Hi\u00e7bir be\u015f harfli kelime, belki onun kadar \u0131s\u0131tmaz i\u00e7ini insan\u0131n. Bir pamuk ipli\u011fi gibi, b\u00f6ylesine nazenin ve ince i\u015flemez, ya\u015fama sevincini g\u00f6zbebeklerine. Hayattan vazge\u00e7mek istedi\u011fi her an, yeni bir nefes \u00fcflemez, hayallerinin o en k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f k\u00f6\u015felerine. Hi\u00e7bir be\u015f harfli kelime, umut kadar doldurmaz insan\u0131n g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc mucizelerle. Gelecek g\u00fcnlerin g\u00fczelli\u011fine, her \u015feyin d\u00fczelece\u011fine inand\u0131ramaz. Umudun yerini, ne ba\u015fka bir duygu, ne de ba\u015fka biri dolduramaz.<\/p>\n
Do\u011fdu\u011fumuz andan ba\u015flar umutla seyahatimiz. Duygular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n tak\u0131m \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131n, en hayat\u00ee anahtar\u0131d\u0131r o. Belki hi\u00e7bir zaman deneyemesek de, onunla b\u00fct\u00fcn kap\u0131lar\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131laca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilerek b\u00fcy\u00fcr\u00fcz. Bu sebeptendir bebekken a\u011flamalar\u0131m\u0131z. \u00c7ocuklu\u011fumuz da, g\u00f6zlerimizi b\u00fcy\u00fcterek her bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda ebeveynlerimize, ard\u0131nda saklanm\u0131\u015f minicik umutlar\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131r. Kalemi elimize ilk ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda, \u00e7izdi\u011fimiz her resmin boyalar\u0131ndayken umudun resmi; d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde yan\u0131na ko\u015ftu\u011fumuz arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131za, uzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z elimize saklanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Bizimle seneler ge\u00e7irmi\u015f, bizimle b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f ve biz payla\u015ft\u0131k\u00e7a \u00e7o\u011falm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Bazen, ak\u015famlar\u0131 i\u015ften yorgun arg\u0131n evine d\u00f6nen bir baban\u0131n po\u015fetine saklanm\u0131\u015f olarak g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fcz onu. Bazen, sabah\u0131n ilk \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131ndan, gecenin son demlerine kadar \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan, bir madencinin k\u00f6m\u00fcr karas\u0131 ellerinde. Kimi narin fidanlar\u0131n, ilmek ilmek mendile i\u015flediklerinde kar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131rken onunla, kimi ya\u011f\u0131z k\u00fcheylanlar\u0131n, \u015fafak \u015fafak sayd\u0131klar\u0131 g\u00fcnlerde g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fcz. Kimi taze ailelerin, ay ay bekledi\u011fini, kimi ya\u015fl\u0131 g\u00f6n\u00fcllerin, zor gecelerce g\u00f6zlediklerini g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fcz. Bazen, yeni a\u00e7an bir \u00e7i\u00e7ek onu anlat\u0131rken, bazen t\u00fcm yapraklar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f, kalan son bir yapra\u011fa s\u0131k\u0131ca sar\u0131lan, bir a\u011fac\u0131n dallar\u0131nda rastlar\u0131z ona. O, ya a\u015fina y\u00fczlerle \u00e7\u0131kar kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131za ya da yedi kat yaban el-<\/p>\n
lerden gelmi\u015f, kendine has duru\u015fuyla. Her f\u0131rt\u0131na da en \u00e7ok ona k\u0131zarken, yine onu bekleriz ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z her enkazdan sonra. Onunla \u00e7ocuk oluruz \u00e7o\u011fu zaman yeniden, onunla ko\u015far\u0131z ayd\u0131nl\u0131k sabahlarda. Kimimiz ona, bir sava\u015f\u0131n ortas\u0131nda rast-<\/p>\n
lam\u0131\u015f\u0131zd\u0131r. Kimi, d\u00f6rt duvar aras\u0131nda belki ona saklanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Kimisi, onun denizinde y\u00fczm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr doya doya, kimi, batmak \u00fczere olan gemilerini onda y\u00fczd\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr usulca. Kimi, onunla ruhunu kanatland\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r, kimi belki ad\u0131n\u0131 bile hat\u0131rlamakta zorlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Kimi, onu d\u00fcnyalara s\u0131\u011fd\u0131ramam\u0131\u015f, kimisi hep payla\u015fmaktan ka\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Kimisi ticaretini yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r onun. Bir mal gibi satm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r pazarda. Hatta \u2018Umut Taciri\u2019 bile denilmi\u015ftir ad\u0131na. Kimisi de avu\u00e7 avu\u00e7 da\u011f\u0131tm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r f\u00fctursuzca meydanlarda.\u00a0 <\/span>Kimi-<\/p>\n sinin, dolu dolu ceplerinde \u015f\u0131ng\u0131rdatmas\u0131nda duyar\u0131z sesini, \u00a0 <\/span>ki-<\/p>\n misinin bo\u015flu\u011fa savurdu\u011fu i\u00e7 hayk\u0131r\u0131\u015flar\u0131nda. Kimisinin de, y\u0131k\u0131k bir enkaz\u0131n yan\u0131nda her \u015feyini kaybetmi\u015fken tuttu\u011fu, bir ekmek par\u00e7as\u0131nda. Kimisi onu s\u00fcrer, yaralanm\u0131\u015f olanlar\u0131n yaralar\u0131na, kimi hapseder en karanl\u0131k zindanlara. Kimi, onunla ayd\u0131nlat\u0131r g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc, kimi bo\u011far onu ruhunun karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na. Kimi fakir evler onunla \u015fenlenirken, kimi saraylar a\u011f\u0131rlayamaz onu o kalabal\u0131k sofralarda. Herkesin sesleni\u015fi de, bak\u0131\u015f\u0131 da farkl\u0131d\u0131r ona. Kendilerinden kelimeler renkler katarak, kucak a\u00e7arlar insanl\u0131\u011fa. Bir \u00f6\u011fretmen, bah\u00e7\u0131van gibi onunla sularken \u00f6\u011frencilerinin gelece\u011fini; bir doktor, ameliyat kap\u0131s\u0131nda bekleyen hasta yak\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fcreklerine onunla su serpmi\u015ftir. Bir ressam, belki en g\u00fczel tablosunu onun renkleriyle yaparken, bir m\u00fczisyen, notalar\u0131 onun ahengiyle olu\u015fturmu\u015ftur s\u0131ra s\u0131ra. Bir \u015fair, belki onunla en onulmaz yaralara merhem s\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr. Onunla dokunmu\u015ftur \u015fark\u0131lar, t\u00fcrk\u00fcler, \u015fiirler, insan\u0131n yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131na. Bir \u015fark\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131kan bir c\u00fcmle, onunla usulca y\u00fcreklere yol alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. \u201cBir umut s\u00fcrsen iyile\u015fir t\u00fcm yaralar.\u201d demi\u015ftir biri, onunla yaralar sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. \u201cYok \u00f6yle umutlar\u0131 yitirip de karanl\u0131kta savrulmak.\u201d demi\u015ftir biri, arkada\u015flar\u0131 onunla ayn\u0131 g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc alt\u0131nda ya\u015famaya, bir direni\u015f demi\u015ftir. Kimi zaman bir m\u00fcjde gibi dola\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r cephe cephe. Koca y\u00fcrekli birisi Akif\u2019\u00e7e \u201cYeis \u00f6yle bir batakt\u0131r ki d\u00fc\u015fersen bo\u011fulursun \/ \u00dcmide sar\u0131l s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 seyret ne olursun.\u201d demi\u015ftir. Z\u0131rhl\u0131lar aras\u0131nda can \u00e7eki\u015fen millet i\u00e7in, bir dirili\u015f olmu\u015ftur. Kimisi onu binbir ayakl\u0131 olarak tan\u0131mlarken, kimisi mucizelerin \u00e7i\u00e7ek a\u00e7mas\u0131n\u0131 bile ona ba\u011flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. S\u00fcrg\u00fcnde bahar\u0131 beklerken, esen r\u00fczgarda onu soluklam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.<\/p>\n Umut, hi\u00e7 bir zaman be\u015f harfe s\u0131\u011fmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r d\u00fcnyalar\u0131m\u0131zda. O, hayata kafa tutma bi\u00e7imidir insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n. Varolu\u015f sava\u015f\u0131nda en \u00f6nemli s\u0131\u011f\u0131na\u011f\u0131, gelecek in\u015faas\u0131nda en \u00f6nemli dayana\u011f\u0131d\u0131r. Ve limandan demir alma g\u00fcn\u00fcne kadar da, en g\u00fcvenli kuca\u011f\u0131d\u0131r. Hi\u00e7bir be\u015f harfli kelime umut kadar bizi yans\u0131tmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r aynalarda. Umuda \u015fiirler yazan \u015fairler gibi, umudu bah\u00e7elerimize g\u00fcl gibi ekerek, \u0131\u015f\u0131ldayan g\u00f6zlerimizle ve taze sevin\u00e7lerimizle yeniden bak\u0131yoruz yar\u0131na. \u015eimdi kald\u0131r g\u00f6zlerini umudun boyad\u0131\u011f\u0131\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n renklerle dolu olan g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcne ve \u0131\u015f\u0131lda. Diline dolanan o s\u00f6zlere ses tellerin e\u015flik etsin ve senden hat\u0131ra kals\u0131n, o y\u00fcrekten s\u00f6zler yar\u0131nlara. G\u00fcr sesinle inlet kubbeyi, umudun sana verdigi o g\u00fczide hakla \u201cYok \u00f6yle umutlar\u0131 yitirip de karanl\u0131kta savrulmak, unutma ayn\u0131 g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc alt\u0131nda bir direni\u015ftir ya\u015famak\u201d de ve unutma, umut her zaman laz\u0131md\u0131r sana, onu \u00f6yle hor kullan\u0131p y\u0131pratma.\u201cSen yine de bug\u00fcnden yar\u0131na birazc\u0131k umut sakla.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Bet\u00fcl Y\u0131lmaz Hi\u00e7bir be\u015f harfli kelime, belki onun kadar \u0131s\u0131tmaz i\u00e7ini insan\u0131n. Bir pamuk ipli\u011fi gibi, b\u00f6ylesine nazenin<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1022,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[2],"tags":[],"yoast_head":"\n