\u015f i\u00e7indir.<\/p>\n Davransana.. Eller de senin, ba\u015f da senindir!\u201d diye hayk\u0131r\u0131yor bana ruhumun \u015fairi. \u201cDipdiri Meyyit\u201d nas\u0131l ve ne kadar da g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc bir tezat bu b\u00f6yle! Ellerime bak\u0131yorum. Bir zamanlar kalem tutan, s\u0131n\u0131ftaki tahtaya bir \u015feyler yazan, ba\u015f\u0131nda toplanm\u0131\u015f \u00f6\u011frencilerine \u015fiirler okuyan ben!\u00a0 <\/span>\u201cHocam\u201d diye bir ses i\u015fitiyorum. Y\u0131llar y\u0131llar \u00f6ncesinde kalp sand\u0131\u011f\u0131ma sevin\u00e7le kilitledi\u011fim.\u00a0 <\/span>Ve devam ediyor o ses: \u201cDers anlat\u0131rken g\u00f6zleriniz parl\u0131yor!\u201d O g\u00fcn \u00f6\u011frencime verdi\u011fim cevab\u0131 tekrar ediyorum: \u201cG\u00f6zlerim \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sizden al\u0131yor.\u201d Haftan\u0131n s\u00f6zleri\u00a0 <\/span>etkinli\u011fimiz vard\u0131 bizim. \u00c7ok \u00fcmitsiz ve olumsuz bir hava esti\u011fi bir ders vaktinde o haftan\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fc:<\/p>\n \u201c\u00c2tiyi karanl\u0131k bilerek azmi b\u0131rakmak\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0 <\/span>Al\u00e7ak bir \u00f6l\u00fcm varsa eminim budur ancak!\u201d<\/p>\n (Mehmet Akif) olmu\u015ftu. \u00d6\u011frencilerime \u201cPansuman Dizeler\u201d diye ezberletmek istedi\u011fim dizeler, \u015fimdi benim imd\u00e2d\u0131ma yeti\u015fiyor i\u015fte! Hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum\u2026<\/p>\n \u201dG\u00fcn Olur Asra Bedel\u201d deki gibi hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum. Kim oldu\u011fumu, k\u00f6t\u00fcye yorumlanan niyetlerimi hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum \u015fimdi. \u201cKim Oldu\u011funu Hat\u0131rla!\u201d diyor Aytmatov. Ben de bu uyan\u0131\u015f emrini kendime diyorum. Hat\u0131rlad\u0131klar\u0131m g\u00fczel tatlar. Sanki \u00e7ok susuz kalm\u0131\u015f\u0131m ama yava\u015f yava\u015f gitmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f bu susuzlu\u011fum. G\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. \u0130yi bir \u015fey olsa gerek bu halim! Bir iyile\u015fme em\u00e2resi\u2026\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>\u0130mgeler de\u011fiyor bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131ma. \u0130mgeyi kendime hat\u0131rlatmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. Edeb\u00ee haf\u0131zam\u0131n \u00f6\u011frencisiyim \u015fimdi: \u201c\u015eairin s\u0131n\u0131rs\u0131z hayal g\u00fcc\u00fcyle, g\u00fcnl\u00fck ya\u015fant\u0131da bir araya getiremeyece\u011fimiz kelimeleri\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cSen geldin, benim deli k\u00f6\u015femde durdun.\u201d diyor Sezai Karako\u00e7. Evet \u2018Deli K\u00f6\u015fe\u2019 bir imge. Akl\u0131m\u0131 yokluyorum. Sonra da deli k\u00f6\u015felerimi bulmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. Ne delilikler ge\u00e7iyor i\u00e7imden. Deli d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler\u2026 Hay\u0131r hay\u0131r. \u00c7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr iyiyim. Delirmedim! \u015eairin dedi\u011fi gibi, belki deli k\u00f6\u015felerim var ara s\u0131ra gidip oturup, kimseler duymadan kimi zaman delice a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, kimi zaman kendi kendime konu\u015ftu\u011fum, kimi zaman da kahkahalar att\u0131\u011f\u0131m. Deli K\u00f6\u015fe\u2026<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>\u0130mge\u2026<\/p>\n \u201cZincirlerle \u00e7ekiyor i\u015f\u00e7iler<\/p>\n \u00a0 <\/span>G\u00fcne\u015fi yata\u011f\u0131m\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0 <\/span>Ben nas\u0131l \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131m bu kirli y\u00fczle<\/p>\n \u00a0 <\/span>G\u00fcne\u015fin kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0 <\/span>Ku\u015flar ba\u015fucumda toplanm\u0131\u015f<\/p>\n \u00a0 <\/span>Perdeleri a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yor sabah\u0131n<\/p>\n \u00a0 <\/span>Ben nas\u0131l sokar\u0131m bu tembel v\u00fccudu<\/p>\n \u00a0 <\/span>Bah\u00e7esine Allah\u2019\u0131n?\u201d (Celal S\u0131lay)\u00a0 <\/span>Ne \u00e7ok severdim bu dizeleri. \u0130\u015f\u00e7ilerin g\u00fcne\u015fe zincirler takarak yan\u0131ma kadar g\u00fcne\u015fi getirmeleri\u2026 Ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011fa g\u00f6zlerini yumunca insan, bazen b\u00f6yle gayret gerektirir \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6rebilmesi! Sahi ben en son ne zaman izledim g\u00fcne\u015fin do\u011fu\u015funu? Halbuki \u201cak\u0131ll\u0131 insan g\u00fcne\u015fi \u00fczerine do\u011fdurmaz!\u201d der eskiler.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cUyan ey g\u00f6zlerim gafletten uyan\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0 <\/span>Uyan uykusu \u00e7ok g\u00f6zlerim uyan!…\u201d Hem bedenen hem kalben uykulardan uza\u011fa atmal\u0131y\u0131m kendimi. \u0130\u00e7imin k\u0131p\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131nda harekete ge\u00e7meliyim. Her g\u00fcn yeni bir g\u00fcn olmal\u0131.\u00a0 <\/span>Mevlana Hazretleri\u2019nin o m\u00fcthi\u015f dizeleri zihnimden kalbime ak\u0131yor:<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>\u201cHer g\u00fcn bir yerlerden g\u00f6\u00e7mek ne iyi<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Her g\u00fcn bir yerlere konmak ne g\u00fczel<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Bulanmadan donmadan akmak ne ho\u015f<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>D\u00fcnle birlikte gitti canca\u011f\u0131z\u0131m<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Ne kadar s\u00f6z varsa d\u00fcne ait\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>\u015eimdi yeni \u015feyler s\u00f6ylemek l\u00e2z\u0131m!\u201d<\/p>\n Cama vuran p\u0131t\u0131r p\u0131t\u0131r seslerle ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 pencereye \u00e7eviriyorum. D\u0131\u015farda ya\u011fmur ya\u011f\u0131yor. Ya\u011fmur\u2026<\/p>\n Ne b\u00fcy\u00fck bereket, rahmet, topra\u011fa de\u011fen serinlik\u2026 Ya\u011fmur dolu dizeler i\u00e7indeyim \u015fimdi. Bir ya\u011fmura bak\u0131yorum, bir de aynaya.<\/p>\n \u00a0<\/span>\u201cBu ya\u011fmur bu ya\u011fmur<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>Bu k\u0131ldan ince<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>Nefesten yumu\u015fak ya\u011fan<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>Bu ya\u011fmur<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>Bu ya\u011fmur bu ya\u011fmur\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>Bir g\u00fcn dinince<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>Aynalar y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc tan\u0131maz olur\u201d diyor Necip Faz\u0131l. Dinsin istemiyorum bu ya\u011fmuru. Aynalar y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc tan\u0131maya devam etsinler. Ya\u015fay\u0131p g\u00fczel \u015feyler yapay\u0131m. \u00dczerimdeki \u00f6l\u00fc topra\u011f\u0131n\u0131 atma vaktidir \u015fimdi. Al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131klar\u0131mdan, ataletten, kurtulup \u00fcmitsizli\u011fi yenmem gerekli. Bunca \u015fiirin ve \u015fairin bir aynadan bana bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fu demle toparlanmal\u0131y\u0131m.<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>\u201cHer dem yeniden do\u011far\u0131z<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Bizden kim usanas\u0131\u201d diyor Yunus Emre Hazretleri tebess\u00fcmle. Nas\u0131l desem, ne s\u00f6ylesem de s\u00f6zlerim kifayetsiz kal\u0131r benim. Yunus Emre\u2019ye kendi dizeleriyle\u00a0 <\/span>mukabele ediyorum:<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>\u201cYunus ne ho\u015f demi\u015fsin \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Bal u \u015feker yemi\u015fsin<\/p>\n \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Ballar bal\u0131n\u0131 buldum\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Kovan\u0131m ya\u011fma olsun\u201d \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u00c7ocuklar\u0131m sesleniyorlar bana ortancam\u0131n karn\u0131 ac\u0131km\u0131\u015f, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm \u00fcst\u00fcne su d\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f. B\u00fcy\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm kendi halinde\u2026Hayat i\u015fte! Hep aynan\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dizelerle ya\u015fanacak de\u011fil ya! Zaman diyorum. Tebess\u00fcm ediyorum.<\/p>\n \u00a0 <\/span>\u201cNe i\u00e7indeyim zaman\u0131n\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Ne de b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda\u2026\u201d (Ahmet Hamdi)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Canan Duyu\u015f Gaflet uykusunda yatar uyanmaz \u00a0 Can g\u00f6z\u00fc kapal\u0131 gafil\u00e2n \u00e7oktur\u2026\u201d \u00c7ok uykuyla hemhal oldu\u011fum bir g\u00fcn\u00fcn<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1221,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[2],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n