Selam sana kara baht\u0131m\u0131n ak yaz\u0131s\u0131. Selam sana k\u00f6r yanlar\u0131m\u0131n ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131… Sevdim seni… Sevdim de sevgini g\u00f6nl\u00fcme yazd\u0131m… \u00d6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn on yedi y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131 senin g\u00f6lgende huzur i\u00e7inde ya\u015fad\u0131m. Deli g\u00f6nl\u00fcm seninle duruldu. Senin koruyucu limanlar\u0131nda huzura erdi, t\u00fcrl\u00fc ta\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131klardan, hastal\u0131kl\u0131 ve ar\u0131zi hallerden emin ya\u015fad\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Bahar\u0131n t\u00fcm g\u00fczelliklerini seninle ya\u015fad\u0131m ben Sen \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn hem ne\u015fesi, hem semeresi oldun. Kederli anlar\u0131m\u0131n tesellisi, ne\u015feli anlar\u0131m\u0131n e\u011flencesi idin. Seninle \u00e7ekiliyordu ak\u015fam\u0131n yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131, seninle daha g\u00fczeldi g\u00fcnlerin ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131… Yaz\u0131n g\u00f6lgesinde serinledi\u011fim, k\u0131\u015f\u0131n nefesinde \u0131s\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131m sendin. G\u00fcz ak\u015famlar\u0131n\u0131n h\u00fczn\u00fc sende kaybolurdu. Bahar sabahlar\u0131n\u0131n ne\u015fesi sendin. Sen, benim sevdi\u011fimdin. Ad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6nl\u00fcme yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m, d\u00fc\u015flerimin kahraman\u0131, \u015fiirlerimin ilham\u0131yd\u0131n…\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Bir bahar mevsiminde bahar \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi gibi, g\u00fcl gibi a\u00e7t\u0131n g\u00f6nl\u00fcmde. Bir g\u00fcne\u015f gibi do\u011fdun hayat\u0131ma. \u00d6nce g\u00f6zlerinin ate\u015fi d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc kalbime sonra g\u00f6nl\u00fcmde sevdan alev ald\u0131. Hayat\u0131ma dokunan, hayat\u0131ma giren ilk yabanc\u0131 sen oldun. \u00d6yle bir girdin ki sen ben oldun, ben sen oldum…\u00a0 <\/span>Sen iyi ki benim oldun, benimle oldun. Sen kalbimin ferahl\u0131\u011f\u0131na vesile, g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcn ho\u015flu\u011funa vas\u0131ta oldun. \u201cKimin d\u00fcnyada g\u00fczel ahlakl\u0131, iyi huylu bir han\u0131m\u0131 varsa, onun rahat\u0131 tam demektir,\u201ddiyen \u015fair ne g\u00fczel s\u00f6ylemi\u015f. Ey benim iyi huylu, iri g\u00f6zl\u00fc mele\u011fim. Sayende, seninle ge\u00e7en y\u0131llarda rahat\u0131m tamd\u0131, huzurum yerindeydi. Ya \u015fimdi? Sensiz ge\u00e7en g\u00fcnlerde, gecelerde halim nicedir?<\/p>\n Bir y\u0131ld\u0131za ula\u015fmak, bir mehtab\u0131 seyretmek gibiydi yan\u0131nda olmak. \u015eik\u00e2yetsiz ak\u015famlar da umut dolu, g\u00f6n\u00fclden ya\u015famakt\u0131 hayat\u0131. Bir bardak \u00e7ayda sevday\u0131 yudumlamakt\u0131, hayat\u0131 ya\u015famakt\u0131, hayat\u0131n tad\u0131n\u0131 almakt\u0131… Seninleyken her \u015feyin tad\u0131 vard\u0131… Sen hayat\u0131n tad\u0131yd\u0131n. \u00c7ay\u0131mda \u015fekerim, \u00e7orbamda tuzumdun. Ne fayda ki, \u015fimdi yan\u0131mda de\u011filsin. Tad\u0131 ka\u00e7t\u0131 hayat\u0131n…<\/p>\n Ey yar!\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Ne g\u00fczel talihin varm\u0131\u015f senin… Neden mi diyorsun? Nedeni \u015f\u00f6yle ki en g\u00fczel yerindeymi\u015fsin kalbimin… Seni seven, sana de\u011fer veren, seni incitmekten, \u00fczmekten ka\u00e7\u0131nan bir sevdi\u011fin varm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n Ey sevgisini g\u00f6nl\u00fcme ekti\u011fim, iri g\u00f6zlerinin hasretini \u00e7ekti\u011fim yar!\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Y\u00fcre\u011fimin derinlerinden gelen ancak dilimden bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc d\u00f6k\u00fclemeyip de \u015fimdilerde kalemimin ucundan damlayan yukar\u0131daki sat\u0131rlar\u0131 okudu\u011funda g\u00f6nl\u00fcnde solmayan g\u00fcller a\u00e7acak biliyorum. Belki g\u00f6z p\u0131narlar\u0131ndan sevginin, \u00f6zlemin, sevilmenin g\u00fczelli\u011finden kaynaklanan bulutlanmalar, bu\u011fulanmalar olu\u015facak. Belki bulutlar\u0131n yo\u011funlu\u011fundan akan ya\u015flar, g\u00f6zp\u0131narlar\u0131ndan d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya do\u011fru akacak. Sonra \u201cba\u015f\u0131na ta\u015f d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f olmal\u0131 bu adam\u0131n\u201d diyeceksin, \u015fa\u015f\u0131racaks\u0131n belki de… Emin olmak i\u00e7in bir daha okuyacaks\u0131n. Sonra duvarlar\u0131n da dile gelebildi\u011fine, duygusal olabildi\u011fine \u015fahit olacaks\u0131n. \u201cYok yok, bunun ba\u015f\u0131na ta\u015f d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f olmal\u0131\u201d diye bir kez daha s\u00f6yleneceksin. Ne yalan s\u00f6yleyeyim. Hasretinin ate\u015fi d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc g\u00f6nl\u00fcme, sevdan\u0131n volkan\u0131 patlad\u0131 y\u00fcre\u011fimde, \u00f6zleminle… \u0130\u015fte bu sat\u0131rlar patlayan volkan\u0131n ate\u015fi gibi yakan, g\u00fcl k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131s\u0131 lavlard\u0131r. Bilemem ki bu g\u00fcl k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131s\u0131 lavlara dokunabilir, i\u00e7ine dalabilir misin?<\/p>\n Sensizli\u011fin zindan\u0131nda\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Ate\u015f d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc y\u00fcre\u011fime<\/p>\n Sende kald\u0131 bir yan\u0131m<\/p>\n Yar\u0131m halimle nas\u0131l ya\u015far\u0131m<\/p>\n Hangi yana d\u00f6nsem \u0131st\u0131rap<\/p>\n H\u00fcz\u00fcn \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f zindan\u0131mda<\/p>\n Bir ate\u015f yan\u0131p duruyor ta \u015furamda<\/p>\n Senin sevginin att\u0131\u011f\u0131 tarafta<\/p>\n Her ak\u015fam sensizli\u011fin zindan\u0131nda<\/p>\n Bir h\u00fcz\u00fcn d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlenir bo\u011faz\u0131mda<\/p>\n Bir \u00e7are arar\u0131m i\u00e7ine d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm hayata<\/p>\n Visalinden ba\u015fka yol gelmez akl\u0131ma.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Mecit \u00d6zdemir Selam sana kara baht\u0131m\u0131n ak yaz\u0131s\u0131. Selam sana k\u00f6r yanlar\u0131m\u0131n ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131… Sevdim seni… Sevdim de sevgini<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1524,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[2],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n