{"id":1161,"date":"2020-07-01T00:52:59","date_gmt":"2020-07-01T00:52:59","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=1161"},"modified":"2020-07-01T00:52:59","modified_gmt":"2020-07-01T00:52:59","slug":"trafikteki-kiz","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sesdergisi.ca\/?p=1161","title":{"rendered":"Trafikteki K\u0131z"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u00a0Fuat \u015eahin<\/span><\/p>\n

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O\u00a0g\u00fcn ger\u00e7ekle\u015fecek olan g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fme i\u00e7in ayr\u0131 bir \u00f6zenli giyinmi\u015fti. Pek dikkat \u00e7ekmeyen sade \u015feyleri tercih etmi\u015fti. G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmenin mahiyetini tam olarak bilmese de, uzun s\u00fcredir bekledi\u011fi terfiyi ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. B\u00fcy\u00fck bir \u015firkette m\u00fcd\u00fcr yard\u0131mc\u0131s\u0131 pozisyonundayd\u0131. M\u00fcd\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011fe terfi etmesi hi\u00e7 de s\u00fcrpriz olmazd\u0131; ancak bu i\u00e7indeki heyecana m\u00e2ni de\u011fildi. Nihayetinde \u00e7ok \u00e7abalam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bu konuma gelebilmek i\u00e7in. Hi\u00e7 uyumad\u0131\u011f\u0131 gecelerin say\u0131s\u0131 az de\u011fildi fakat \u015fu an buradayd\u0131. \u201cHepsine de de\u011fdi.\u201d diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Trafik yo\u011fun de\u011fildi ama a\u00e7\u0131k da say\u0131lmazd\u0131. Ara ara duraksamalar olsa da ak\u0131yordu trafik. Bu gidi\u015fle yeti\u015fecek gibi duruyordu. Trafik durdu\u011fu s\u0131rada, be\u015f \u015feritli yolda sat\u0131\u015f yapmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan birka\u00e7 ki\u015fi g\u00f6z\u00fcne ili\u015fti. \u0130nsanlar arabalar\u0131nda iken emr-i vak\u00ee yaparak para koparmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan tiplerdi bunlar. Hele o cam silip -ger\u00e7i \u00e7o\u011fu zaman daha \u00e7ok pisleniyordu ya!- ars\u0131zca para isteyen ve gitmeyen sokak \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 yok mu…? Nefret ediyordu onlardan. O pis, esmer suratlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmek bile huzursuz ediyordu. Evinde besledi\u011fi Golden cinsi k\u00f6pek bile daha sevimliydi onlardan. Fakir do\u011fmu\u015f olmalar\u0131 onlar\u0131n su\u00e7u de\u011fildi belki, kendisi de \u00e7ok zengin bir ailede do\u011fmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Orta halli bir memurdu babas\u0131 ancak Bill Gates\u2019e bu konuda \u00e7ok hak veriyordu; \u201cFakir do\u011fmak sizin su\u00e7unuz de\u011fil ancak fakir \u00f6lmek sizin su\u00e7unuz.\u201d \u00c7al\u0131\u015f\u0131p \u00e7abalamak yerine, ucuz numaralar ve duygu s\u00f6m\u00fcr\u00fcleri ile insanlardan para koparmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fanlar, son derece itici idi.<\/p>\n

Derken birden, araban\u0131n cam\u0131n\u0131 birisi t\u0131klatt\u0131. 8-9 ya\u015flar\u0131nda esmer, pasakl\u0131 bir k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu cama vuru-<\/p>\n

yordu. \u00dczerinde belki kendine iki beden b\u00fcy\u00fck, kedi desenli pembe bir ti\u015f\u00f6rt, elinde de 4-5 paket ucuz \u0131slak mendillerden vard\u0131. Umursamadan yola bakmaya devam etti. Hatta ilgilenmedi\u011fini g\u00f6stermek i\u00e7in kafas\u0131n-<\/p>\n

daki g\u00fcne\u015f g\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc de g\u00f6z\u00fcne indirdi fakat gitmiyordu i\u015fte k\u0131z. Trafi\u011fin de akma gibi bir niyeti yoktu. K\u0131zdan kurtulamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlay\u0131nca, cam\u0131 yar\u0131ya kadar indirdi. Tam \u201cKaybol velet!\u201d diyecekti ki, k\u0131z, elindeki \u0131slak mendil paketinden bir adet \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131p camdan uzatt\u0131 ve \u00f6teki eliyle cam\u0131n arkas\u0131ndan yakas\u0131n\u0131 i\u015faret etti. Sonra tek kelime etmeden ko\u015farak, otobandaki arabalar\u0131n aras\u0131nda g\u00f6zden kayboldu. 30 saniye hayretler i\u00e7inde k\u0131z\u0131n gitti\u011fi y\u00f6ne do\u011fru bakakald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yakas\u0131na bakt\u0131. Uzaktan bak\u0131lsa bile s\u0131r\u0131tacak bir leke vard\u0131. Sabah acele ile iki yudum al\u0131p b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 taze s\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015f portakal suyundan damlam\u0131\u015f olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Barda\u011f\u0131n geri kalan\u0131na ne oldu\u011funu ise kendisi bilmezdi. Muhtemelen evdeki hizmet\u00e7i lavaboya d\u00f6k\u00fcyordu. Elindeki mendille lekeyi sert\u00e7e ovalad\u0131. Leke \u015fa\u015f\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131 bir \u015fekilde kaybolmu\u015ftu. B\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0131slakl\u0131k da kurursa, pek bir \u015fey kalmayacak gibiydi.<\/p>\n

K\u0131z\u0131n kayboldu\u011fu y\u00f6ne do\u011fru bir kere daha bakt\u0131. Az \u00f6nce d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc \u015feylerden \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fc \u00e7ok utanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. O, k\u0131za tiksinen g\u00f6zlerle bakarken, k\u0131z tatl\u0131 bir tebess\u00fcm ile kendisine iyi-<\/p>\n

lik yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kendisinin aksine, k\u0131z\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc kapkara olmas\u0131na ra\u011fmen, kalbi temiz ve saft\u0131. \u00c7\u0131karc\u0131l\u0131ktan, h\u0131rstan, anlams\u0131z rekabetten uzak bir kalp idi bu. Bir anl\u0131\u011f\u0131na kendinden, o k\u0131zdan i\u011frendi\u011finden daha fazla i\u011frendi fakat sadece bir an.<\/p>\n

Trafik a\u00e7\u0131lmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda son model jipinin konta\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirdi ve \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 binan\u0131n 58. kat\u0131nda ger\u00e7ekle\u015fecek olan g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmesi i\u00e7in gaza bast\u0131. Yar\u0131m saat sonra, kendisi t\u00fcm \u015fehrin en y\u00fcksek binalar\u0131n\u0131n birinde afilli bir plaket al\u0131rken, o k\u0131z elindeki mendilleri trafikte iki liraya satabilmek i\u00e7in \u00e7abal\u0131yor olacakt\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

(Arabas\u0131na binip eve d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f i\u00e7in yolculu\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda) ruhunda ufac\u0131k bir burkuntu hissetti. Hissetti ancak kendisi de bu noktaya t\u0131rnaklar\u0131yla kazarak gelmi\u015fti. Bill Gates\u2019in laf\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. \u0130\u00e7i rahatlad\u0131. Art\u0131k i\u00e7inde bir burkuntu yoktu. K\u0131z\u0131n bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 unutmu\u015ftu bile. Umursamazca gaz pedal\u0131na daha da as\u0131ld\u0131. Eskiden olsa bu kadar \u00e7abuk unutamazd\u0131 bu olay\u0131. Kendisi de kendisine \u015fa\u015f\u0131r\u0131yordu ancak rahats\u0131z etmedi bu onu. Bu kadar ac\u0131n\u0131n ya\u015fand\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir d\u00fcnyada, bu kadar ruhsuzla\u015fmam\u0131\u015f olsa, gece g\u00fcnd\u00fcz \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak geldi\u011fi konumun tad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karamazd\u0131. Vicdan\u0131n yok olmas\u0131 ve umursamazl\u0131k, bu d\u00fcnyadan zevk alabilmesi i\u00e7in \u015fartt\u0131 bir nevi.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/span>Art\u0131k o k\u0131z\u0131 tamamiyle unutmu\u015ftu. 10 dakika \u00f6nce ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu sars\u0131c\u0131 olay\u0131, art\u0131k hi\u00e7 ya\u015famam\u0131\u015f gibiydi. Yakas\u0131ndaki \u0131slakl\u0131k da ha kurudu ha kuruyacakt\u0131. Yani kendisini o pasakl\u0131 k\u0131za ba\u011flayan bir \u015fey kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Onu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcp can s\u0131kmas\u0131n\u0131n da alemi yoktu pek \u00e2l\u00e2. Derken deh\u015fetli ve uzun bir korna sesiyle irkildi. Sesin geldi\u011fi y\u00f6ne bir refleks ile kafas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirdi ancak g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc son manzara devasa t\u0131r\u0131n d\u00f6rtl\u00fcleri idi. Sebebini kesinlikle anlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7ok ani bir \u015fekilde gelmi\u015fti \u00f6l\u00fcm. Bu \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc hazin k\u0131lan \u015fey, gen\u00e7 ve ba\u015far\u0131l\u0131 bir i\u015f kad\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n, kariyerinin zirvesinde iken bir trafik kazas\u0131na kurban gitmesi de\u011fildi. Bir insan\u0131n vicdan\u0131n\u0131n son damlas\u0131n\u0131 da t\u00fcketti\u011fi bir anda \u00f6lmesi \u00e7ok daha ac\u0131kl\u0131 idi. Belki o k\u0131z\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc be\u015f dakika daha hat\u0131r\u0131nda tutsa, vicdan\u0131ndaki bu s\u0131z\u0131y\u0131 be\u015f dakika daha hissetmi\u015f olsa, d\u00fcnyadan h\u00e2l\u00e2 iyi bir insanken ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f olacakt\u0131. O i\u011frendi\u011fi ve a\u015fa\u011f\u0131l\u0131k g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc k\u0131z, temiz bir kalp ile ya\u015fam\u0131na devam ederken, kendisi bir k\u00e2til olarak \u00f6l\u00fcp gidiyordu. Evet k\u00e2tildi ve belki de uzun y\u0131llar ya\u015fasayd\u0131 bir katil olarak ya\u015fayacakt\u0131. \u0130\u00e7indeki insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 az \u00f6nce \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc. Kendi i\u00e7indeki insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 katletmi\u015f birinden daha \u00e2l\u00e2 k\u00e2til mi olurdu? (Son nefesini verirken) Belki tek teselli noktas\u0131, bu cinayetin tek \u015fahidinin kendisi olmas\u0131 idi.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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